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wasabi (profile) wrote, on 4-28-2007 at 7:20pm | |
Current mood: sad |
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i have to write this down before it drives me crazy. im upset and i hate it because i feel like there is no good reason. i just feel so helpless and alone. and i feel like when he moves he's just going to leave me behind and forget about me. and im so scared because i really like him... seriously. i think its more than just an infatuation. and god damnit. i just wish he didnt have to move and that i could see him more. and that i could have seen him last night. i feel so bad about last night. so fucking bad. but i dont know.. i just feel like i'm going to be stuck here with a broken heart while he's hours away, smiling and living on without even a second thought about me. i dont want him to forget me. and i dont want to be this pessimistic, because i know thats not how it is. and i want to know why i keep thinking this though. when i'm with him, im happy. and i love that. and i dont have to worry about anything. and i can be myself. and i dont want to lose that. i dont fucking know... god, i feel like a jerk. and i dont know what i should say to him. or what i should do. |
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