09-26-04 7:29pm

i have no idea what i'd do without you. you're such a good friend to me and you've always been there for me. but, recently...you hsven't. this is the time when i've needed you the most, my dearest friend. i haven't had you to talk to about him. he just broke my heart. who ever knew that 6 words can completely break somebody in 2 seconds? i sure as hell never thought that it could happen. i don't know if i was blind to it, or if i just didn't want to face the truth. i got in too deep when i should've been careful and now look at where i am. i'm sitting on my computer writing in my best friend's journal about my relationship problems, saying that i'm still not over him even though we're still friends. my dearest friend, why am i not happy? why can't i ever be happy? all i've really ever wanted is to be happy with somebody i cared about. i want a person who cares about me. why does no one ever seem to care about me? i give them all of me...i'm faithful. am i worth nothing? or am i just a fool? it isn't fair how somebody can just treat you like that. how do people get off by treating people like shit?!? why do i continue to do this to myself? why can't i ever just say 'im sorry, we need to get to know eachother better'? if i could've just said those 10 words, all of this could've been prevented and i wouldn't have to write this. it's all my fault. all of this is my fault.
my dearest friend, why are you never there anymore? all i want is somebody who will listen and understand.
i hate how i get into these things and then complain and complain about how hurt i am...i hate it. why does it have to be like that? why am i who i am? why can't i be who i want to be?
my dearest friend, i'm sorry...i know you don't have the answers. you're probably living life the same way as me...save the happiness. you deserve it.

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Re:, 09-28-04 9:28pm

yo........i dont know hwat to pu.....o i just have to tell u that ummmmmmm.......my dog has four legs.

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09-29-04 5:40pm

Well, I was going through random journals, and I found you. And decided to do this here thingamajig.

wow..that sounded..ditzy.

Anyway..

I am for gay marrige.

I'm terrified of all bugs.

I love to read, and write.

I'm so angry with you! -_- heehee, no.

(whispers-to-a-scream, if you want to know..)

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Re:, 09-29-04 7:02pm

Thanks, ill check it out


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10-03-04 8:16pm

you think that just because someone is your best friend they cant be wrong once in awhile

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10-07-04 8:59am

you're my best friend. i love you.

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Re:, 10-07-04 9:00am

i left it un-anonymous on purpose.

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