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:: 2003 24 November :: 6.23 pm

*1. Full Birth Name: Jacqueline Lubin Tombari
*2. Natural Hair Color: Brownish-auburney, i think
*3. Hair Color Currently: brownish-auburney, i think.
*4. Eye color: brown
*6. Height Currently: 5'8
*7Glasses/Contacts: contacts-- vanity loves to come to those who need assistance.
*8. Birthdate: 2/13/1988
*9. Sign: Aquarius
*10. Current Age: 15
*11. Parents Names: Jill Lubin and John Peter Tombari
*12. Siblings: Jesse Lubin Tombari
*13. Location: Boca
*14. School Attended: Spanish River
*15. Current Grade: sophomore
*16. G.P.A: 3.2
*17. Planned College Major: sleeping away my life
*18. Planned College Minor: biochemistry...or lacking ambition
*19. Any Piercing: 9-ears 1-bellybutton
*20. Any Tattoos: maybe later

*1. Girl Friend(s): Ziggy's, liz, lauren t, sarah, alison, em
*2. Guy Friend(s): ron, paul, mac, helmykins, ryan L and s, chuck, anthony
*3.Best Boyfriend/Girlfriend: paul n mac, sarah n ali (durr ZU)
*4. If Yes, Current Dating Partner: marcone
*5. Current Crush:...
*6. Hobbies: wondering what might've been, creating
*7. Where Can You Usually Be Found?: my room
*8. Who Can You Usually Be Found With:em
*10. Pager: no
*11. Are You Center Of Attention Or Wallflower: either or
*12. What Type Automobile Do You Drive: permit
*13. What Type Automobile Do You Wish You Drove: toyota 4 runner, VW cabrio, 66-69 mustang
*14. Would You Rather Be With Friends Or On A Date: depends on who the date and friends are
*15. Where Is The Best Hangout: lauren's house
*16. Do You Have A Job: Ruining the world for posterity
*17. Where Do You Attend Church: HAHAHA
*18. Where's the best place to have a date: anywhere your love is


Out Of Your Friends Who...
*1. Have You Known The Longest: LIZ
*2. Do You Argue The Most With: Em
*3. Do You Always Get Along With: Ali
*4. Is The Most Trustworthy: Ali, sarah, helmy and the laurens
*5. Makes You Laugh The Most: Sarah, mac, ron, or paul
*6. Has Been There Through All The Hard Times: Sarah, Ali, Mac
*8. Is The Most Sensitive: we are all cold and hard.
*10. Has The Coolest Siblings: paul. he has joel. ROXOR. n mac's little brother bryant.
*11. Is The Most Blunt: Em. too blunt.
*12. Is The Shyest: Lauren t. not so much shy, but... quiet at first? lol
*13. Is The Most Outgoing: Sarah or Em or Ryan S
*13. Has The Coolest Parents: Meeee! or Ali cuz her momma loves Trent Renzor
*14. Is Most Rebellious: such a quaint notion
*15. Is Most Conservative: Rebecca... mormon.
*16. Is Most Likely To Become Famous: Ella Claney, or killian n his bass skizzles.
*17. Is Most Likely To Become Rich: Kathy? by being a televangelist?
*18. Is Most Likely To Wind Up In Jail: probably me for starting some sort of riot?*19. Is Most Likely To Have A Million Kids: HAHAHAHA me! or ali or Ryan L.
*20. Most likely To Never Have Kids: hmm.. Lauren G. or Ryan S.
*21. Always Wears A Smile:Ali. always smilin' nomatter what.
*22. Is Smartest: Ron... that fucker.
*23. Who Has The Biggest Attitude: Em
*24. Without Thinking About It, Who Do You Think Would Die For You: Ali or Sarah... and I;d die for them.
*25. Complains The Least: Lauren T.
*26. Biggest Flirt: Ryan L., Em, RON!!!
*27. Needs A Good Man/Woman: some relationships are already good, just in need of alteration.
*28. Never EVER Betrayed you: Ali, Sarah, Mac, Ron, the Laurens, devin
*30. Easiest to talk to: Ali n sarah n lauren g

*1. Who Is Your Role Model: Coutney Love
*2. What Are Your Pet Peeves: The list is too long and mostly people rather than idiosyncracies
*3. Have You Ever Been In Love: yes.
*4. Have You Ever Loved Someone You Had No Chance With: yea.
*5. Have You Ever Cried Over The Opposite Sex: yes.
*6. Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go after: no. it's better that way, you get more assortment
*7. How Long Was Your Longest Relationship: 8 months, 3 weeks, and counting.
*8. Have You Ever Lied To Your Best Friend(s): depends on which "best friend"
*9. Ever Wanted To Get Revenge on Someone Because They Hurt You: revenge is sweet.
*10. Ever Been Cheated On: no, surprisingly enough.
*11. Ever Said I Love You To A Significant Other: yes.
*12. Rather Be Dumper Or Dumped: iit hurts either way. even if neither of you liek eachother.
*13. Rather Have A Relationship Or A "Hookup": a relationship that came from a hook up.
*14: Want someone you don't have right now: story of my life
*15. Ever Liked Your Best Guy/Girl Friend: it's happened.
*16. Do You Want To Get Married: yes
*17. Do You Want Kids: not at the moment, but eventually
*18. Do You Believe In Psychics: i keep thinking that says physics... i believe in psychics more than physics though.

*20. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Physical Being: N/A
*21. What Is Your Favorite Part Of Your Emotional being: my lack of self respect which in turn stems my lack of respect for most others
*22. Are You Happy With You: i don't think that i would be any happier if i was someone else, but i am not pleased with me, either.
*23. Are You Happy With Your Life:no
*24. Are You Scared Right Now: constantly of something or aubrey.
*25. If You Could Change Something In Your Life, Right Now What Would It Be: i like to think almost everyone. maybe things too.


*1. Kiss:spencer, or my first with mac, or himmelbaum
*2. Room In house: mine
*3. Girl's Name: Ghelle
*4. Guy's Name: God
*5. Person to talk to about your problems: Ali
*6. Song: Radiohead- anyone can play guitar, or blackstar
*7. Movie: Benny & Joon?
*8. Actor/Actress: Depp.
*9. Soda: VC
*10. Candy: Dairy milks
*11. Band/Artist: Radiohead, Fiona Apple, Reel Big Fish, Tori Amos, Beck, The Postal Service, Mad Caddies, Brand New, Saves the Day, SheDaisy, Frank Sinatra, Billie Holliday
*12. Salad Dressing: Greek or Italian
*13. Blanket/Stuffed Animal: Shuffy. RIP.
*16. Day of The Week: tuesday or wednesday.
*17. Color: black, pink, purple
*18. Cologne/perfume: Curve, for men or women
*19. TV Show: Gilmore Girls
*20. Flower: Daisies or black roses
*21. Fast Food Place: Checkers, Wendys
*22. Game: Trivial Pursuit or Hide and Go seek
*23. Love Song: Fairground Attraction- Perfect, Radiohead- Blackstar, Frank Sinatra- The way you look tonight, Brand New- Mix Tape
*24. Teacher: Mrs. Thomas, Mrs. Q, or SOLES!!!
*25. Clothing: Dolly's shirt
*26. Possession: i would say my heart, but thats a lot of peices, so ill say my coat.
*27. Season: Winter
*28. Vacation Spot: I'd like to see Italy. 'Till then, nowhere.
*29. Person To Give Advice To: I don't like advice. you just need to have conversations.
*30. Person To Get Advice From: CONVERSATIONS

*1. Cried: yes
*2. Bought Something: my christmas presents
*3. Gotten Sick: like vomitting?
*4. Sang: all the freakin' time
*5. Eaten: sadly.
*6. Been Kissed: no
*7. Felt stupid: all the time
*8. Said I Love You: and meant it? no
*10. Met Someone New: yes
*11. Moved On : there's no way for me to.
*12. Talk To An Ex: always.
*13. Missed An Ex: not dating them.
*14. Talked To Someone You Have A Crush On: ...
*15. Had a Serious talk: i don't think so
*16. Missed Someone: yes
*17. Hugged Someone: yes... not well.
*18. Fought With Your Parents: minor arguement
*19. Fought With A Friend: i am constantly battling with em
*20. Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: When don't i?

<3 jackie. you do it.

4 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 23 November :: 10.17 pm

Japan. Fucking Japan. He didn't even tell me himself... Tim told me. Fucking Asia, everyone that I love ends up there. And you know... it's the fact that it's FUCKING JAPAN and he didn't even tell me! AND, moreover, where the HELL did JAPAN come from?! I mean, why not CROZET or something?! Christ... it's the other side of the world! He's not even halfway across the COUNTRY and I haven't talked to him in a month. Every freaking time he's online I am not here. WHAT THE FUCK?! Why does all of this shit happen?! WHY DOES EVERYONE MOVE TO FUCKING ASIA AND THEN I NEVER GET TO TALK TO THEM AGAIN?! God. I feel so... ugh.

7 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 9 November :: 7.51 pm
:: Music: radiohead- bishop's robes

The troubled words of a troubled mind I try to understand what is eating you
I try to stay awake but its 58 hours since that I last slept with you
What are we coming to?
I just don't know anymore

<3 missing you, honey.

Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 8 November :: 8.46 am

What Video Game Character Are You? I am a Thrust-ship.I am a Thrust-ship.

I am small and tricky - where you think I am, I probably am not. I can work very fast, but I tend to go about things in a round about way, which often leaves me effectively standing still. I hate rocks. Bloody rocks. What Video Game Character Are You?

well, i was either supposed to be that or

What Video Game Character Are You? I am a Defender-ship.I am a Defender-ship.

I am fiercely protective of my friends and loved ones, and unforgiving of any who would hurt them. Speed and foresight are my strengths, at the cost of a little clumsiness. I'm most comfortable with a few friends, but sometimes particularly enjoy spending time in larger groups. What Video Game Character Are You?

even though the second one is probably truer, i liked the rocks reference. hehe, dinosaur eggs.

1 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 4 November :: 9.13 pm

read my old entries please... i mean... very old ones, i think they are trying to make sense of themselves.

2 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 3 November :: 9.47 pm

tomorrow is the day. the day that i fear the coming of for it hurts me, on the inside, and im afraid that i will hurt myself on the outside. my only duty tomorrow is to die. maybe ill be famous.

2 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 28 October :: 9.51 pm

why do they put the "you may veiw your comment HERE." thing after you post a comment on someones journal? are we all really so pompous that we HAVE to look at what we JUST STARED AT as we typed it to someone else?! jeez!

3 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 26 October :: 10.33 pm


3 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 22 October :: 7.27 pm

Become a God or Goddess. by zerogirl
God/Goddess ofPain
Animal Companion:Wolf
Weak againstFood
Created with quill18's MemeGen!

4 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 22 October :: 7.09 pm
:: Mood: numb
:: Music: zebrahead- what's going on

it never changes
i dont feel. it's all the same, every single day and i havent actually FELT for months... ive just kind of BEEN. I have just been spinning around on the planet in a constant cycle like everyone else. and we are trapped. everyone sees that we are trapped, but noone wants to admit it. there is no way to break this cycle. and even if you could, what would you do? i mean, your daily routine is the same. your weekends are the same. your life is pointless and the same as everyone elses: you are born, you go to school, you get a job, you reproduce, you die. occasionally out of order, but there really is no difference in it. you procreate so that there are more pointless beings. and i dont think the real question is what is the meaning of it all, or why are we in this cycle of birth and death... but the real question is: why do we so desperately WANT to be a part of this useless, endless, ring of "life as we know it"? Why do we want to?

2 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 13 October :: 5.00 pm
:: Mood: productive
:: Music: suicide machines

absence makes the heart grow fonder, and familiarity breeds contempt. They are both conveying the same thing.

*~Something in the way she never looks my way, im in love. im in love. Something in the way she never hears a word i say, im in love. im in love.~* -The Hippos- Wasting my life.

4 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 9 October :: 9.45 pm

i hate everything, just look at how full of the hate i am! FULL OF THE HATE! GARR! ...she was like a small planet. I SPIT ON YOU.

1 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 6 October :: 10.19 pm

"It's getting harder for me to write down all my thoughts and feelings because I know that people are reading them. Maybe it would be better if I could keep some of these reports private for a while." (Charlie Gordon)

2 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 1 October :: 9.02 pm

a note to all who question my scars
yes, i make a mockery of cutting oneself, but i do it too. its not for it being a trend. sarah found a passage from ophelia speaks that tells exactly what i do... that is how i write my poetry, that is my art.. because the second i cant slash my skin, i am scribbling cryptic, yet eloquent words across a sheet of paper in hopes of feeling the pain and seeing the blood that is in fact who i am, exposed. i laugh at the kids that do it for trends. i converse with those who do it because it is their poetry. and there was a period when i didnt do it. i had a different poetry, not in blod or word, but a person. and that was so sweet, the poetry could be kissed and felt in your arms. my blood is my poetry, my blade is my pen. that is why my scars are there and that: poetry, TRUE art from within or without-- is everything that i can stand for.

3 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

:: 2003 24 September :: 9.43 pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: fif and other stuff on this random cd.

i am wondering about everything in my life... especially the stuff i can't control. there is so much that i would do if i had control over the actions of others that affected me... but i dont change the things that i can control because im simply too busy wondering what could be if i changed something that someone else said or did or even is. who am i? why do i think like i do? why do i hate what i hate, mainly myself? why do i not try to change what i can and accept what i cannot change? my neighbor told me i look exactly like her daughter elisa, especially now that i have short hair. her daughter is a friend of jesse's and she is at a school in boston right now, so she says that it's almost like she is still here. i want something to happen. something to take heed. something so that i will know, have the answers... to anything...

9 won't sing along. | Here on Fibber Island we strum rubber guitars

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