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Iron-Cipher (profile) wrote,
on 2-16-2006 at 11:06am
I feel like such a failure. I just lost my job, I suck at doing this college stuff, the person I love is leaving for france, and I have no idea what i am suppose to do anymore. I feel selfish for not wanting her to go, but I geuss atleast one of us will get to chase down our dreams, meanwhile i will sit here and do nothing and become nothing. I can't help but think about how much she will change while she is gone. Will her heart still be in the same place. Will somebody else discover how wonderful she is and her discover how mediocore I am? I really don't know where to go from her. Everyone else seems to be enjoying college, and have some idea of what they want to do. Maybe I just don't belong here.
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02-16-06 11:18am

I know I'm just your little sister and what I have to say doesn't matter, and you've heard it all before. But you've got pepople to pick you up, I'm here for you. I'm sorry for evreything that's ever kept us from being close, but I love you and when you need something, just call. Ask God to keep watching over you.

I love you,

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02-16-06 8:40pm

Meh, we all have hard times in school. I've already questioned my choice of major about three times now thanks to my bloody C++ programming classes (that language is evil, pure evil), and last semester I had my ass handed to me by calculus. Plus, if you check my xanga, about the first 3-4 months at msu were hellishly lonely.

I'm sure with time you'll get things figured out. When she's gone she might change a bit, but she will always be changing, as will you, it's that whole growing thing...

...In any case man. Just don't give up, last I recall you're a pretty intelligent decent kind of guy, I'm sure you'll have plenty of problems in college, but I'm also pretty sure you'll be able to handle them.

Let me know if you want to chat or anything, heaven knows I'm almost always on msn...

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02-16-06 8:47pm

I love you, babycakes. "I'll make you a promise and you make me one forever and a day, I promise I will stay, I may change but my heart will always be the same."

Mine too, darling. Mine too.

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