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jaganshi (profile) wrote,
on 5-27-2005 at 7:09pm
Enough! The lot of you!

Why must I constantly be expected to divulge personal information on command to make someone else feel better? I will not be made to feel guilty for the way I choose to live. If I lie, it's because I have a damn good reason. I can't trust you people!

To the bloggers: When you read my posts just to give yourself a grain of hope that maybe you're not the most fucked up person alive, I hope I can offer you that. When you read my posts because you're looking for someone to pity, I hope you die. When you read my posts because you want me to read yours, fuck you. Everyone. Everyone who reads and says nothing, everyone who replies to entries that mean something with silly juvenile bullshit. Everyone who thinks that the worst thing that could happen to a person is people might not like you. People might not accept you. People might think you're a whiny little bitch who has nothing to say except mindless appeals for pity.

To the anonymous lurkers: If you have something to say, say it. Don't pussyfoot around because you want me to spend that much more time thinking over just what you have to tell me.

To my friends: There aren't many of you. But you know who you are. You are important. Fuck the people who don't know me and are comfortable with that. You listen to me bitch, and I try to make sure I'm listening when you need the same.

To the people I know over the internet and actually communicate with(namely RPGWWers): Without you I'd probably have no one to talk to. I can talk about politics or the worship of pastagami or my budding interest in video games. Any number of things. You are also important.

I'll be back with the blogging foolishness. When I have something more to say to any of you. It won't be as long as I think it'll be because I'm just pissed right now. I'll get over it.
Meanwhile, I'm going to restrict communication to people who actually talk back.
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05-27-05 7:53pm

I read your journal because I symphasize with your life. And the fact that you're a friend and I'm interested in what is happening in my friends lives. I have never had any pity for you because a) you aren't alone and b) I know you're not the kind to want it.

And I agree fully with your comment on the bloggers. A lot of people come online because they have a shit self esteem so they block out all serious shit and only post in the idle mindless posts so they get accepted and nobody catches on that they're really a dumbass with minimum self esteem.

Myself? I comment when I can and I feel I have something significant to say to the post. I still seldom comment, but that's mainly because of the time factor I have here. :| I don't get.. all that much time on computers. At school, the computers are constantly watched, at dads shop, I get kicked off every eight minutes. But here at Ascension at the moment, I have all the time in the world.

So anyway.

Yeah. Nice.

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05-28-05 1:23am

I read your posts because.. well.. I like immersing myself in other people's lives. I like having friends, and knowing that there's other intelligent people out there who are like me, in some aspect or another. I like being able to care about people.

I apologize if I've ever left a comment that's simply silly juvenile bullshit-- I often think too much about a comment and end up never saying it, so when I do comment it's spur of the moment and quite frequently nonsensical and, well, frequently the comments are.. I don't know. Of no particular worth?

I comment because I know how much I enjoy comments. They make me feel like someone cares, and I like that feeling. So I try to comment on other people's journals, because, yeah. Pity is evil, however, caring is not.

Mm, this is becoming a long comment full of self-justification, so I'll leave it at this: I'm sorry if I annoy you in any way whatsoever. Tell me of it and I will improve as much as I am able.

I also hope you feel better.

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Blind Tragedy Wolf, 05-29-05 12:51am

I'm here to care. My comments try to be light hearted. I don't know how to deal with most situations, so you don't really have to deal with me commenting anyways. But yeah. *Coughs and shuffles away awkwardly.*

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06-01-05 11:46pm

I read your journal because I love you.

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