You Can't Just Decide That I'm Drunk, You The Drunk One!
So life has changed...

Things have been going so well.

I haven't lived at my parents house since January. It's been fun. I've been living with my friend Crystal out in Byron Center that was until last weekend. We recently had to move out due to the selling of the house that we were at. So now I live in a 5 bedroom house out in Wyoming with 4 other fabulous people including Crystal and her man, Myne Whetzel, and my new hunk of man and two 5 week old Great Dane puppies.

Next week Myne Whetzel and I will be traveling to see the wonderful Death Cab For Cutie in Chicago! Talk about pure bliss! I'm super excited! Jealous? Well you should be.

I stopped working at howies, not by my own free will. I really didn't have a choice. What can I say I love the free food and my hungry howies people (well most of them).

Life is good...

So it's been awhile...
Woohu is just boring to me now. No body ever up dates, except for Jessa.

But besides that, if any of you crazy kids are wondering what happened to me, I got a new job at Kendall Electric. I'm a full time second shifter. I walk around a warehouse the size of a football field for 8 hours a day. It's fun. Everyone there is so nice. Not to mention the pounds are just falling off from the moving I have to do.

But I am still working at Hungry Howies on the weekend and that's only because I would starve to death if I didn't, and I still love everyone there... well almost everyone and it would pain me to leave the completely.

Other than that I've been visiting every now then with Baylee and Myne Whetzel at there place in Lansing.

I've been feeling really good lately. Things are becoming a lot less stressful because all my money problems are slowly disappearing and I am no longer barely scraping by.

That's pretty much it.

And Now We're Living In The Sky I Never Thought I'd Live so High. Just Like Heaven If It Didn't Look Like Hell.
So I think I got it.
I'm going to go to GRCC.
Brush up on all of the generals.
Take the ACT's.
Then, if they will accept me, MSU.
I don't know what I'm want to do yet so I think I'll take whatever intrests me and see where it goes.




If only I thought of this 3 years ago.

Kyle You Really Need To Get That Sand Out Of Your Vagina
The last few days have been hell.
Got caught speeding on Thursday. I was apparently going 78 down 18 Mile. He only wrote me up for 10 over. But it could have been worse seeing how my proof of insurance, plates, and registration were expired. I got away with a warning for all of those.

It all got better though.
So yesterday I was on delivery.
I had to go to Iverystone.
I got there and the sweetest kitten was sitting on their pourch.
So I sat and gave her some love before the people came to the door.
They barely opened the door because the kitten kept trying to go inside to get out of the cold rain.
The lady at the door just kept kicking at her.
Poor starving little thing.
I couldn't stand it.
So the lady told me that the cat wasn't hers and that if I wanted to I could take her with me.

...

I had to think about it.

...

For like 10 seconds.

...

The cat went on delivery with me for the rest of the night.
I didn't have the heart to leave her there.
I had to tell my Mom before I left for work today.
So some how I gathered the courage and after cursing at me she fell in love with the little kitty.
While I was at work tonight my family played with her the entire time I was gone.
I think my parents are coming to terms with the way I am.

I couldn't leave her there.

And my Mom is in love with her.

I doubt she's going anywhere.
Which isn't a bad thing.
I miss my Rosey cat.
I think this kitten will help a lot.

SHIT
It's alright to have a mental break down every now and then right?
I'm sorry to the few that had to witness it.



I think I need professional help or maybe a friend or two that could hand out some advice.

I'll Sell You Neat Ideas Without Big Words And A Little Bit Of Cleavage To Wash It All Down
Ahhh Cedar Springs at it's finest.
So last night I take an order for delivery to the trailer park. I get there and this girl is on crack or something. So I give her the pizzas.

girls- hold on let me go get my mom.

Assuming the mom was paying. I stood there for a minute or two. Nobody came back so I start pounding on the door. Nobody comes. Finally after about 15 minutes someone answers.

residients- We didn't order any pizza.
myself- Well someone did. I just handed them off to a girl at this door and she hasn't paid for it.

So they disappear for a minute. Turns out that they were searching the house and the fucking girl jump out a window with a bunch of her crackhead friends.

Ok how stupid do you have to be to place an order under your real name and address and then take off with a pizza that you didn't pay for. the cops are going to find you.

Dumb Bitch.

We could have been out of that store at quarter after 11 (instead of 12:25) if it weren't for her. So Jenny and I are pressing charges.

Damn lizard escaped some time between Monday afternoon and last night. Tore my room appart. I spent hours look for the bastard and he had to be in the hardest place to get to. Either way he's back in his cage and thank god he didn't get out of my room because I doubt I would ever see him again. Not just because he's ran off but because my mom or dad found him. I can only hear it now.

So things have been pretty up and down lately.
I have my good day and bad.
The past two weeks have just been absolutly ungly.

I don't want to go to L.A. any more. So I'm staying. For now so is Ryan.

As for another delema.
Things are never going to be the same. I'm hurt. Betrayed would also sum it up. Like I said I'll have my good days where I can act like it never happen and some days I'm just going to down right hate you and just want you to feel the emptiness and pain I do. Today is one of those days. I'll never feel welcome down there. You say it's ok but in the end it's not. I'll always be doing something wrong. You are really judgmental with that sort of stuff. It's not as easy as you say it is. You've taken something important from me and for the time being, which could last for hours, days, maybe weeks, I hope karma comes back and bites you in the ass.
But I know she's not mine any more. There now you don't have to throw it back in my face. I already did it for you.
I just need time. I'm just venting. So in the end I hope you don't take this to heart too much. I'm just acting out of anger but it's something that I need to get off my chest.

I'm just not a happy person in general.
Today I just feel like crawling in a hole where nobody could find me. A way to escape the emotions.

I need to finish cleaning up.
I hate my room.
There's just not enough of it.

It's been a couple of months but I'm still here.
Just nothing exciting has happened.

I'm at MSU right now though. Hanging out with Baylee.
She's at an exam right now and there's nothing on T.V.
But I have the computer and I brought Renton along so he's keeping me company.

By staying out here I've come to realize what I've missed out on. It makes me sad because I've really enjoyed it here. I just wish I could be apart of it.
Maybe someday I'll get to do it.

But yeah. Not a whole lot going on.

Still going to Callie as far as I know (July). We don't really talk about it. Except for the negitive stuff. It seems like he never says anything about it and if he does it's always negitive or a back step. So I've just stopped asking. I guess he'll let me in on it when he wants too.

I don't know.
I'll be back later... Maybe

Heidi Quit Touching Yourself and Make Pizza
God I'm so bord with woohu.

There is no one left. Lindsey maybe but where's the fun if she already tells me stuff before I read it.

Jessa's getting internet soon so she'll be back. I can't wait to go see her and baby. It's been over a month since I last did.

Nothing's new.

Oh I did put my pay check through our paper shredder. So I now owe my mom lots of money.

Still working at Pizza Hell. But it hasn't been so much of a hell lately and it only going to get better because Mandrew is going on vacation next week.

Still moving.
I don't know when and I don't know where exactly but it is for sure happening.
I can't wait to get away from this weather. It wouldn't be so back if it would just make up it's mind. Snow or rain not both.
I'm glade I didn't get a season past to cannonsburg. What a waste that would have been.

Lots to do today.
Toodles!

Say Good Night and Go
I was reading through my past entries and realized that I am the same person I was when I started my journal. Still complaining about the same things in the same way. So I'm going to do something new. Foucus on the good things. I need to have a more positive attitude. I need to stop thinking about the what could happen and live whatever moments to the fullest because it doesn't matter. No matter how much I want to prepare myself for disappointment I always end up disappointed. It's just emotionally draining.

Things at work have been going well. I think I've rebuilt most of the bridges that I had burnt down this pass summer. What the hell was I thinking. Ever since I've made that effort everything has been going so well and on top of that work has become some what more enjoyable. Why do I have to be such a bitch.

I'm getting out with my friends as much as possible. The few I have left. At least I have some. I love my girlfriends.
There has been an absence, I miss my Jessa. I was able to see her this past weekend at Tim Brown's viewing but it's not like we were able to really let loose and be ourselves which sucked. It's like we couldn't even be happy to be together. It just felt so wrong with so many people around us with tears in there eyes. Ehh... we made the best of what we had.

As for plans of moving (In the famouse words of Phantom planet-Californiaaaaaa, Californiaaaaaaaaaa here we coommmee). If all goes well, March is looking like the new month, which is awsome because I am going to be begging my mom for a season pass to cannonsburge for a christmas/birthday present. I need to get out and do something that requires me to phyiscally challenge myself. That's all I'll be getting but I know that I will put it to good use and with all this snow that's all I've been thinking about. I really missed snow boarding last year.

That's about it.

Glamorous Indie Rock and Roll
I love days like today.
You know, the rain and thunder.
It's very appropriate for my mood.

There is nothing better than curling up in a down comforter on the couch with a good movie for these sort of days. It gives me warm fuzzies inside.
Alast I shall not be able to enjoy such a luxury, for I have loads of stuff to do. Damn laundry, always having to be dirty. I wish it could just clean it's self.

I love fall. I think it's my favorite.

We Got Too Much Time To Kill Like Pigeons On My Windowsill
I got a phone call from my mom this morning.
She told me my cat was dead.
My best friend since the second grade is gone.
I will never be able to walk into the door and see her waiting for me.
I just don't understand what happen.
She was perfectly fine last night when I said good night to her.
It just feels empty here.