okay that's it  breathe in deep now   hold it  hold it   that's it  hold

 them back don't let them fall  exhale release it slowly  that's it  feel

 it ? you have control    don't cry don't cry    you can read it all you 

want  the words don't offer any more meaning than they did the last 

four times although now you have them memorized and just keep thinking about it    STOP   

 it makes no difference to think about it  you knew it  you laughed at 

this outside the 7-11 without so much as a sideways glance  ..  

relax , finish the joint  and repeat it again and a million different 

things you could reply but no no no no no nononono 

you're not going to do it   no matter what





          pause and look over your shoulder to the screen

nothing yet..... 



go inside and get it all out    sit down and enjoy the show . 

forgetaboutit  there's nothing to think about anymore ! 

don't answer it don't answer it don't answer it



that is ..

if it even rings.