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2008 17 July :: 10.26pm
my interweb has been out at my apartment since i am to be moving in a house. i am at my grandparents' for a few days. going to the bed though. maybe tomorrow.
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2008 17 July :: 8.03pm
To pJ and Slayer
Okay, I completely understand what ya'll are saying. Yes, it would be more intelligent for me to just move there, but I want to finish school. I don't think anyone is getting that fact; I don't want to quit. I don't like it, and I'll bitch about it, but I want to finish. It's only one more year, and yeah, that's one more year, but I want to finish.
Also, about the money/job thing, there is no way in hell I would let you guys pay shit for me when I move up there. I'm still moving up there, don't doubt that, though I understand that you'd have reason to doubt because I've been rather retarded in my decision making lately, but there isn't any doubt in my mind as to where I belong, so you guys shouldn't worry either.
Also, I'm living right in town, there are seven other people here, and it's going to cost me next to NOTHING to live here. I'm not going to use a bunch of gas because everything and everywhere I would go is right down the street. Therefore, I'll be able to save money and shouldn't need any help when I get there. I don't want help, I don't like help. End of discussion.
I get the questions, and actually expected them sooner than they came. I can not continue living with my parents, for reasons I'd rather not really get into. Things just aren't good there, and that's where I'll leave it. I had to get out of there, and this worked out really fucking well because there's so many people here so it's going to be really cheap.
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2008 16 July :: 10.02pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Rising Down - The Roots
Clean, clean, paint, clean, stain, varnish, clean some more. Sleep a few hours, and get back at it.
That's what my life consists of atm. It's fun though. I can't wait to get moved in here.
...However, there's like a million people that I'm not very comfortable around and I have a feeling they're always going to be over here and it makes me feel weird.
Plus, people don't put the toilet seat down when they flush and it grosses me out. Urine and feces shoots out all over if you don't shut the lid!! Geeze, people need to learn to not be sick.
Um... I was excited that my room was this really dark red/maroon color, but it doesn't match these amazing orange curtains that I have, so I'm going to repaint it.
Actually, I FAIL at painting, so mom's going to.
That's about all... I can't wait to LIVE here. And have internet that I'm not stealing >.> heh
I miss my man =(
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2008 13 July :: 9.27pm
:: Mood: bored
Even with a pillow I can't get any rest.
I'm tired of pills.
I'm tired of phonecalls.
I'm tired of oily skin.
I'm tired of sarcasim.
I'm tired of not trusting.
I'm tired of holding onto the past.
I'm tired of forgetting I did it too.
I'm tired of marriage.
I'm tired of loving too much.
I'm tired of queesyness.
I'm tired of makeup.
I'm tired of working.
I'm tired of not working.
I'm tired of being tired.
~Nee
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2008 13 July :: 2.22pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Not My Time - 3 Doors Down
Stuffs
We are for sure getting the house. I'm so excited. No one can even fathom the excitement that I have atm.
We have to be moved in by the first, so that gives us like... 18 days? Something like that. This week I think I'll be rather nonexistant. We're going to start cleaning up the house, bleaching everything, mopping, scrubbing... fun stuff. I enjoy doing that stuff. Then we're going to clean up the yard. It's got a pretty decent sized back yard... not that I really care. I'm so not an outdoor-sy person. I hope I don't get stuck mowing too often. I'm not really good at it; I get bored and like day dream and end up doing a shitty job.
Hmm... Johanna is moving. She's like one of my closest friends, though we don't hang out too often anymore, unfortunately. She and her boyfriend, Matt, are moving into a house in Arkansas, to attend U of A. They're leaving on the first, as well. I'm rather depressed about this. Yeah, I could drive down and see her in like one day, but the likelihood of that happening isn't very good. I'm going to be so fucking busy, and gas... yeah. We all know about gas, so I'll leave it at that.
Anyway, I'm probably going to be working on weekends here pretty soon, which is kind of okay, because I hate my stupid sunday school teacher. She's a dumb bitch -_-
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2008 10 July :: 7.39pm
Fail.
Today is a pos.
I was picking up the living room, as Taylor sat in front of the television putting away some of the movies that always seem to accumulate on top of the entertainment center, thanks to Trevor. Well, I bent to pick something up behind her, just as she turned to grab another movie, and she elbowed me perfectly, right in the left temple. I passed out, too, which was pretty cool. Ever since then my head has been pounding, my vision is blurry on that side, and my neck hurts from... well I don't know. Maybe from when I fell after passing out? I might have like... idk. Something made it hurt.
Mom and Dad agreed that if my vision doesn't clear up by nine we're going to the hospital to figure shit out. I think I'm fine, just a little rattled.
I answered the phone earlier, and it was for dad so I took it outside to him. Apparently I missed a shingle, and I stepped on a nail. It didn't go all the way in, just enough to make me feel as though I were dying.
If we do go to the hospital, I might inquire about a tetnus shot. Gangreen is so not on the list of things I want.
I got my bill for the fall semester today, and they had me in two classes that I hadn't signed up for, making my billa lot higher than it should have been. I called the office and cleared it up, but the chick was hateful about it, as though it were my fault. I was just hateful back, so whatever. It's taken care of now.
Anyway, MSN is being a hag, so I've really nothing to do. I'm probably going to go take a bubble bath and attempt to relax. Today has been full of fail.
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2008 9 July :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: tired
el. oh. el.
I was singing Even Flow earlier, and just a few minutes ago Taylor was like, "eeeven flooow, I don't even know this fucking soong." I laughed forever. It was perfect.
Anyway... We just got our power back on. I don't know why it went away, but it was off for a few hours. Everyone around us lost it too. I was just kind of hanging out with Taylor, then we got really bored, so we decided to go see if there was any mail, or if dad had gotten it. When I opened the mailbox, though, there were a million ants, so we went and got bug spray and killed them. Then we walked all over looking for more and killed them too. I hate ants with a passion. And they freak me out.
Um... I think we're almost kind of done with the roof. My fingers are like fucking raw from taking the nails out of the old shingles, because mom doesn't want to haul them off. She's layering them around the pool, and then she's going to pour gravel on top of them so that there isn't any grass near the pool. I approve of the idea, I just don't like fucking pulling nails out of them. I stabbed my toe yesterday, and my entire foot was sore this morning when I woke up.
It was cool though, cause mom and dad went to Wheaton, and brought me back biscuits and gravey with some bacon. Dad woke me up and gave it to me, along with a cup of coffee. It had been forever since I was given breakfast in bed and it was awesome.
<3 mah fasha.
Anyway, Tessi might break up with Travis, and I just know she's going to want to move in with us when we get the house (which should be pretty soon, probably the end of July/beginning of August). I could not and will not live with her. I'll like... die.
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2008 9 July :: 2.15pm
it's good to be back.
missed you, woohu.
sometimes i wonder if i'm making my life easier or harder.
things bother me a lot, but i choose to ignore them
because i know in a day or two it won't matter anymore.
but should i do that?
i feel like i should confront issues as they come because of how they make me feel,
but i also feel like that just complicates things.
no sweat- it'll all be good.
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2008 7 July :: 3.10pm
:: Mood: dorky
Nope. I can't see you now.
SO hay kidoz. Jon's back, so I won't be around much. Like I wasn't around the past few days while he's been distracting me. <3
I loves him.
Yus I dooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
- belly flop -
~Nee
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2008 7 July :: 1.44pm
i heard an interesting theory the other week:
since british people, scottich, irish, and australian people all sound like americans when they sing, americans probably sing english more than other nations.
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2008 6 July :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Wasting My Time - Default
I is baaack. I am so stinkin sunburnt, too. It hurts =(
It was kind of a shitty trip. It rained a lot, everyones tents leaked. Then Trevor got sick.
All that was alright, though, like it didn't bother me too much. However the third day, we were all down at the rock everyone jumps off of, it's what the place is named after, and the water is really fucking deep, thanks to the tons of rain lately, and so this guy jumped off of another rock close by, head first. He never came back up, so they called the police and they drug the waters for like 45 minutes before they found his body. I wish that I had just left, but I was like holding one of the little kids that was like... part of his family or some shit, idk who it was, so I couldn't really. I saw him, too. His face was all busted up, I guess where he hit something in the water. His body had gotten caught up in some trees on the bottom and the current and pushed or pulled or something and he was all just... nasty. I don't know. It was really scary, and I keep having horrible dreams of it being like people I know, especially my dad. Luckily I made Taylor and Trevor, and all my cousins go back to the camp site or they would have seen it too. It was just really fucked up.
Idk, I've been to a lot of open casket funerals or visitations or whatever, so it's not like that was the first time I've ever seen a dead body, but like... stuff.
/shrugs.
I'm sure I'll get over it sooner or later.
Anyway, I'm so fucking happy to be back. I'm like dying to talk to Kell, but currently he's set to away. I have to babysit for Grandma tomorrow, so I'm staying the night over here, and Ashley's laptop is quickly dying. You can't plug it up and let it charge, either, until everyone's asleep cause it fucks up the tv and makes it all static-like, and then grandma bitches. So... looks like no Kelly tonight, and he'll be at work tomorrow, so maybe tomorrow night when I get home I can talk to him.
Oh, and we're totally getting the house in Cassville. I'm so fucking excited that I'll finally be out of the house. And we're going to get high speed internet, and I'll have service for my phone... zomg. Dreams are coming true in the next month or two. Happy, happy am I.
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2008 2 July :: 4.44pm
:: Mood: enthralled
No Goblin marriage ceremony would be complete without the services of Quilk.
Finally. A development.
Afew weeks ago, I stated that Jon was still coming up with brilliant plans and such to free himself. Well, I think he finally found one that might work. Yay.
I think I might just be cheerful enough to buy myself icecream.
:D
~Nee
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2008 2 July :: 7.02am
:: Mood: crushed
There is a lack of joy in this room.
Nee is a sad Nee.
I was going through my old boxes today and found my old Jurassic Park scan command game. So I'm all over the moon happy and twittering with joy over the prospect of playing again, and I come to find... the doohicky that plugs into the computer can't be plugged in. D:
Because my computer is too new, and they don't put the attachment into computers anymore that I need. It's like a plug with two rows of holes, four on the top and five on the bottem, and I think that computers have an alternate system of pluggage now.
I wonder if they sell adapters for this problem.
I wants to play mah scanzcommandz. T-T
Also, I now have drapes. It's rather weird. And closet space too. o_o
~Nee
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2008 2 July :: 12.38am
:: Mood: determined
Candles and Photoalbums.
How frusrrating. Seriously, I hate how people operate.
No I don't... this is just a bad day I guess.
Oh well. Girls like me are so very hard to please.
-Nee
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2008 1 July :: 9.19pm
norway is home now. we saw eachother for the first time after three weeks yesterday. apparently one of the bags (the one containing a souveniers) got lost a little in amsterdam and came in today. he brought me back a plastic viking helmet, an adorable moose necklace, and some postcards with photos of nature there. they are very beautiful and make me want to go there. except that i would be crying after the first few days.
i left my permit in my grandmother's car, but she mailed it today so it should be here in a couple of days. focusing on the concurrent textbook work that i have not been doing for the next days and reviewing the handbook.
i also have a goal this week: instead of being jealous of people, be happy for them.
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2008 1 July :: 10.12am
:: Mood: dorky
Oh geeeeze. Guess who's forced to go camping?
Oh! *raises hand*
Me..... Joyous. Five whole days without Kelly = sad times.
So, last night I decided I was upset that I had ever taken my nose ring out, so I shoved it back in. It hurt so fucking bad. It still hurts so fucking bad. However, it will get better and I'll still have it. Makes me happy.
I didn't quite think about this, but Sunday I kind of got into it with my Sunday School teacher (who is a dumb bitch) about piercings and shit, and she was all like "Oooh God says don't mark your body in any way blah blah" and I was like "yeah, I don't think it matters. He says not to eat shrimp and people do. He says not to gamble and people do. I think a little earring isn't going to piss him off too badly." And she was all like huffy and shit with me, and then I go and get my nose ring back... Kind of looks like I was doing such things to spite her, but I really wasn't. I didn't think of that until this morning.
Oh well though, she's an asshat and can blow me.
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2008 30 June :: 7.09pm
:: Mood: energetic
Seven stickie notes, and no events to go to.
Sometimes I listen to people say "I'm easily amused" or somthing equally steriotypical and I roll me eyes. As a population ameria has a unified attention span of a goldfish. Now don't get me wrong, this isn't a rant about how much people piss me off. Nope, I just wanted to tell ya'll that I am just like all those others.
My candle is covered in candles. o_o
In other news, Kelsey and I had a talk about men and their cooties. We established that she will never ever ever ever ever ever (is that enough evers, hun?) forgive or like him. Which is a popular theme among my friends at this point. - sigh - I'm actually consitering some things that he and I talked about last time I visited him. I miss him so badly. - sigh -
_Nee-_->
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2008 29 June :: 3.27pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Unreachable - Ashlee Simpson
Mert.
So we pretty much have a repeat preformance of yesterday, I guess.
I think there will be plenty plenty of those. In some weird way I think it's her way of making me want to stay home. We don't necessarily like each other, but like, she still wants me to stay here... Yeah, I know, it makes no sense. But when I was going to go to Michigan for school, she got extremely hateful; now that I'm getting ready to move out, she's doing the same. She got pretty hostile with Ashley when she moved out too, now that I think about it.
/shrug
The woman is fucked up. No denying it.
Anyway, I'm going to apply for a job at Ark of the Ozarks. It's a facility that houses handicapped people, be it physical or mental. My grandma Harrison was a foster parent ever since my mom was like 10, and she just quit a few years ago, and she usually had handicapped people, so I've been around it my entire life. I am therefore rather confident that I'll be taken seriously. I have a lot more experiance than two of my friends that work there, so... fingers crossed I guess.
I can't apply yet, though. Well, I could, but they require you to have a CDL license. So, I'm going to study for that, take the test, and then apply and hopefully impress them with the fact that I already have that. Yeah, I'm kind of being a brown noser, but hell if I care. If it'll get me a job, it's well worth it imo.
The only downfall is that it's in Monett and that's about 30-40 minutes away = ugh. I may just stick with working third shift at Wal-Mart. I've already thought all that through, it'll allow me to make all my classes without changing my schedual, and if/when we move to Cassville, it'll be like less than five minutes away from the house.
I don't know yet, though.
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2008 28 June :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Utopia - Alanis Morissette
Blah.
So, today was a fucking pile of shit.
Mom made me feel so fucking small, and... fuck if I deserved it. I want to just scream and yell and swear up and down that I hate her, but for the life of me, I can't hate her. Oh, I can say it fairly convinsingly, I'm sure, but I never mean it. I want to hate her so bad, but at the end of it all, she's my mom, ya know? It's like some horrible joke being played; I simply cannot hate her. I love her. She's malicious, and rude, and will stop at nothing to make sure that she has thoroughly ruined your day. She'll say one thing and then do something completely different. She makes it her goal to publicly humiate you as much as possible, she's sarcastic and she does shit just to set you off so that you get in this huge fight, and then she threatens to kick you out and take away, for me, the computer, shut off the internet, not let me drive.... and despite every single fucking thing, I love her.
I feel like an idiot because I love her so much. I fucking defend her all the time because my dad's side of the family is always ragging on her and saying shit, and I fucking defend her. I want to tell her that, but I never can. I'm sure it would start even more problems with her and dad. I wish that they would just get a fucking divorce already.
Everyone's like, "oh you're so lucky your parents are still together, that's so amazing."
The fuck it is. It'll be amazing when I can go one day without my mom calling my dad an asshole and dad punching the shit out of something. One day where they come home and are pleased to see each other and kiss and hug rather than scream.
Anyway, enough of that. Good news: Dad got the job he applied for. It's the carpentry teacher for the Vo-Tec program at Monett school. He's horribly excited and it's awesomely cute. However, when he was working with his construction crew, the company put out for gas, he never had to pay for it, and now... he's kind of on his own there. And it's going to suck up a lot driving to Monett and back each day. Mom and dad are kind of flirting with the idea of moving, but they don't really want to, so who knows how that will turn out.
Doesn't matter, I'm getting out of here anyway. We found a house to rent in Cassville and so as soon as August gets here, we're moving in. It'll be me, Ash, Lacey, and Samantha. There's another room, but we don't really know anyone who want's to move, or at least I don't. Plus, they would so get the short end of the stick, because it's a tiny ass room, and is more suited as a storage room, or a guest bedroom.
I'm pretty sure that Taylor and Trev will be staying over a lot, as well as Brooklyn and Gus. And Sam has two cousins that are basically siblings. So, a lot of people will be able to put it to use, so we're not too concerned, though it would be nice to split the rent and expenses five ways instead of four, but whatever.
And as soon as school is done with, baby, here I come. No more long distance shit. It's doing okay, we're fine and everything, but fuuuuck I want to be held =(
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2008 28 June :: 5.12am
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: "I Could Just Kill a Man" by Charlotte Sometimes
I want it all.
So... my mood's improved. By alot.
I moved that old wicker chest into my room and it lead to like... a six hour escapade which resulted in some cleaning. And heavy lifting. I have terrible girl muscles. Like.... seriously.
Although I suppose I could have taken the things OUT of the cabinet that I was lifting... but there was no room. I'm a slob, that's just a fact.
At 7 I'm going to vaccum. That will be very... interesting. Vaccums and myself have a life-long feud going on. It's actually quite depressing, but I feel it must be done. I don't know what's so different between myself and Kelsey when it comes to cleaning. She can power though it in three hours and the floor will even be spotless. Eight hours and I still need to vaccum. What a hassle. I need a maid.
I'm going to go see Jon today. I'm a little bit nervous. I don't know what I'm going to say to him yet. I'm not really thinking about it though. I'm sure he has our conversation mapped out already, which is for the best. I'm too ditzy to talk on my own.
Wark.
Later that night: 9:16 PM
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So the vaccum and I had our fight this morning. We yelled and screamed and hissed at eachother. True, I was trying to force it to play over in the cage area... but it didn't need to act the way it did. In the end it took the inititive and shut itself off. It's still in the middle of my room, just chilling.
Saw Jon, we talked. He got me well and fully worried like all men like to do. Serious... what is it about men and being non-chalant about death? Robbie's like "lol imma diz naow, kbye." and Dev does it too. Now Jon's all like "These huge scars running down my arms in three centimeter rivets are nothing. I was just trying to die." and so I freak out and worry about our future. Honestly, I have sympathy for people who WANT to die, but not so much when it's my favorite people. I loves mah bro bro Robbie and my...DADDY DEVVY (hahahahaha, he can't smack me, since he doesn't have my journal, in his fai-ossss)...and that goes a million times for my beloved Jon.
And the moral is that I haven't slept since spending the night at Crystal's. T-T
-Nee
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2008 25 June :: 5.35am
:: Mood: crappy
Breakdowns and Throwing up.
Day baggilion of Jon being away. I say away like he's just on a business trip and he'll be right back. Like I can just flop on my bed and call him up to tell him I miss him. Like I don't have to worry about him being sad or in pain.
I'm basicly living in filth because I can barely stand the idea of moving anything in my room more than a couple feet because it'll be like I'm accepting...something. I don't even know what. I've been so sick with food poisoning and various other sicknesses no doubt caused by stress. I just want him back. The fact that I can't do ANYTHING to get him out of jail and back home... it tears my apart and just beats at my whole being. I feel like such a failure. He's missed so many things, things that only he should have been there for.
All I ever do is sleep and roleplay online and go to Nick's to play online games. I hate being awake 80% of the time and I just... feel so lost.
And it's the worst kind of lost. It's not like being broken up with, he's still with me and still in love with me and I'm in love with him. He's just... not here. It's like walking around with a hole in your head that you can't understand why it's missing. It'd be easier if it was a broken heart, I could just get angry. This... I love him and I love him and I KEEP loving him... but I can't see him or talk to him or touch him...or even let him know that I'm thinking of him. I look at his picture and I cry. Alot.
I even have a message on my answering machine from like... a month ago that I play every night before I go to bed so I can just HEAR his voice. I miss him so badly. I'm so confused without him. I have so much to talk to him about. I talk to the air pretending it's him so I don't break down every minute of every day.
I don't know what to do. I wish I could do SOMETHING.
I would give up anything to get him out.
Well... I'd give up anything but him.
~Nee
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2008 24 June :: 12.59am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: That's What You Get - Paramore
I was all sad and cry-ish in my bed today and then mom got home and killed me for being a bum and made me get ready and she took me shopping to make me happy. It really shocked me; she's an asshole and this is the first non-asshole thing that she's done in a really fucking long time. I actually had fun too, we just walked around the mall talking and stuff. And she bought me three new bras and a pair of adorable heels. Then we bought some hair dye.
And no, Kelly, it's not the purple color. It's pretty much my natural hair color with a bit more red in it. I haven't done it yet, because we got back late and she went to sleep, but I'm excited.
My dad just gave me a, "are you kidding me with this?" look when we got home because the two times I've ever dyed my hair, it had horrific results. First time we attempted highlights. We ended up with orange streaks all over. Second time, my hair was this like neon red, then purple, and it ended up this strange, awkward maroon color.
= Sad times.
Hopefully this one turns out as it should =)
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2008 22 June :: 9.29pm
:: Mood: discontent
Jacob moved to Kentucky with our friend Tylor. They tried to get me to come along, but... yeah, I didn't do that obv.
Anyway, long story short, my best friend in the entire world moved away and I just want to bawl my eyes out. It wasn't like set in stone that he was leaving with Ty, and he always says he's going to do all this shit and never does it, so our goodbye was kind of half assed.
Ugh, I just... don't want to be alone? Yeah.
I want monies to move to MI.
/sigh
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2008 20 June :: 8.00pm
:: Mood: Contented
Don't Cross the Streams
RGay: We could play rock band i have a voice like an angel
Emlah: An angel getting it's neck wrung by an angry god.
RGay: Only if he had marshmellow hands :>
Emlah: XD Angry marshmallow god.
RGay: Ghostbusters XD
Emlah: So true. XD
RGay: Just remember em... Dont cross the streams.
My friends are stupid. XDD
Just finished Ironside, the sequel to Tithe, by Holly Black. She writes pretty epicly.
Currently working through Carrie by Stephen King - looove the movie, reading the book.
Need to read more of the NECRONOMICON e--e;
Finally made my little brother's duct tape wallet I promised him.
Hopefully get my business going.
YOU WANT COUTURE, HAND-MADE DUCT TAPE ACCESSORIES?
YOU'VE COME TO THE RIGHT LADY.
<3
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2008 20 June :: 5.22pm
I miss the sound of your voice
And I miss the rush of your skin
And I miss the still of the silence
As you breathe out and I breathe in
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I miss the sound of your voice
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet
Perfect words that you said
If I could walk on water
If I could tell you what's next
I'd make you believe
I'd make you forget
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire in the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
I miss the pull of your heart
I could taste the sparks on your tongue
I see angels and devils
And God, when you come on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me in love
So come on, get higher, loosen my lips
Faith and desire and the swing of your hips
Just pull me down hard
And drown me, drown me in love
It's all wrong, it's all wrong
It's all wrong, it's so right
So come on, get higher
So come on and get higher
'Cause everything works, love
Everything works in your arms
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2008 19 June :: 11.53pm
:: Mood: Cynical, quiet, out of it, etc.
:: Music: Scary Kids Scaring Kids
So it's been like.. forever.
And I think this place might be moar private than LJ. Though I don't want privacy.. or something.
I don't remember.
Hi.
Shit has happened.
A lot of shit.
Maybe I'll spill my guts tomorrow.
.. probably.
Right now, quiet time.
~wavies~
<3
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2008 19 June :: 8.56pm
i finally have my permit. after over a year. finally.
i believe i finally found a song by dimmu borgir i can take semi seriously... semi.... (and do not ask me what it was; i forgot already)
i walked down the levee this evening and found some nice secluded spots.
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2008 19 June :: 2.28pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
zomg /returns
Week and a half and one new hard drive later... Hai again.
Absolutely nothing of interest has taken place in my absense, save for Tuesday night when I went to Heather's bachelorette party. I enter the door (which has penises all over it) and get two smirnoffs shoved into my hand. They want to see me chug them, because Heather doesn't believe I have mad skills. Naturally I prove her wrong =)
The night carries on in about the same manner, and by one I'm completely drunk and there's a video of me fellating this paper penis. I don't know how I pulled through with nary a paper cut on me, but luckily I did.
I then, for some reason, am compelled to leave. This was pretty spectacularly timed because Jacob and Juan were driving around and they were both texting me saying I should leave the party and go hang out with them. So, I did and amused them with my drunk person talk.
Theeeen yesterday evening I got my computer and ran over to Renkoski's house and stole his internets to dl shit and steal his music so that it wouldn't take me 80 years. However, when I got home, I deleted the music accidentally. 7 fucking gigs. Gone. I'm so damn pissed about this but wtf ever.
Uh... mom and dad left yesterday afternoon for Oklahoma to have a little ... sex time I guess, idk. Anyway, they're gone until sometime Saturday. Taylor left this morning to go with her friend Kenslee to a Taylor Swift concert and she won't be back until Saturday either. So, it's just me and bub.... which makes me sad because all he wants to do is have me be quiet so he can watch cartoons.
At least I has my computer now!
The only poopy thing is that my wisdom teeth are STILL coming in and it hurts like no other =(
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2008 16 June :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: naughty
Shake it 'til the moon becomes the sun!
I'm sitting in my room feeling ultra funny. I had about a thousand dreams last night, some about Jon, about Shaleen... some about people I've never met before. Lots of swimming from all around. Snuggling in the middle of the Holiday Inn. Driving around downtown... it was very weird.
I'm kinda dazed from it all because I remember most of them. o_o
Anyway, don't tell anyone but I'm eating Vannilla Zingers. I know I know... I hate Vannilla. But it's like the one thing I'll eat and enjoy. Plus, it's too hot for chocolate. It always seems to heat me up when I eat chocolate.
I miss human contact. Talking Dev has like... reminded me of parties and conserts and rubbing up against people I don't know.
Yeah.
I need to get Jon back. It's bad when my mind goes back to the world.
- uncomforable sigh -
-Nee
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2008 16 June :: 9.26am
this is my first day at home by myself. it is rather... lonesome. but no matter. i have stuff i am going to do.
satuday night's ballet was a spectacular finale for the season. i waited all season for a doll's house though i was not aware that it was only eleven minutes long. i am particularly fond of its message on war. it takes place in a toy store after the store owner leaves for the night. the aisle containing the dolls comes to life. it starts out a little bo peep doll looks around, though she is killed off within the first few seconds. the dolls go at war with eachother until finally, the ultimate weapon is brought out. in the end, this weapon wipes them all out and nobody wins. it should be pretty clear what the message is. next was an old narrative ballet, la sylphide. basically, a young scottish farmer was about to be married to his fiance when a sylph comes to him on his wedding day and tells him that she loves him and always has loved him and always will love him so he runs away with her. a cloth is given to him while he is chasing her around by the village sorceress and he is told by her that if he wraps around the sylph, she will be his forever. however, when he does this, it kills the sylph and the village sorceress has her revenge on him as he was extremely rude to her earlier in the story. in the distance, the fiance, assuming he ran away, is getting married to his friend. realizing he has lost everything, the young man collapses and dies. that is romanticism for you. but it has been a good season.
this season's highlights:
-petite mort (essentially about sex and the raw powerful aspect of it)
-swansong (a phsychologically based dance about interrogation, human rights, and the brutality of government)
-a doll's house (the point that war is usually started over petty reasons and in the end, nobody wins)
yesterday, i happened to see an old friend of mine at church that i have not seen in years. he and i were able to chat some during my time and he seems to be doing fairly well. i saw him and said wow you changed a lot. and he said, well you ...havn't... really... changed.... which is the truth actually. i seems to get that a lot from people i have not seen in a long while.
i also walked out to the river yesterday. today i am going to cross the bridge and see if i can get to the river the other side of the highway.
then i talked to my friend cha on the phone. i might be able to see her in july. i still am waiting for sox to call me back. i am thinking about bugging embryx and getting started on the music with her.
norway should be coming home in thirteen days. i just hope he has not forgotten about his american wifey.
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