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xpiratepunkx (profile) wrote,
on 9-17-2004 at 2:37pm
Current mood: confused
Music: Emery - Walls
Subject: Your face is so leaves me breathless...I won't forget you
I'm beginning to see Scotty a lot more!! I don't know. It's weird. My heart just about dropped when I walked into his classroom. I was like *gasps*...he looked at me. Took a double take actually. I think he was probably wondering what happened to my eye. Either that, or wondering what the hell I was doing in there. I plead the latter. Or not.

But yeah, I had to go in there TWICE. Awkward. I feel like I should have at least glanced and gave him a smile. But I don't think about those things until after I'm gone!! I hate myself for that!

Anyway, back to Scott. So today, after the pep rally, he was waiting for AJ and I was like oh man. And guess who knows him? Mikey, Victoria's little brother. Yeah, they go way back to the 8th grade!

Anyway, perfect oppurtunity to look over and just see his reaction. I really wish I knew how he felt right now. Like if he sees me he thinks about what we had or whether it's more LEAVE NOW!

That's it. The next time I see him. I'm going to look over at him and just smile. See what he does...I don't know. I just feel like I think he thinks that I totally forgot about him and that I blocked him out of my memory. WHICH SO ISN'T TRUE!

i talk to you every now and then i never felt so alone again i stopped to think at a wishing well my thoughts spinning like a carousel

My thoughts are so scattered right now!! I just don't know what to think! Ugh!! What a stresser!!

Why can't we just walk up to each other and say hey? Why do we have to ignore each other?? It's so stupid and I hate it!!!

I'm going to go think...
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09-26-04 10:39am

If you start talking to him again, dont you think your feelings will be stronger instead of them going away, which is what you need.
Let me ask you something....when you had to go in there the second day, did you dress nice that morning just b/c you knew he'd see you?

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Re:, 09-26-04 12:01pm

So I shouldn't talk to him?...cause that will only make my feelings strong. I read it wrong the first time. I thought you mean, if you start talking to him don't go thinking that your feelings will get stronger. I don't know.

I don't know what I wore on the first day. But I know what I wore on the second day. But I'm sure it wasn't any different. But I don't dress nice. And I didn't dress nice. Do you call khaki colored pants and a shirt from American Eagle nice? Not on me.

But I didn't look at him at all on the second day. I was just like, let's hurry up and take this picture. It didn't help that my hands were shaky and it made the picture blurry and that she blinked. X__X

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