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waiting4rain (profile) wrote, on 10-23-2004 at 10:49pm | |
Music: Rainchild (Song #2) Subject: You are Good... |
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The Lord is so good.... even in my self-pitying times when I can't get myself to just sit and spend time with Him, or when my heart is not at rest simply because I am not allowing myself to be satisfied in Him, He still remains faithful, and His grace abounds. These past two days, I was unbelievably grouchy, and intolerable and sad, and... I TRIED offering each thing to the Lord and etc etc. yes, I prayed, yes, I was trying not to be so pouty and grumpy and mean to those closest to me - but I just remained in a pit these past two days.. My heart was still so... sad. >Must He send me some sort of "sign" in order for me to be at peace? To shut my complaining up? Forgive me, Lord Perhaps one day I will get to the place where no matter what my circumstances and no matter how alone I am in the world, I will still be at peace and live for Him. Perhaps I will be able to be lonely but still not blame others for my loneliness... and instead of wishing for a friend, I would be satisfied with Him. But I'm not there yet, and in the mean time I am blown away by His grace (I always will be)... I don't understand why, that He still sends me amazing friends when I least deserve them, (Rose, Becky, Brisa, Kelly, Renee, etc etc [I list them bc I talked to them today]) a family that tolerates me, a scrap of rainbow in the sky, ....and air to breathe. |
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