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| mizu87 (profile) wrote, on 7-23-2004 at 12:47pm | |
| Current mood: fine/still sore Subject: ... cha |
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| Well, called the Boy's and Girls Town National Hotline (-.-' 1-800-448-3000) -_- Because the girl said I had actually intercourse that I was not a virgin anymore and neither was he. It just.. doesn't seem.. like such a big deal, as in my mind, I made it out to be. Ok in other words, my "cherry" didn't "pop" and he didn't come.. Also, there was no condom involved and it scares me to think I might be pregnant so I don't think about it. Here is the deal: After church my parents still weren't back from the dentist (mom's appointment was at 11:30 and church was over at 8. It's an hour drive but still, come'on now) so Anton drove me home and had to be home but I made him let me get the ice key so I could take it back to work, I was paying for gas. I dropped off the stolen Ice key (I ran off with it again -.-' didn't mean to) and had him drive by GasMart (Brook's work) and we didn't see him soo I'm like 'let's drive by his house!' and.. we passed it and turned around and I got Anton to walk out to knock at the door because I was a scardy cat to go up there myself. Turns out while Ton's was a knockin on the door brook was walking from next door. He was like 'what the-?' Lol.. I gave Anton a five and he left me there with Brook.. I didn't have quite the plan but I thought Autum would be able to take me home so.. ha I stayed. Went to the living room, sat down, he put in Resident Evil 2 for PSX and was playing it and he was like 'you have something on your mind, what is it? I know that look well now' and .. I just looked to his hands and didn't say anything.. I just.. never know how to talk to him.. and I just.. want to talk to him like really talk to him but.. it just never works. So I'm all leaning on him and running my nails up and down his arm and it was ok at first but like 10 minutes into just stupid talk and me doing that he flenched away and said 'ok you're gonna have to stop that, that's spot 4' and I was just I cracked up and I was like' Brook! how many spots is there!' Lol .. and.. he started to kiss me.. and -_- the game was on pause (nathins dad was in his room asleep and it was no one else there but us) And.. then I got in his lap and we was kissing and Brook was like sunk into the couch lol and I was real talk feeling like that.. and he said I needed to stop it because it would lead to 'other' things.. I just looked at him.. and continued XD then he lifted me up and layed on the couch with me on him and.. I was >.> niping his weak spot on his neck and .. -_- then I found out spot number 5 -.-' his bottem lip. ^^ man he was like sticking it in my mouth lol XD I was more then willing to nibble on it xD. Anyway, he was like 'you gotta stop it, cheater' And nibble nibble and.. he started to grind against me and I was like 'finnaly!' that was a thought lol but yes I enjoyed that.. and.. then.. we kept that up and I was kissing him and he's like.. his hand is trying to get in the back of my pants lol and I wear my belts really tight and his hand couldn't get in xD ha ha ha so he tries it from the front lol XD ha ha ha I mean lastnight was frickin halirious! Oh man was I just having a blast with him lol! (Ok, I had called home right when I got inside his house. My brother got the phone and I didn't tell him where I was, I said I'd call back and so yea that was at like 8:40) But anyway he sighed when he couldn't get his hand in that was and I was just laughing and he was like 'shut up! I haven't done this before' he is just so so sweet lol little virgin boy xD he still is really lol. But yes, he's like 'it's your damn belt' and I was like 'well, take it off' and.. ha ha he had trouble just a bit with it and got it undone then was like 'do you just want it undone or off all the way?' and I was like 'your choice' and I mean I made it his choice the whole time. I guess it was my way of.. really.. well.. I mean.. If I made him do everything then I could deny it later.. but I feel aweful for it but.. yea that's the truth. But anyway so he's like 'we'll just take the whole damn thing off' and lol started pulling it off and ha ha he's like 'your belt with like a thousand holes in it' and I'm sure you've all seen those belts with like 2 holes on top of each other all along the belt? Yea, I had on a black one on. But it soon was flung to the floor and lol I was making fun of him the whole time. But yes.. ahh.. his hand went down there a bit but my jeans was tight and he didn't get 'that' far so yea lol but anyway xD fucking front door flies open and hello! Nathin's home! lmao so I hide my face in the couch cushion next to Brook's head lol and Nathin was like 'what the fuck? You guys take it to you're room' Lol I was so sooo embarrased! And I was just laughing hiding my face and Brook was laughing at my reaction and he was like 'well we better do what he says don't want him comming out here bitchin' so he's like 'come'on' and picks me up at my ass and I lock my legs around him and he holds my thighs and starts to walk off and I was like 'you're gonna leave my belt?' and he all sighs, goes back to the couch, sits on the couch, bends down with me and grabs the belt, turns of the TV and playstation and it's pitch black and I'm just hoping I don't get hit with a wall since he's carring me and we get into his pitch black room and my belt hits the floor SoMeWhErE god only knows his room was a mess of clothes everywhere. And he locks the door and sits on his bed and falls back and I'm left there just sprawled ontop of him and move a bit lol and he's like 'ouch' and I'm like 'oh now he says ouch' and he's like 'shut up' lol xD ha ha and so I lean forward (do you want details? Sorry can't help myself) and ran my hands up his flat ass stomach and fucking chest and Mm fucking damn I was already tired lol I guess I don't get turned on very easily at all lol lol xD damn at all at all lol but yea.. and my head was above his and I scooted back and his hands rushed to my tighs and he was like 'ouch' lmao oops ha ha I was like oh well lol But the clock said.. shit.. I think.. 9:45 or something and I was like 'man I need the phone I need to call' and he's like 'no' and I was like kissing him and then I pulled away and was like 'fuck, 9:47' and he just fucking 'stop looking at the clock and knocked the damned thing off his nightstand xD along with a shit load of other stuff I couldn't see but sure as hell heard lol it was glass something. But yea.. didn't take him long to pick up on the grinding again and soon I was on my side, I was biting his lips and he found out that my jeans had 4 bottens XD lol poor guy! He was having such a hard time! Anyway he.. tired to undo it and was all sighing really hard and kept stopping then I rolled on him and was kissing him and he tired it again and sighed and couldn't get it and he was like 'what the fuck man' lmao I was cracking up at him! And he sighed reallly hard and his hand went to his forehead like really fustrated and was like 'damnit I haven't done this before I don't know what to fucking do' and XD I was like 'awww Brook you're so sweet' lol xD ha ha And so he tried again and sighed and couldn't get it so I layed back down on my side and proped up my head on my arm wasn was just watching him lol loving every moment of his fustration and he was like 'I know' and turned me around so my back was to him and I was just wondering why he never did that in the first place. His arms were around me and he just undid 1, 2, 3 buttons and I said that was enough. Didn't take his hand long to get down there lol. That was the best part I think.. close to it. But he asked me how far I wanted to go and fuck man my pants went down and he worked at his and (turns out today he told me he broke his belt ^^') I was ontop of him and .. yep.. he was in me.. no hesistation to use a condom and I sure as hell wasn't gonna ask for one but.. it just... I thought it would hurt more.. but I guess he's small? xD I mean I hate to say it but I think that's how it is. But yes and then we turned and I was on my back him on top and that sure as hell didn't work and he was like 'fuck' because he sure as hell didn't know what the fuck he was doing so I .. god I feel so fucking.. god.. stupid writing this damnit but I rode him pretty much the whole time XD lmao But yes.. and.. it didn't hurt at first and.. that poor poor boy couldn't keep a rythm at all .. he kept comming out and was like 'fuck, fuck, fuck' lmao I was just laughing on the inside. But yep, I took his shirt off and he was butt ass naked and I still had my bra and shirt on lol xD oh well I'm glad it was like that, I'd would of been way more embarrased. But yes.. just.. how he flet.. his back with a cold sweat.. and.. my had was fisted in his hair when he started to get deep. (turns out Ashely told me that riding hurts worse cause they get real deep) and he kept asking if I was ok and I didn't answer and he kept asking it over and over and I was like 'it hurts' and He was like 'i'm sorry' and I said 'i just want you to enjoy it' and he's like 'me too' meaning he wanted me to enjoy it when ... yea.. but.. it was towards the end to.. like 10 something now.. and I would set a rythm and.. he would get with it for awhile, and not less then a minute he could get carried away and break it. Then we'd have to start up a new one and lol it was just funny as hell poor boy was so so fustrated. But yep. We need practice and I'm way looking forward to it. But yep.. he kept asking if I was ok because at the end is when we just started to get with it then there was a knock at the door but.. it was Brook's smoking buddy he told to come over but we didn't move lol and.. my hand was just fisted in his hair and I loved it.. man I was biting anything I could get ahold of xD ha ha I think I bite his eye too xD his eyebrow lol lol it was fun.. funny too.. ha.. but yes.. someone came in the house and we could hear it and talking so I got off of brook.. and boy.. ::clears throat:: Yea but he checked to make sure the door was locked and then he layed back down on the bed and I crawled back on top of him and put him in me again man I was just.. damn.. I wanted more.. and.. yea but.. anyway~ Too many voices so we started to get dressed and I couldn't find my jeans and he couldn't find his and so I found mine and put'em on and bearly could stand to get them on. I mean I literally collapsed on his bed. My legs just gave out. It was my thighs they was like numb or something and I fucking mean it. It was scary lol. But I couldn't find one of my socks and then I was thinking about the movies and everything how after they have sex they can't find there clothes so fuck man I threw my sock aside and said 'ok so I'll pretend I didn't wear socks today' lol and put my shoes on and a car drove by, shining light in the room and I saw that Brook wears tighty whities XD lmao I so pictured him in boxers xD I'm dissapointed XD ha ha ha But yea then after he had his pants on he turned on one of his black lights and didn't know what shirt he was wearing and was looking for it and he saw my other sock so I put my socks and shoes on and then couldn't find my belt and.. man.. fucking his body.. damn.. fuck.. he's hott damnit lmao damn.. he walked by me and man I just reached out and felt his stomach hair.. at the bottem.. and.. pulled him on me and he was shaking. You know how you do like push ups or something and if too many your arms'll start shaking? That's how it was.. but it was my turn to grind man. His leg was between mine and fuck man.. I didn't want to stop. But yes we found his shirt and I couldn't stand and he said for me to go to the couch and nathin was on the phone i needed it, it was like close to 11 and.. I reallly needed to call lol. But I tried to stand and I just fell again and I was like 'Brook, I can't walk, I can't stand' and he was like 'I'll carry you' Thing is he wanted to go next door to go roll one, smoke one.. that he'd be right back and I was like 'omg wtf' and I was like 'Brook, you're not gonna smoke one now, you can wait till I leave' and he was like come'on and so I tried to stand and I started to fall and he caught me but I pushed him away and fell on his bed and I was like 'I mean it my fucking thighs are numb' and nathin was yelling on the phone and brook was like 'ok i won't smoke i'll just go roll one and be right back' and I was like 'you got 2 minutes' and he picked me up (oh he had found my belt) and I leaned backwards when we got to the couch and just was like droped on it but I did it lol and he was all 'when the lights go off on the phones he's off and you can use it' and I was like 'brook' and he was like 'what' and I was like' i'm serious you are not gonna go smoke right now, you can wait till I leave' and he was like 'ah' and I was like 'brook i don't want to be left here alone, with some fucking guy i don't know and an old dude!' and he was like 'ok ok' and came to me holding me 'i won't leave you' and.. ah.. but yea.. he stayed got some water nathin got off the phone, I decided to call Ashley and spend the night and Brook was saying she wouldn't come get me since she was in bulldog down adn wouldn't drive this far and she didn't ask, she just came. And so.. I was like Brook, unless you can find me a ride I'm gonna call Autum because I can't walk. And it's a ten minute walk up to the place I told them I was gonna meet them at, SubShack. yea so I was like 'oh fuck no' and Brook was like 'you are not gonna call autum' and I was like 'brook i cant' walk' and he was like 'i'm bearly standing!' and I was like' well unless you are gonna carry me we ai'nt gonna make it in no ten minutes' and he sighed, called her house and she wasn't there. He just.. .. his expression.. ah.. I love being with him.. he called like 6 other places, saying 'damint i don't want to call this bastard damnit i don't want to call blah blah' didn't like the people but was looking for her for me. and .. it felt good. Because he just doesn't want shit to do with her anymore and I don't fucking know why. But.. no luck so we started out to walk, went next door and my plan was to call mom at Ashley's. Brook said he'd be back to smoke in like 10, 15 minutes and dude said he'd be asleep and so we left towards the street, and a car was comming and Brook said 'it's a truck' and I sure as hell can't tell by headlights but anyway he stoped and I was like 'why are you stoping?' and he said 'can't I wait till this car passes?' and I was like 'ah..' and turned towards the car and then really heard it and I was like 'its' our truck!' and Brook was like 'yep' with a sigh lol ha ha i'm such a jinx. But yepz, mom got out, pointed a finger at Brook 'you are NOT to call for 30 days' and blah blah and Brooks' expression was like.. pricless poor poor boy I cause him so much trouble. His expression he was just wordless lol. But bitch bitch bitch in the car, windows down, stoners out on random porches and mom turns around and we drive by brook's house again and on the phone today at work when I called him he said that he could hear them bitching and he was like 'damn how bad was it' But yea. Waited at SubShack for Ashley, and she finnaly came, Turns out they got stoped for going 55 in a 45 zone and no ticket and went to the wrong place, 5 minutes turned around and came to subshack where we were. And yea.. hug hug she is shorter then me now and she came in the truck and spent the night. Got home and talked outside for like an hour and shit and told her everything about lastnight and before and shit and she has an off and on man who's 23 that she .. loves his ways now and yada yada. Anyway on the couch lastnight I was telling Brook how my parents were talking bout kicking me out and he said 'well I'm about to get my place' and he is serious about me moving in with him and just cha lol But yep.. I called him when I got to work like after 2 today and he was still asleep lol! Ha ha boy was he sore and cranky lol ha ha but sweet to me. He said he thinks I broke his bed, that there is like a dent and lump in it and I told him to shut up lol xD ha ha and he was like 'I'm serious! It took me forever to get to sleep' ha ha but yea.. I said I had to go I'd call him in 10 15 minutes because Jakeeta was just about to leave and jinx lol we started talking, me and Jakeeta about everything and she just was like 'you keep getting in trouble and yada yada' lol and sonny was like 'you just keep adding shit ontop of shit' ha ha And anyway, it's just.. jakeeta is really cool. but yea.. I was like 'what should I do' and she was like 'well I dont' know, you say every idea of mine won't work so just tough it out till you're 18, there really isn't anything you can do if your parents don't want to let you go' so.. I think i'm gonna be all happy and wait out my 30 days of punishment because I deserve it and just be happy and enjoy the time with my parents I have left untill I am 18 and fucking get the hell out of here. Will I still be with Brook at the time? I don't see myself without him anymore... But yep. I didn't call him back untill after 3 and he was at work. I had Sonny call him becaues I did'nt want to ask for him because I think they know my voice there and sonny is a guy so yea.. and anyway I talked to him and he wasn't that busy and we talked for awhile then his phone started to die lol i'm such a jinx and for the first time EVER he said 'you can call me back in like an hour, I shouldn't be busy then' and he has never asked me to call him back at work before, never and I was like damn lol I said 'how bout you call me back 'and he was 'ok, then I'll talk to ya later' and I was like 'alright' click and he called me back in a couple of hours. I figured he got busy and he did. But yep I was busy too so it didn't matter. I wasn't mad at him for not calling in exactly an hour or anything. But yep.. he said he was kinda busy so that I could call him back before I left work, when I got off. Lol and I was like 'call you back at work?' and he's like 'yea' and I was like 'ok' and so.. after I got all my shit done, I had the silverwear in my lap and was rollin while I talked to him and .. yea.. but yep.. he said he probably wouldn't be home till around two so yep.. it's like 1:50 now so. I'm gonna call him once I get off.. try anyway.. But yep.. he said he'd miss me when I told him I had to go that my ride was here (dad lol) and I was like 'miss you too' and.. I think.. it was when he called me back.. like the 2nd time I talked to him.. I said 'man I've been thinking about you all day' and he's like 'yea me too' and.. it's just.. I've wanted him all fucking day long. I dont' care how sore I am.. I just.. ah.. .. and.. ah.. stupid.. stupid stupid.. But yep.. if i'm pregnant my shit'll hit the fan.. I mean there is NO WAY I'm keeping a baby and .. .. ah.. ah.. it's just ah.. But yep.. I am way sore still and I've felt kinda sick.. and.. Brook says' he's sore but shit he was the on sitting down ha ha but yes yes.. fricking.. argh.. .. tough it out till i'm 18.. Brook is off Monday I work Monday I'm sure and so.. that'll be great lol ^^ hee hee I'll get to see him xD shit I'm hoping to go to his fucking house again damint but.. ah.. maybe I can get ashley to let me spend the night that night and oooOoO shit I'd love that and I could stay with Brook shit.. OoO I'll have to talk to my girl bout that ha ha But fucking hell! Damnit condoms.. fuck.. fuck.. yes.. there is more but .. I'm sure you guys hate me for typing so much already.. and.. what I typed about.. and how I typed it.. and.. lol I'll stop but.. damn.. .. yep... Ja! |
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| Anonymous | 07-25-04 12:45am Now are you going to move on with your life? I was sarcastically saying "Fuck him already..."
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mizu87 | Re:, 07-25-04 1:35am Awww.. Jahreee... your words just.. touch me ::cough, cough::
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