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stroker (profile) wrote,
on 3-21-2005 at :00pm
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Subject: Fucked Up Weekend
Alright it's late and I just found out some fucked up shit. My 2nd bestfriend who is like a brother to me did some really stupid shit this weekend. After spending the last month or so trying to hook up with this girl he met online, saying all this shit about being in love with her and wanting to be with her, he goes and sleeps with his exgirlfriend who was drunk and upset. Then went to another one of our friends houses and broke there dam door trying to get to the girl he has been trying to hook up with. He has done some dum shit but this is a new low for him. I know he doesn't meen do this stuff but dam its getting old. I love him like a brother so I'm always at his side no matter what but I have to there other people too. In this case all the drama is between a bunch of my friends and its hard to bee there for everyone.
I know he is going to read this and I know he will get mad I wrote it but I want him to know that I'm here if he needs someone to talk too.

In other news I'm getting a motorcycle. This summer is going to rock!

Peace
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xSwtLilAngel666x

03-21-05 1:31am

Eh.. I'm sorry.

I hope all the drama fades away.

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stroker

Re:, 03-21-05 1:33am

Thank you.

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Kreyz

03-21-05 6:53am

Tom, I ain't mad about it.

I'll tell you the truth, man. I don't know what the fuck I was thinking, to tell you the truth. and Actually, I did the door thing first, and i've seen the damages, and I'm willing to try to pay them back whenever I can.

When it concerns Mary, I still have no clue what I was thinking, fucking her. And I know everyone is pissed off at me about the whole situation, and I wish that I could turn back the clock. I am so embarassed and it really hurts knowing that I could do something so god damn dumb.

But no worries, concerning Mary, cuz I am going to tell her that the shit is over, friendship and all. I don't really want to be around that anymore, and she is just an embodiment of what I don't really like about women: whoriffic... But I can't really say anything like that without looking at myself that way, too... I feel so dirty, knowing what I did but not knowing why.

Concerning Jessika, tho. Oh God, I wish I didn't do it, cuz I know it seriously hurt her. I didn't want to do that to her, ever. I really wish that I could turn back time, that way Mary wouldn't have ever been at that party. Possibly, then, everything would have turned out alright. But I can't, so I'm stuck with hoping that she'll answer my email and we can talk about stuff. I am such an idiot for doing what I did, and I want to make amends for it so bad. Doing what I did is making me feel so low about myself, and I guess what I have to do is once again, work from the ground up.

I do love her, and I guess she used to love me, or still might, I don't know. But even if my chances of being with her are highly slim to nil, I still want to do what I think is right, and that is to apologize for hurting her and working things out. If I can't be with her, then I would like to at least be friends, because I don't want to lose my friendship with her. She is such an awesome friend, and I was just being a selfish bastard yesterday.

I seriously don't know what I'm doing anymore. I think I need to seek some help or something, idk...


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deathstalka

Re:, 03-21-05 7:50am

To Tom: Bastard! I want a motorcycle!

To Kev: Well, at least you know what you did was wrong. Honestly, all you can do now is wait and see if Jess can forgive you or not.

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stroker

Re:, 03-21-05 10:23am

There is no working your way back up. What you did was the worst thing anyone can do to someone. You told jess you loved her and then slept with another woman. There is no second chance for that kind of behaver. And as for your friendship with her, I think you can kiss that boat goodbye.

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squish322

Re: Re:, 03-21-05 11:18am

hey that just recently happend to me...not by trevor but by someone else..i dont care though cuz i love my trevor..lol

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deathstalka

Re: Re: Re:, 03-21-05 2:03pm

You'd better dammit! lol, I love you too babe.

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stroker

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 03-21-05 2:39pm

We know, we know. Stop posting it all over the dam internet.

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deathstalka

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 03-21-05 2:41pm

:-P

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 03-21-05 5:14pm

Thats alot of Re's.

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