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| m&ms487 (profile) wrote, on 2-19-2008 at 7:16pm | |
| I'm busy and I'm stressed out, still...always, forever, I suppose. I keep putting off things that I should be doing. Laundry, a four page paper due on Thursday. I like not doing anything. Coming home, watching t.v for a while, going to bed. It's wonderful. I feel like I"m at a time in my life where I should be doing great things, where I should be getting ahead for my career(s), where I should start impressing some important people. Except...I'm stuck. All my extra time is spent working at Meijer, and when I have a day off, I use it to sit around and do nothing in an attempt to recover. I hate living like this. It's so hard. It's so hard to have to miss out on so many things and miss opportunities, and the best part is, I wouldn't have to work if I was a first generation college student, or I was an "under represented minority in the college environment." I could get all kinds of money. But no. I work my ass off, and what will I get? Twelve thousand in debt and grad school. Maybe things will be different by the time I get to grad school...but yet again, that's nearly three years away. Until then, I"m stuck here, living in some kind of American dream that really feels like hell. |
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jessa_lynne | 02-19-08 10:29pm Well, I'm a first generation college student with a family income of under 20K and I still have a crapload of loans and no scholarships. It happens.
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upchuck | 02-20-08 11:13am You won't appreciate unless you work hard.
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