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| xjayk (profile) wrote, on 11-1-2009 at 2:20am | |
| Its amazing and scary at the same time, in exactly a two years from now I will be Mrs. Thaddeus Gamez. Its hard to believe really, I know its the right decision because of how much I love him and how there is no one else in the world that I could possibly love more, but still I"m soo young and I'm soo scared. I dont have the first clue of how to be a 'wife' and I dont even know how Thaddeus is standing on the whole deal. I mean I know he wants to get married but he's not that romantic 'I love you because...' kinda guy. I want so badly to have everything go right for us, and I'm scared that it wont...I know it wont. I miss him soo much when he's gone and I haven't the slightest clue if he feels the same or remotely similar. We dont talk like that. Never have really. Mrs.Gamez. Thats a horrible last name...I'd prefer Winningham any day. I dont know. There is so much to do in such little time. I dont know how I'm going to do this. I feel so confused and just completely and utterly vexed. Whatever, I'm going to bed. Or try to anyway. Sorry for the slightly pessimistic post. I hate it when my mind gets going like this. It never stops. |
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xxxxxxxxxx | 11-01-09 5:54pm personally, I'm very certain that you two will work out just fine. you both have ALWAYS had a knack at working things out from fights-moving-being together-not being together, etc. (I'm envious of that, by the way!!) :P
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xjayk | Re: , 11-02-09 1:42pm I know I hear ya with the name changing! I dont want that name!
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xxxxxxxxxx | Re: Re: , 11-02-09 4:08pm Shane and I wont graduate for about 3 years now, judging on our chances at getting into the programs we're in. I'm not too happy about it, buut.. we've talked about why he and I are waiting before so I'm sure you understand the dilemma I'm in.
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