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brucerey43 (profile) wrote,
on 4-16-2007 at 9:49pm
Subject: Virginia Tech/random stuff
So I have obviously as many others have heard about the shooting at VA Tech. It's horrible, my personal feeling is that its a lot harder to secure a college campus than a high school. The scaries thing is that happened today could very well happen again. It saddens me a great deal, i know right now there are families feeling great pain and I pray for them.
A friend of mine from UF posted this on one of the facebook groups:

Sometimes I wonder why history seems to repeat itself, and why history repeats at a rate that has makes us fond of this expression in the first place.

In 1966 a school shooting took place at the University of Texas and then again in another shooting occured in 1999 at Columbine High School, but this event has been marked the deadliest school shooting in U.S. history.

So how do we learn? Who do we blame? Is it lack of prevention, violent video games and movies, bad parenting, ridiculing schoolmates, or is it the gunman himself that should bear all the blame?

I have no idea who to point fingers at because honeslty, I do not believe there is ONE source for such a catastrophic event. All I know is that I want to see more peace and I think it is important to remember that each one of us has an opportunity to create a little more of it in this world, even if we cannot always stop such tragedies.

So here are some songs by Jewel, one of my favorite artists:

"Hands"

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never broken
In the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's heart
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's eyes
We are God's hands
We are God's hands

& also....

"Innocence Maintained"

Ophelia drowned in the water
Crushed by her own weight Hitler loved little blue eyed boys
And it drove him to hate
Birds always grow silent before the night descends
'Cause nature has a funny way of breaking what does not bend
A hero's torso built of steel and Novocain
His heart a bitter beat inside a bloodless frame
There was a hole inside his soul a manicure could not fill
So he fund himself a whore to love while daisies choked in the window sill
We've made houses for hatred
It's time we made a place
Where people's souls may be seen and made safe
Be careful with each other
These fragile flames
For innocence can't be lost
It just needs to be maintained
A small town in Ohio
Two boys are filled with violence
And darkness spreads its legs for hate and ignorance
We are given to a god to put our faith therein
But to be forgiven, we must first believe in sin
We've made houses for hatred
It's time we made a place
Where people's souls may be seen and made safe
Be careful with eachother
These fragile flames
For without fear
I want always to feel the wings of grace near
We all will be Christed wen we hear ourselves say
We are that which we pray
We've made houses for hatred
It's time we made a place
Where people's souls maybe seen and made safe
Be careful with each other
These fragile flames
We've built houses for hatred
It's time we made a place
Where people's souls may be seen and made safe
Be careful with each other
These fragile flames
For innocence can't be lost
It just needs to be maintained


Now back to where I start writing again, what happened today should teach american society very important lessons. If i was a betting man (which im not most of the time) I would say that the shooting was caused by someone whos not exatly the most well liked or popular person. Most people who do these things aren't exatly in the best state of mind be it from a fight or lonliness or anger or whatnot. I'm not sure how to stop school shootings but I know that there isn't enough love in this world. I know that when people care about one another and feel loved the sort of thing that happened today probably won't happen again. I know think that colleges and universities and the public in general should actively promote helping people more. Communities in this country only seem close when tradegy strikes, the rest of time we seem like nothing but people to each other. Until that changes, until people quit leaving others behind, until people learn to not treat others as outcasts, I don't think the violence of this sort will stop. You can put cops and guns on every corner but the reality if someone is this upset and alone then you probably will see this happen again no matter how much protection you put out there. We've all felt alone, most of us have probably had moments where we have no anwsers. To say this is somehow surprising that another shooting occured would be a lie coming from me. The same things, the same feelings that caused this shooting to occur probably mirror the others in the last decade. The fact is that people doing these shootings are probably very unhappy with life. I'm not some psychologist who has some magical solution here because there isn't one, all im saying is that if we all shared more love then things like this might be less likely to continue to happen. Until people in this country quit getting left behind I'm afraid this is going to become a fact of life, this violence for attention and hatred. It occurs everday, just because we dont see it on the news doesnt mean there aren't people falling apart and feeling just as desperate.

You know I was going to write about my life, but that is fairly minor in the context of what happened today. Obviously things in my life aren't exatly great, but I'm not dead and I know that I have some people who care about me. The other good news is that for the first time in 2 months I won't be in overtime at work. I might go up to work and do some karoke tommorow night and just chill, i need to be around people who love and care about me. My mom has a doctors appointment next wednesday, hopefully her numbers are better than the last time. I really hope she gets better, I have been praying for her. I have a feeling she won't live too much longer, its going to be hard when she finally does die. I hope and pray that the disability and medicaid do they're job next month. Obviously im concerned about her trying to kill herself again if they say shes not disabled. It's been such a long battle, I don't talk about it much outside of a few people but believe me I'm worn down and tired. I want to feel like im 20 and not 40. The good news is that I'm much wiser for the last year and a half, and probably will owe any success I have in my life to the adversity I have had to face. The other good news is that regardless come August 1st, my life returns somewhat to normal when I go to my uncles for like 3 weeks in the cape and then to the dorms. I'm still going to broke, but at least I wont be under so much stress. Hopefully I will be more of the upbeat person i used to be and can actually begin settling down in a normal relationship and maybe start going to church like I used to. I can begin building a future for myself and quit drinking and such. I've already begun to take those steps, but I certainly have many more things I need to do.
peace out
Bruce

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