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polishpimping (profile) wrote,
on 8-30-2005 at 5:26pm
I had a moment today. Actually I've been existing within the moment for a while now.

My journey is not about finding myself, it is about creating myself.

For all of the people from my past who didn't wish me a Happy Birthday, I pause to think of how we have all grown apart. It doesn't matter anyway. I remember the way things were and I smile, sometimes. But I cannot live my life looking backwards, or trying to hold onto things I'm destined not to have.

The me I am creating has better things to do.
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polishpimping

08-30-05 5:38pm



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Fanelia

08-30-05 6:30pm

I don't tend to agree that it doesn't matter (losing something or someone you love is never like that) but I think you're right on the not living your life looking backwards. The nitty-gritty of it is that people change, and that's just how it is.

I'm sorry I didn't wish you a happy birthday. But if it's any consolation, no one (yourself included) wished me a happy birthday either except jeeber and my family. And to tell you the truth (though you and I are different people) that was fine. It truly didn't offend me at all. It happens... I'm not anyone else's top priority.

I'm glad that you're happy, or at least seem to be. I think back on the past a lot, not because I want it back, but because it contains good memories. Perhaps if the present and the future cannnot be changed, then the best way to look at the past is precisely that way. We've all acquired different lives recently, and if we can't seem to fit all the old things into that life... then we all lose. No one person is more at fault than any other.

At least... that's just the way I look at it. I find it helpful most of the time.



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polishpimping

Re:, 08-30-05 11:12pm

Happy Birthday

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Fanelia

Re: Re:, 08-30-05 11:22pm

Happy Birthday to you as well.

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polishpimping

Re: Re: Re:, 08-30-05 11:30pm

all is right with the universe (I apologize for any posts from here on out... I'm 90% drunk and I show no signs of stopping, Jenny's making me bacon... not sure if bacon grease and everclear will sit well, but I have high hopes for the night, life, and the charlie brown christmas special. FUCK YOU, LUCY!)

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