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| playmate101 (profile) wrote, on 7-12-2004 at 4:32pm | |
| Current mood: aggravated Music: True // Ryan Cabrera Subject: i'm weak, it's true, i'm just scared to know the ending. |
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| idk y i'm updating... i've been thinking... n plus i'm really bored. had practice & hung with Chels & Nikki. "i had one n i swear my macaroni started talking to me". "omg matrix whoaaa" lmao. "yo baby, yo baby yo MOMMA!" lmao "all those kids in private school are baddd, u think they're good, but their parents didn't want them thats y they got stuck there." lol. anyways... got home from practice & ashley & i were gonna go shopping... but she doesn't have money to spend. =/ for some reason, i have this feeling that she doesn't like me.... idk i didn't d0o nutn. maybe i'm just annoying to her. lol i know i get annoyed with people. *shrug* s0o at noon today, my phone rang. i thought someone called... but it was my alarm that i set awhile back... the 12th of every month, it would go off @ noon, for our anniversary. thats when i hit rock bottom. just got weaker... felt down, but what can ya do? neil n i hadda convo last night. i liked it alot.. someone to talk to. but he just kept insisting that i find new guys. HCOblonde31: u know how u were talking about how bein with someone... n havin those simple hugs feel different... jonahs have always been different... n so have our talks... compared to the many other guys i've met & hung with in the past few weeks... thats why they dont compare.... HCOblonde31: mushy lil girl lol sry MoFo1788: yea but tahts cuz u liked him MoFo1788: start liken sum1 else and to my surprise... i haven't talked to jonah all day today, and i wanna call him... but i think after last night... him thinking that i want someone that i don't know (dennis)... idk i feel uncomfortable... with him thinking that i pity him... because when i say somethin i mean it. i guess for me to be comfortable he would hafta call me... lets me know that it didnt get him pissed. =/ ok i'm sick of talking... imma go be bored in my bed & watch some more tv. call my cell if u wanna do something, or justttt to say hello. <3 |
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Lizzy | 07-12-04 5:49pm yea i know that feeling...going from a special connection with a guy to just ordinary guys just doesn't seem right. don't rush sweetie. i don't have as many takers as you lol but dont settle for just anybody. cuz you know what special is and you can't go back now. |