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| Tails (profile) wrote, on 8-18-2005 at 8:13pm | |
| Today always sucks when your yesterday never ended. Staying up all night until the sun reared its ugly head to welcome me into a new day of sufferance and delusion. I'm growing tired of my stagnant state. I'm afraid im becoming acustom to the feeling of pain in my stomach. I hate coming home, Yet im afraid to leave it. I'm still waiting for your word Derrik. and im off when i hear it. IN OTHER NEWS. i packed up everything i own. except my computer ...it sits on the floor conneceted to nothing but the wall and my fingers. the desk is gone. the tv gone the everything gone. the clicking of the keys is so loud against the walls without posters....no sound....barely any light....and it feels good... im supposed to feel sickened by the fact that im done packing up everything i own and realizing that im really leaving. (MAYBE REALLY LEAVING) but god damn it feels good...and my dad is acting really nervous around me. I think hes starting to catch my drift....and thats a good thing. Im going straight to your christan hell for this but...i want nothing more than to hurt my father when i move. i want my leaving him to shatter his useless and terribly bruised heart...maybe if he used it a little more it wouldnt break so fucking easily...my ranting is done for the day and night my kids. i hate work. i hate dad. i hate the sunrise that never came today *smiles* rainy days are like shooting herion right into my brain...without the whole really bad addiction and withdrawl and fucked up mental function thing...love and hugs ~Tails |
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BigBen61 | 08-18-05 11:20pm don't leave without saying good bye |
liz | 08-19-05 12:39am Matty I love you. I love the way your words come out all like poetry, beautiful.
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