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2010 28 March :: 11.34 pm
:: Mood: amourous
:: Music: "Falling" by Florence and the Machine
Because Falling's not the problem.
I've fallen out of favour
And I've fallen from grace
Fallen out of trees
And I've fallen on my face
Fallen out of taxis
Out of windows too
Fell in your opinion
When I fell in love with you
Sometimes I wish for falling
Wish for the release
Wish for falling through the air
To give me some relief
Because falling's not the problem
When I'm falling I'm in peace
It's only when I hit the ground
It causes all the grief
This is a song for a scribbled out name
And my love keeps writing again and again
This is a song for a scribbled out name
And my love keeps writing again and again
And again~
I'll dance myself up
Drunk myself down
Find people to love
Love people too drunk
I'm not scared to jump
I'm not scared to fall
If there was nowhere to land
I woudn't be scared
At all~
All~
Sometimes I wish for falling
Wish for the release
Wish for falling through the air
To give me some relief
Because falling's not the problem
When I'm falling I'm in peace
It's only when I hit the ground
It causes all the grief
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2010 23 March :: 10.33 pm
:: Mood: enthralled
What can you see through your eyes?
"Everything gonna be alright...
If I stay in the darkness, how can you feel my real heartbeat?
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If my heart start to cry, can you bring me your smile?
If you're blind I can guide. So please never give up.
Always waiting, waiting the begining so bright...
I know everything gonna be alright.
Everything gonna be alright."
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2010 3 March :: 7.35 pm
:: Mood: enthralled
To be in love.
I am almost positive that I have no idea what love actually feels like anymore.
It's not Jon's fault, it's my own.
People think it should be so easy to move on. It's not.
People think I should fight to get Jon back if I love him so much. I won't.
Isn't love supposed to be wanting that person to be happy, and to have an easy life? I thought so, so I let him go. This Ashley woman is easy. She is all the things he wants right now. She is manipulated, and ugly, no-one would have her but him. She wanted someone to say those things, and he will. For afew months, for afew years. He'll be all the things that I love about him, and he'll move on leaving a trail of hearts behind him. She will support him, and she will let him have his child lust. I'm sure she doesn't even have the pride to keep him in check, to make sure he's loyal.
He will get all the things he's ever wanted.
Everything but me.
I'm such a small thing though, it's fine. All of these things he traded for me. They are good. He will tell everyone he's happy.
Beau told me once: "I had to make people think I was happy. I didn't have you, it was all that kept me together."
Like Beau, Jon who loves me will run away because I am too loving and too overwhelming. Who can say it's right that I am so used to this?
Who knows?
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2010 16 January :: 1.45 am
:: Mood: bouncy
Choo choo!
Hey guys! Here's a public one to promote my bad writing. XD
I have started a writing journal for all of my brain dump needs. :D
Omg look at my ghetto fab button. XD Anyway yes, feel free to go read it, or avoid it like the plague! Whatever!
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2009 25 November :: 11.51 am
:: Mood: cheerful
FRIENDS ONLY
This Journal is PRIVATE, and if only readable if I add you to my friendslist. I wouldn't mind adding anyone who comments this post, or friends me.
-AM
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