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free4thetaking (profile) wrote,
on 2-16-2006 at 7:42pm
Current mood: Alone...
Music: Zeraphine-Be My Rain
Subject: To you:
It's incredibly difficult for me to finally accept that there's no way you'll just be a memory. I try so hard, to forget everything I'd ever felt. It's impossible. Perhaps trying to get seems wrong but honestly, I don't know what else to do. Insanity is starting to creep up on me. Thoughts are getting so clouded... I can no longer write...I can no longer think straight...you've done it. You're the only one that possibly could... You're the one person I'd give my heart away to....and as it appears... you've gotten it. Seperated by states doesn't even fucking stop me from wishing...from loving you. Daily I listen to songs, that make missing you that much worse. I can't tell if falling for you was a mistake, or fate... Loving you is, in no way, a mistake. I'd give anything...to say this to you. Nothing can keep you away from my thoughts. I've tried everything possible. Death is always an option...but that's not one for me. I'll never give up. I just want one chance...to whisper in your ear, how I truly feel. I want one chance, where I can lay under the stars, staring into your eyes. You're beautiful eyes. I just want one chance... to hold you... Crazy dream for a teenage boy, eh? Not quite. I'll never give up... I've wanted to... but I never will. I want to be the one, you wake up to see. I honestly do not know if you feel the same...I just... need you to know...I really do love you. A simple infatuation, this is not.

Love- 'A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.'

Infatuation- 'A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction.'

Similar...but not quite the same. I'm no fool. I know what I want; I know who I want.

I really do love you Carl...
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