You've Already Labeled Me

I am:
A little bit of loneliness,
A little bit of disregard.
A handful of complaints,
But I can't help the fact...
That everyone can see these scars.

I am:
What I want you to want,
What I want you to feel.
But it's like no matter what I do,
I can't convince you...
To just believe this is real.

So I:
Let go, watching you.
Turn your back like you always do.
Face away and pretend that I'm not,
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got.

I can't feel...
The way I did before.
Don't turn your back on me,
I won't be ignored.
Time won't take,
This damage anymore.
Don't turn your back on me...
I won't be ignored.

I am:
A little bit insecure,
A little unconfident.
'Cause you don't understand-
I do what I can.
But sometimes I don't make sense.

I am:
What you never want to say,
But I've never had a doubt.
It's like no matter what I do,
I can't convince you...
For once just to hear me out.

So I:
Let go, watching you.
Turn your back like you always do.
Face away and pretend that I'm not,
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got.

I can't feel...
The way I did before.
Don't turn your back on me,
I won't be ignored.
Time won't take,
This damage anymore.
Don't turn your back on me...
I won't be ignored.

Hear me out NOW!
You're gonna listen to me, like it or not.
Right NOW!
Hear me out NOW!
You're going to listen to me, like it or not.
Right now...

I can't feel,
The way I did before..
Don't turn your back on me...
I won't be IGNORED

I can't feel...
The way I did before.
Don't turn your back on me,
I won't be ignored.
Time won't take,
This damage anymore.
Don't turn your back on me...
I won't be ignored.


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:: 2005 28 January :: 2.02 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: twinkle,twinkle little star(i'm singing)

ok well i guess i have to update because i have not in like a really long time. this thing has changed alot. and i had to ask carley what my name was again because i forgot. thats pretty sad and funny all in one, good thing i remembered my password. well for you that dont know i am not tobys friend any more we were really mad at each other or maybe that was just me. but at least we dont hate each other any more we are just not friends and nor do i think if we ever became friends again that we would be as good as friends.but oh well. i'm in german class right now doing two thing at once.

ok for christmas i got a big ten galloner tank and i had two fish at first and one died i dont know why so i made up a story that my other fish did it. and then i went and got 3 more fish i woke up this morning to another dead fish because it's tail was stuck in the filter.and it went through shock and killed it's self.

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:: 2004 6 December :: 6.35 pm

hailey yes that me
hello there

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:: 2004 6 December :: 6.26 pm
:: Mood: amused

well i have not been on here in a very long time as you can see from the last entry but this could be my last entry in a long time again. butt thats because i hardly get online any more. but this place has changed alot latly wow i cant believe it. i still remember the side thing going to be hard to get used to this.

well i went to chicago this past weekend it was alot of fun. i went there because my german class was going for a mart. where some germans would come over with stuff from germany and would seel it. so i bought alot of chocolate too. i love chocolate!!!!

well got to go bye bye

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:: 2004 10 August :: 11.34 am

my test lets see if this works
The Early Years...
So...what day of the week were you born?:monday
What time?:2:40
What number child are your family, anyway:3rd
Is that okay with you?:fine
Are you adopted?:no
Are you a twin?:no
Do twins run in your family?:yes
Do you get along with your family?:sometimes
Do you remember anything from before you were three?:sure i guess
What kind of baby were you? (did you cry a lot or not or like people?):did not cry alot and loved being around people but was shy.
Some people think the way you were born affects your personality. Do you?:nope
How were you born? (Such as a lot of people there, being premature or late):i was born 2 weeks late
Random things I think to ask you about.
How many times have you been in a hospital for you?:i dont know not alot maybe 3 times
Are you afraid of doctors?:no
How about needles?:yes
Do you mind going to the dentist?:i hate the dentist.
Have you ever had braces?:no
Have you ever had surgery?:no
Have you ever done drugs?:no
Did you like the movie Biodome?:never heard of it.
What are your view on smoking?:it is nasty.
Do you like fishing?:not really
Can you swim?:yes
Do you like to read?:only if it is a good book.
What is your favorite adhesive?:ad what?
Do you have any musical ability?:i can sing.
How about artistic?:i can draw not to good but it is ok.
Which would you rather have more of?:chocolate
Can you sew?:yes
Would you live if you were alone on an island with goats for ten years?:yes i have a hunting licence.
How about sheep?:yes
Are you allergic to anything?:not
Do you like milk?:yeah but only 2%
Would you rather write with a pen pencil crayon or marker?:pencil
Do you like coloring?:yes
Do you doodle?:not really, no.
Do you think you're a good planner?:not really, no
Do you think you're a good leader?:not really , no
...a good people person?:sure
Did you ever paint your nails with white out?:hey thats a good idea!
...with sharpies?:yes
Would you rather read or write?:write
Do you use a mousepad?:yes
Do you like bright or pastel colors better?:no
Do you like hats?:he he*giggles* yeah
Do you think you look good in hats?:sure
Do you have any piercings?:yes
Do you think you have a lot of friends?:not really, but the ones i got are the best.
Do you have farmer's tan?:io did from my watch.
Paper or plastic?:plastic
Night or day?:night
What's your favorite type of music?:rock
Are you afraid or roller coasters?:no, no and no love roller coasters.
Do quizzes?:some times
Do you have a crush on anyone?:umm i probally do.
I wont pry...unless you want to say who it is...:i dont know right now.
How many people have you gone out with?:i really have to count i think it is 8.
In terms of far have you gone?:umm base 1. never been to base 3 nor do i want to for a long time.
Are you straight, gay, bi, or a transvestite?:straight but you asked that before
Am I running out of questions to ask?:yes
Do you mind being photographed?:i already answered this beofre
Do you mind speaking in public?:" " " " "
How about performing in public? (singing, sports, instruments...):" " " " "
Do you like your hands?:" " " " "
Are you listening to anything?:" " " " "
Who was the last person you spoke with?:" " " " "
Other than computer related items, what was the last think you touched?:" " " " "
What is your favorite game?:" " " " "
Do you keep bags for no reason?: " " " " "
Can you picture where you'll be in ten years?:the answers are all above so why did you ask again?
Is that a good or bad thing?:" " " " "
Are you happy?:" " " " "

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:: 2004 17 July :: 9.27 pm
:: Mood: anxious

does this world get any better or worse?
hello every one. well this past weekend i went up north with one of my friends amanda. (for camping) it was fun we met this kid named paul i met cody to but not amanda.(she already knew him) well we hung out for 3 days and a morning it was fun during that whole weekend, alot of thing happened. for instance two people liking one person, one person moving on to the other boy, a big fight(word fight) and then a fist fight with some kids. and more oh so much more. but it was an exciting weekend the word fight was fixed though. well the 29th i'm going back up with amanda and i will make sure i can get a camera and take some pictures of paul!!!!! and cody.

i just cant wait till the 29 , i'm excited.

ummm on monday i got home and called natalie she come over and spent the night because i was going to bring her to michigan adventures well it rained tuesday so we went wensday. it was ok but all in all i thought it was fun. the only bad part was when i got two slivers in my fingure, from what ride you ask. well it was the main big wooden one. hmm figures.

so i went to the medical station where this guy poked and cut open my fingure. man i think next time i'll just leave the slivers in there till i get home to do i have never seen twezers that were sharp.I HATE SHARP TWEZERS!!!! but i got a bandade, i was hoping that i would get a sucker because usually little kids do. i know i'm not little but at that point i wanted to be,so i could get a sucker. but other than that it was nice and fun.

today my ma and don just got back from up north with my family my uncle randy's house and his wife peg my grandpa was there as so my grandma. pegs boy roy. and that was all who was there well peg's 3 cats and randy's to bird's. one of them i got to say hello(because it usually takes a while for them to talk some times)aafter i got him to say hello thats all he said all day hello, hello, hello, hello. now the other one keep saying ma, ma, ma, ma oh and what, what, what.mmmhhhmmm. lets just say quite anoying after a while. i watched the movie the interview with the vampire, and fell a sleep on there couch near the end. but i was not the only one my uncle randy fell asleep on the other couch.

and i really dont look at my uncle randy's arm much to when i lifted the sleave up i saw an egale and it said "in loving memory of roy roger". i thought that was the sweetent thing ever. well if some of you dont know roy roger shonfelder, s my uncle that had died on a motor cycle when i was about 4, 5 years old. we all miss him and i was just really happy to see that tatoo on his arm.

well then we came home after eating diner there (it was good).so yeah thats all bye bye.


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