friends | profile | guestbook

If we cut out the bad then we'd have nothing left.

recent entries | past entries

:: 2006 23 February :: 7.27 pm
:: Music: E.P. - If i can dream


4 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2006 16 February :: 1.19 pm
:: Mood: renewed
:: Music: Elvis - Gospel

"There's a heaven somewhere"
(So Valentines Day was completely unexpected. It was very nice for a change. I have no regrets. And I'm very happy to see a change in the writings I read.)

So things are good now, i'm happy. Work is fine, although we're moving the store which is going to suck, mainly because it's going to be moved into a tiny little store a forth the size of what we have now. Oh well.

I learned a few new songs on my guitar, one being a song that two lovers once shared, an Elvis song.

Must go and get ready for work, later.


(I miss you)

Star struck

:: 2006 11 February :: 4.14 pm
:: Mood: unexpected

20 years old.

9 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2006 2 February :: 9.57 pm
:: Music: J.C. - Sunday Mornin' Comin' Down

So, we finally got the internet it really matters. Anyway, I got a new job. Nothing special but it's work. I'm assistant manager at a place called "Back in Time" at the mall here. I enjoy working there, plus they sell tons of stuff that I like. Lots of Elvis and Marilyn and things of that nature.

Other than that, all I do is sit around. I am yet to have any friends so far. I sit alone every night doing absolutely nothing. I wake up at like 2:30pm everyday because there is absolutely no reason for me to bother getting up early. I honestly have no life right now, and I'm lonely as fuck. At least Stacy got what she hoped for.. I guess I just dont care, there isn't much that gives me hope now days. Whatever.

I was talking to Chad today and I guess him and I might go to New Orleans for six months to work. Coming home for a week every 3 weeks. I would be making $1200/wk but that's working 11 hours a day 7 days a week. If it happens, i'll go, if not, oh well.

Other than all the terrible shit, I do like Knoxville, a lot. And a couple people from work want to take me out on my birthday, rather than me sitting at home alone like usual. It'll be nice to get out for once.

Well, there isn't much else to say. Other than, goodbye.


3 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2006 17 January :: 4.57 pm
:: Mood: Painful

Well, my back isn't getting any better, if anything, it's getting worse. I might have to get a skin graph and some surgery done. we're suing the insurance company and the city of fort myers.. I had a meeting this morning with a lady from the insurance company and we talked about what happened and everything. I wish we could just get this all over with. This incident might just make me rich though. Last night I was really, really fucked up, i had to take these pills and i was puking and i couldnt even walk. I woke up this morning not able to walk or move really. I hope to god I get better soon.

On another note, I guess we're moving to Tennessee in a week or so. I don't really want to but that's what we're doing anyways. Yesterday we just got brand new 4-wheelers and im getting one once we move.

I guess that's about it for now. later.


18 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2006 12 January :: 8.25 pm
:: Mood: annoyed


1 Lover | Star struck

:: 2006 9 January :: 10.54 pm

So today I got to drive the new mustang, it was pretty sweet. My uncle said that he's gonna trade it in for a GT which will be even better.

Tomorrow morning we leave for Clearwater to start the 3 day boat trip, just me Chad and Jason, should be fun.

I guess in a year we're going to move to Tennessee, it's going to be real cheap living and im going to be doing a lot of traveling. I'll be doing construction with Chad. I guess im not doing the bartending after all. We have new plans, better one's. But there's a lot of money to be made and a lot of things to do.

Well, not that anyone cares, but, i shall update with recent news soon enough.


2 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2006 8 January :: 9.19 pm
:: Mood: something like happiness
:: Music: Elvis - I got a woman

long ass day
Made it to Florida, got into a small accident..but i'm alive. The house is really nice. It's big and new, I like it. I'll take some pictures soon and post them for all of you to see.

It still hasn't sunk in that I live here now, but it will soon enough.

Tuesday we're going to take the boat from st. petersburg to here. It's going to be a 3 day trip. I'm sure we'll see some dolphins and shit.(mom helped with that sentence =)

Anywho, later.

Star struck

:: 2006 6 January :: 1.08 pm
:: Mood: unsure
:: Music: silence

The end.
Well, the day has come. It's a lonely day, it's a sad day..for some. But, I'm leaving for Florida tomorrow morning. With all of my stuff, I'll be gone for good. It's been fun everyone, I guess you'll see me again someday.

Anyway, to make this short and sweet, I'll miss you all. Goodbye.

7 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 21 December :: 3.31 pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: Fo tha Shorties - Sir Loin

Christmas time is here!
After a long day of yard work, i'm finally done. Tony and I have been doing lots of yard work. We worked from morning till night yesterday, looks pretty good though. Anyway, I'm having fun here, for the most part. Chad's giving me his laptop, my mom gave me their video camera and i'm taking my moms little doggy home for a little while, until I move. I guess they're moving as well, accross Florida, so that's where i'm going. It's in St. Pierce, which is a very good location. We're already going to start working on the bar in a couple weeks. It all sounds pretty fun, getting to design the place and all. I'm doing all of the art for t-shirts and logos and all that jazz.

I hope that most of you, whoever actually reads this journal still, will come to my New Years party.

I have to start packing once I get home. I'll leave enough stuff for the party and that's all. I'm heading back tomorrow, so if anyone wants to hang out before I go, let me know soon and we'll make plans.

I'm going to go see my sister today, catch up with her and see what she's up to. I sure hope that she's making plans for her future with all the shit she's got herself into. But soon enough, she'll need my help. In a few months or so, i'm going to save up some money and buy a new car and give ashley my truck, because i'm such a nice brother. And there's not much need for a truck in Florida, I wan't a nice car. Soon enough everything will work out nicely.

Well i'll talk to ya'll later. chao.


10 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 19 December :: 10.09 pm

So I'm back from Key West. It was fun, did some shopping and walking around. saw some crazy fish and the disney cruise ship, which was huge. I didnt get much video because the battery has been dead most of the time. But anyway, everything was nice, the hotel, the food, the ocean, all that good stuff. Tomorrow I get to go to work doing demolitions and construction. Tony and I are heading back to Michigan Thursday night. We'll be back by Friday night. I get to go to my dads for christmas eve and the rest of my family on Christmas.

NEW YEARS PARTY at my apartment. I want to see everyone for the last time before I leave, which will be sooner that I thought. This party will not be a drunkin bum party. I want a nice party with some wine maybe and just a good time to kick off the new year. So if you want to, and you can make it, please come. Call me for details whenever. STACY, I do want you to be there, if you decide not to go, then I will respect your decision.

Well, I think that's all for now. Talk to you all later.


7 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 16 December :: 11.57 pm
:: Mood: Pondering

The times, they are a changin'
Well, Tony and I are in Florida. The trip was long, tiring, but well worth it. But right now, we're on another vacation, on..vacation. We're on our way to Key West. Chad(uncle) just decided today that we should just lvea tonight and head to key west. We're staying in a hotel right now, its pretty nice. We're going there for two days then heading back to clearwater and doing much more then, this vacation is going to be the best. My uncle was talking to me and I feel that somethings might be changing. He said that he'll send me to school to be a bar tender because Jason and him are starting up a bar and all that. The only thing is.. I'll be moving here. I know that it kind of prevents any particular events from happening. I cant stop thinking about how much that would change my life. But then I was thinking about my future and it seems that if I take this on, I will never hurt for money, work, happiness, or new things. There are things that make me hesitate, one of them is my cousin, Mike. I really dont want to leave him, but I have a solution in the works. I plan to fly to Michigan once every two months to see everyone and all that. I know this is a pretty heavy change in my life, but I feel that I need this. Nothing is official, I'm thinking about this option right now. If I do it, it'll probably happen within the next month or so.

Anyway, while I'm here, I am going to be earning money, golfing, riding jetskies, fishing, touring the ocean in the new boat with the local dolphins, fuckin around in the Keys, and and filling in the gaps with as much as I can. I want to make this little vacation the best. Starting tomorrow, the rest of our adventure will be video taped on Chads camera. He's going to make dvd copies for us, so that's pretty cool.

I hope ya'll are enjoying your snowy weather, I'll enjoy the white sand beaches and nice weather here :D

Well, I'm sorry if this hurts anyone to read..I'm not out to hurt anyone, just trying to make a real difference in my life.



5 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 22 October :: 9.05 pm
:: Mood: unhappy

Well, the new apartment is nice. Dont really spend much time there but its still nice to have. Work is alright, tiring but meh, its money. The tattoo convention was fun. Dresden Dolls concert was fun. Things are alright lately, could be better. Someday we'll have it back....someday. Oh well, I cant complain.

Brothers in arms(earned in blood) has been taking up most of my time the past couple of days. good game, rent it, kill some nazi scum.

Anyway, i dont know why i bothered updating, pretty pointless, no one cares.


2 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 15 September :: 8.27 am
:: Music: Lynard Skynard - Swamp Music

For some reason, I can't learn from my mistakes. I keep doing the same stupid shit over and over. Anyway, things have been interesting lately..not exactly in a good way but i'm hoping that it all gets better. We've been having our ups and downs..and the downs..are pretty bad. But no matter what, i'll still love her more than anything in the world. When we are having a good time or day together, she's the best girlfriend any guy could have. I have hope that things will start to look up soon.

I'm looking for a new job now. I started looking into art careers, such as forensic artists. That would be sweet. I just want a job that pays well and will keep me happy, and I know that I can find one. I just need to look closer this time.

My hands are freezing, barely numb. I want to go back to bed, but I have to call my temp service guy around 9am.

One thing about me that has been changing lately that most of you dont know, is that I have been reading the bible and going to church regularly for the past 3 or 4 months. It's good for me. I need to be more open minded and have a better understanding of it all. I'm not all churchy now, I just need something to believe in instead of being stupid about it all.

Anyway, let's hope for a good day, week, maybe month!

I love you, Stacy.


9 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 7 September :: 6.54 pm
:: Mood: ok
:: Music: Skynyrd - Gimme 3 Steps

It's been a while, it's been a while... i don't really feel the need to post anymore, even with access to do so. but i figured once in a while wont hurt.

I'm living at Stacy's now. I move into my new apartment October 5th. It's 160sq.ft. bigger than the last apartment (700sq.ft.). The new one is pretty rad. it actually has a dining room. It'll be really nice to have a sweet apartment to MYSELF. I'm buying all new furniture and whatnot. I have this whole month to save money for everything. The apartment is on the E. Beltline and 5 mile. So Plainfield township. The drive to work now is costing me about $10 a day to drive there and back, about 60 miles, pretty shitty, yes?

I work at Electro Chemical Finishing now. I'm a copper plater, so i pretty much work with a bunch of hazardous chemicals all day. No one thought i would make it this long because i guess the past few guys before me quit before 3 weeks. One guy quit after 3 hours because he could'nt handle it. It's the heat that makes the job hard. I've been there about a month and a half now, so i'm doing good.

Well that's enough for now, later.



(I don't care if you told me not to) =P

5 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 29 August :: 4.37 pm

I love Stacy.

:: 2005 10 January :: 12.42 am
:: Mood: not too bad
:: Music: My Chemical Romance - I'm not ok (i promise)

hard days rock'n, better slip off my shoes.
today has been quite the long boring day. ive been sitting in this chair since i got up. was online for a little bit. otherwise havent been able to get on for about 9 1/2 hours...-.-.

i want to sell my laptop, its not a wonderful computer. but it has a disc and floppy drive. it runs fine, nothing wrong with it. its not like brand new, but i just never use it. so if you or anyone you know is interested, let me know. as for my car, i guess im either going to sell parts off or just the whole car. ill need help finding buyers for parts, hopefully stacys dad will help me with that. but yeah, i need to do everything i can to get enough money for a new car. plus ill need money for rent for a while and other shit.

have fun taters, goodnight.


2 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 8 January :: 10.59 pm

Well, I'm selling my car.

3 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 7 January :: 1.26 pm

FUCK! forget what i said about my fucking car. its fucked, im fucked. the car is dead. i dont have the fucking money to fix it..i dont have the knowledge to know what the fuck is wrong with it. i dont know what im going to do. im in desperate need.

6 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 7 January :: 11.51 am
:: Mood: Perdy good
:: Music: Elvis Presley - Money Honey

Lord, it won't be long
Well, things are looking up. Got some new furnature today. A new recliner and couch. Nates' mom dropped them off. I cleaned up and re-arranged the apartment. I finally get to be with my baaby today. I've been looking forward to today, lots. Get some people together and hang out. It shall be fun. But yeah, my car problem has been resolved, thanks to Chris and Nate. I guess I ran it completely dry of oil. But, I put some in it, and now everything is fine, so that makes me happy. Anyway, I'm happy, things are good, life's better. Later kids.


Star struck

:: 2005 6 January :: 2.08 am

God, I love you so much. Can't stop thinking about you, Angel.


3 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 3 January :: 12.30 am
:: Mood: Homely
:: Music: Mellow sounds of "fuck" from Scarface

I figured you will understand
Man, i didnt think there would be so many offers for me. i guess i have more friends than i thought. today Stacys G-Unit (grandma) brought me lots of grocries that she bought. im very proud to have a girlfriend that would do so much for me. she helped me with my money problem dealing with my car. now, she's replenishing me with everything she can. we have a microwave, dishes, and food now because of her. i love her very much. things are already starting to look up. and about my money...i dont know who did it, but, whoever did, i want nothing to do with him/her. the money's gone and there's nothing i can do about it.

Well im just sitting around here watching scarface. heh, i got my own little chair here with my necessities on my little night stand. i have my own room with a bed (also from G-Unit). i picked up some stuff from my old house. things are lookinng good around here. well, i thank you all for the help. i appreciate it all. goodbye kids.


4 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 2 January :: 1.46 pm

well, this apartment is about completely bare. tom and his assfuck family took everything..even the paper plates nate bought. its sad, we have a camping chair and a shitty recliner for furnature. everything is on the floor because we have no end tables or anything. stacy is going to help me out with house things. at least someone's willing. we have 3 cups 2 spoons, no plates or bowls..almost nothing. but yeah, this apartment is going to be a memory soon. me and nate have plans. if you want to be part of them, talk to me. but anyway, this is just the start to something great. minus some fuck STEALING a hundred bucks out of my fucking wallet. that still pisses me off. and i know it was one of my "friends" too. it disappeared at the new years party. its good to know i have friends who care. im almost ready to confront each of them. i dont know who took it. i just want it back. give it back and it wont be as bad. but if i find out whoever took it and didnt say shit to me...its fucking on. i really expect more from my friends. fuck it, ill find out. fess up now, before its too late.

12 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 2 January :: 1.00 am
:: Mood: very fucking pissed

i will fucking kill you
Some mother fucker had the fucking get into my fucking wallet and take a hundred fucking dollars out of it. now im completely fucking broke. tell me who the fuck did it, i will strangle the fuck out of them until they fucking die.

8 Lover's | Star struck

:: 2005 1 January :: 1.28 pm


2 Lover's | Star struck | Random Journal