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| kinkyrose1212 (profile) wrote, on 3-20-2013 at 11:48am | |
| Current mood: annoyed Subject: Love...? |
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| An update on my love life: I was dating a boy but I broke up with him because I started REALLY liking this other guy and thought I'd end up cheating on him. This other guy, Nick, wanted time to think and a few weeks past. I didn't think anything was going to happen and I do like the boy I was dating, so I went back out with him. Today I broke up with him again because I still really like Nick and whether or not he decides to date me, I feel like it's fucked up for me to date the other boy while I'm pining for someone else. Now two of my other friends like Nick, too, and he still doesn't know what he wants to do. I understand, because he doesn't want to hurt anyone, but it would be nice if he could make a decision. Maybe I should just ask him out and see what he says. I don't know. I really like him, a lot, we really connected and all of that, but if he can't make a choice, there's nothing I can do. Except hibernate in my room all of the time I'm not in class and ignore everybody. Meanwhile, another guy is in love with me but he is a very damaged person and I don't want to add to that. I'm trying to walk the fine line between being the best friend I can for him but struggling with feelings of attraction to him, as well. Fuck this bullshit. I don't even know if I should stay for pharmacy tech anymore. I want to go to college for psychology, anyway, which is somewhat related if I'm looking into the psychiatric medication aspect of it. But maybe it would be better if I just got the fuck out of here, away from people, and pursued relationships in a place where things were more settled, because no one knows what's going to happen when everyone leaves here. I might as well try and find out what he'd say if I asked him out. Fuck it, what have I got to lose? | |
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katiecat | 03-22-13 10:01pm Psychology is a very hard major to find a job with these days. I think Pharm. tech would be a great thing for you! I know a girl who I grew up with who just graduated and is going to be a pharmacist and she is starting out at $120k a year. HOW CRAZY. I could only dream to make that kind of money. But being a Pharm. tech is a start in the right direction to becoming a well respected and known pharmacist :-) Just saying!!
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kinkyrose1212 | Re: , 03-22-13 11:09pm I know pharmacists make good money, I was going to go to college for that afterwards, but I can't help but feel like the only thing I really want to learn about is psychology. I'm hoping it holds my interest enough to keep me committed to college because I couldn't take it seriously before. And it's always been a dream of mine to study psychology. I just feel like it's something I have to do for myself. I've been doing alright. Confused by the whirlwind of emotions flying around at Job Corps, but I'm home for the weekend and DAMN is it like a breath of fresh air! How have you been? |
| katiecat | Re: Re: , 04-01-13 4:20pm I'm doing ok. Just struggling with work and money. |
kinkyrose1212 | Re: Re: Re: , 04-01-13 7:48pm I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling, but I'm glad you're doing okay. How are things with your family? |
| katiecat | Re: Re: Re: Re: , 04-02-13 8:19pm Things are alright. My sister is very up and down but I feel like she's making progress. Slowly but surely. How is JC? Is it turning out to be an ok program? |
kinkyrose1212 | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: , 04-04-13 6:46pm JC is certainly interesting. There are many fascinating people here and even though the program itself is run somewhat incompetently, it is turning out to be a life learning experience at the very least. All in all it's actually been a lot of fun, much to my surprise. |
| katiecat | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: , 04-04-13 10:19pm That is good news and I'm glad to hear it. Do you know when you'll be able to graduate from it? |
kinkyrose1212 | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: , 04-05-13 12:23pm I could finish and leave in May, but I'm not sure I'm ready to do that, so they've pushed my exit date back so I can either go to college or advanced training, I'm not sure which to do. |
| katiecat | Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: , 04-06-13 10:09pm Well you do have time to think about it. Either way would benefit you so that's good :-) |