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| fadingintoblue (profile) wrote, on 12-8-2005 at 1:10am | |
| Subject: sooooo.... |
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| Things are fairly decent for me right now. I have a boyfriend, my cold is going away, and I have no more schoolwork. NONE. No finals, no papers. Friday is reading period, Monday starts exam week, and I'm not leaving until next Thursday. That gives me a week to do nothing, which is nice, if slightly boring. I've already gotten a lot of my friends to promise to call me/randomly knock on my door when they have free time, and I have things I'm planning on doing (like beading and ducttaping). And I feel kinda bad about it. I hate when people I care about are having a bad time, and it's not just angst, it's not just being young, it's not just being in high school or any other temporary condition, but something that is horrible and unchangeable. I might have had a shitty high school experience, the only unchangeable aspect that made things kinda difficult was my sexuality (and that I've pretty much been able to come to terms with). I've always had enough money and such, even if I sometimes worry about things. And, no matter what I do in college, I have the consolation of knowing that I can concentrate on my studies without worrying about money. And it's the money thing, basically, that's making feel guilty and angry. Things like this are helping to push towards politics, because inequities like this in our prosperous society are obscene. I do not deserve more than other people just because my family has the money to send me to college without loans (and the money to take care of other basics so I don't have to). And I at least made it to college, at least two of my friends haven't made it that far, and others might not either, mostly because of money. Gah. |
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pnutbutterdaffodillies | 12-08-05 11:47am I really like your style of writing, even though it's just free-writing. I really does suck when money becomes an issue when it really shouldn't, especially with something such as education.
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