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squallet (profile) wrote, on 12-11-2010 at 10:06pm | |
Current mood: blah Music: "It's Been Awhile" by Staind Subject: Falling for someone... |
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It really sucks... >.> I think I'm giving up on romance. I found myself looking at old pictures of me and Michael the other day. I came across one of us kissing. I tilted my head and looked at it inquisitively. I felt nothing. I honestly don't remember how to feel anymore. I looked at it and tried to remember how it feels to feel loved. How it feels to completely love and trust someone with all your heart. I just couldn't remember that feeling at all. I wasn't sad. I wasn't depressed. I just WAS. Am I doomed to just exist without really living? Or at least without loving? I've already ruined things with Mike. I took things too fast, fell too hard too soon. I almost thought that I just fell for the THOUGHT of him and not him. But more and more I'm realizing that it really is him I fell for. Yet I feel like I could completely cease to exist and he wouldn't notice. Why do I even give a damn? Just fuck it. I don't even care anymore. |
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