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rayray (profile) wrote,
on 2-29-2012 at 3:13pm
Its been almost 2 month since Darielle has been over. She has barely said anything to Mike. I only saw her long enough to drop money of to her at school (for her mom because she forgot to give it to her before school and her mom was in the hospital having surgery) and tell her I deserve an apology. Mike saw her long enough to pick her up from school and take her home because her mom was at one of the other kids sporting events. She has asked Mike to bring her food at school and he probably would have if I hadn't been home. She told him her trip money was due in March and he told her that her attitude adjustment and better grades were due a long time ago.

I feel guilty because she hates me so that is ruining her relationship with Mike and Reagan. And it breaks my heart that she hasn't even asked about Reagan. It probably makes me seem really petty that I am really upset and hurt that she never says one thing about Reagan on facebook and on the rare occasion she has, she deletes it before too many people see it. Yet she posts tons of things about her nieces and nephews.

I can't help but think she is ashamed of Reagan and hates her or resents her. What the hell am I supposed to say to Reagan when she is older and asks where her sister is? I'm not going to lie to her but I definitely dont want to break her heart.

I want to punch someone in the face.
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jordanmackenzie7

02-29-12 10:04pm

You have a lot of time to decide how to handle that. And you can choose how you phrase things until she is older without necessarily lying to her. Darielle is a LOT older than Reagan which will make things significantly easier on the explaining end. I never grew up with my half sister. By the time I cared enough to ask, she was an adult and had her own apartment. I'm sorry you have to deal with the stepmama drama; I know how much it sucks. But you've chosen to be the bigger person up through now, just hold out a little bit longer.

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rayray

Re: , 02-29-12 11:00pm

Its breaking my heart even though I try not to let it bother me.

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pop-tart

02-29-12 11:35pm



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pop-tart

Re: , 02-29-12 11:42pm

wow I hate my internet. I had this long response typed out um

basically my brothers and I have been through it. I was 14ish when Richy walked away from our family. It hurt. Derek was like 1 so he has no idea who Richy is nor does he care. I never expected my parents to explain why he didn't come around anymore i wanted the answer from Richy and by the time Reagan is old enough to care she will want the answer from her sister. She will have to explain why she didn't want to be around for her baby sister and none of that will be on you.

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pop-tart

Re: , 02-29-12 11:46pm

And I know it prolly bothers you a lot because right now she is Reagan only sibling but it wont be Reagan who is missing out. She is still going to have a wonderful childhood full of memories of a family who loves her. It will be her sister who misses out for not wanting to be a bigger part of that.

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rayray

Re: Re: , 03-01-12 9:40am

This has really helped. Thank you. Reagan is already missing out on a few grandparents. And I didn't want anymore family members to walk out of her life.

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chelthesmell

Re: Re: , 03-01-12 4:40pm

I was going to try to think of some encouraging words, but I don't think anything I could say could compare to this or it might just sound similar (the part about Reagan having a great childhood anyways). Very well said.
And Raych, I love you. =)

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pop-tart

Re: Re: Re: , 03-01-12 5:43pm

Your welcome and its the truth. She has family everywhere just like you. Mom and I could go for quality nugget/raych time anytime. :)

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jordanmackenzie7

Re: Re: Re: Re: , 03-01-12 6:33pm

Well said Kayliegh. Too true. I am waiting for the day this happens to Haevin with Jake. He likes our house right now, but he won't as he gets older and the fact that there are actual rules here is going to come back and bite us. Haevin has also never met his grandpa on his dad's side, and his grandma (also on his dad's side) only came to visit him once for 15 min when he was born. I feel lucky by comparison.

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rayray

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: , 03-01-12 10:58pm

Mike's mom died 3.5 years ago. His dad is known as a sperm donor because he walked out on him when he was a baby. So she has my parents but my mom, who is now referred to as Reva is a joke.

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