>*when i l0ok in the mirr0r i imagine a pretty gurl
`& i think that can*t b me
`til i 0pen my eyes 'nd see the real me

the girl w i t h the br0wn e y e s wh0 has makeup smeared 0n her face

fr0m wipin away the tears

a girl wh0s afraid 0f r e g r e t
a girl wh0*s c0nfused
wh0 can*t make up her mind,
why must i fight my insecurites
why can't i b happy*

I Gave up my world... but you stabbed me in the back...

I'm calm on the outside... but on the inside ive been screaming constantly

I write, not for the sake of glory, not for the sake of same, not for the sake of success, but for the sake of my soul.

<<<<YoU DoNt LiKe WhAt I wRiTe, ToUgH sHiT>>>> ">..I doNt streSs theSe lil qameZ bytchez play cuZ aLL deM hoEs be faKKe aNyWaYs...



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:: 2013 8 December :: 8.29 pm

I am watching a SVU episode on a college rape...

I almost feel it's what happened to me... The way that you are hounded after being raped.. It's unreal.. They make you out to be the bad guy...
Yeah. I lied about A LOT of things.. I was NOT a good person.. I was out drinking with John that night at the fraternity grab-a-date.. but I did NOT ask to get raped. I didn't do anything that would make him rape me.. He did it on his own..

The private investigators... everything... It was HORRIBLE! They called everyone and anyone.. They don't go to the people who know you well.. they go to the people that despise you.. They go to the people who hate your guts and called you a slut through high school. They go to the people whose boyfriends I've slept with, or lied about being pregnant to.

Some things I said, which I should have never said, were true.. back in high school.. I really did have to get part of my cervix removed from abnormal cells from hpv.. I had stage "0" of cervical cancer.. I just made it out to be worse than it actually was..

I really was pregnant once.. but I miscarried. I was NOT safe in high school.. not that I am any safer now with Tony..

Today is my 25th birthday and I still go back to this.. go back to thinking these things...

*Do You love me?*

:: 2013 8 July :: 9.26 pm

Well hello there! It is 2013. It's been four years...
Since then,
I have a bachelors in Special Education
Masters in Early Childhood Education
and an 18 month old, 19 months on the 12th!
I am a Kindergarten teacher.
That's all! I like to actually update on livejournal. go there.


*Do You love me?*

:: 2009 22 October :: 10.10 pm

Oh hi!
I'm a junior in college & In a sorority.
I looked back on my old drama. All I can say is, DAMN. I was immature. That's how you grow up. mine just happens to be on the internet. I've been posting in livejournal when I need to post. I've had to. Trust me.
I could NEVER forget my woohu that I paid $5 dollars for <3

*Do You love me?*

:: 2009 28 August :: 1.30 pm

Crazy huh. It's already 2009. I've had this journal over 6 years! Insane.
I just wanted to write in here for alittle bit. I'm in my third year of college already! It started Monday. I update a lot in livejournal just because I have tons of thoughts and not to be mean or anything, woohu, but you're oldschool. I still remember when I found you, long before livejournal even existed.
Pappy passed away this year, june 2nd. He was such a great grandpa. I wish I would have written about him a lot more than i have.. honestly I don't think have really at all.
I'll write later about my life. I have waay to much to do before the parentals and pup get here!

*Do You love me?*

:: 2008 14 June :: 4.18 pm
:: Mood: blah

wow. this is amazing. Last time i wrote was almost a year ago. Hard to believe i'm done with that first year of college I was so anxious for. My whole family actually moved to GA, I'm there right now. It's so gorgeous here. Tyler and I are still together. Over two years already. I had a very rough 1st semester at UF, i wrote a lot in my livejournal. sorry woohu. =[

I just thought I'd write. I miss ya journal =]

*Do You love me?*

:: 2007 29 June :: 12.34 pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: i should tell you

I'm updating my woohu!! I almost forgot the name! how could i do that? woohu used to be my life outlet.. my eeverything i think 4 years ago?

I'm 18, i graduated from the IB program at school. Tyler and I have been going out for 15 months on july 8! I'm attending the University of Florida in the fall. I'm excited :]

most of my friends are already in gainesville for summer, but i wanted to stay here and be with tyler.
I've been working at Shells Restaraunt for a year and half, i'm a server, and i love my job.

my life is finally normal. i love it. i just wish i had a little more god in my life. My little sister and i have the house to ourselves for the weekend because the parentals are in GA with amanda and jesse looking for a house :] I'm sure they'll get married.

That's my life in a nutshell. Me and Janna are once again friends. She and I went out to lunch at Ruby Tuesdays yesterday and then listened to our middle school band CD. Memories..

I just can't believe I'm on my own soon.. I've grown up. I went through and read a lot of past entries.. No wonder I lost a lot of friends, i was so depressing. I hope I'm never like that again.. I love my life. I love my family although sometimes i could kill them. I love my boyfriend, i really do. I think that's all for noww!

Love yooou! I'm glad to have you back!

*Do You love me?*

:: 2006 8 October :: 8.53 pm
:: Mood: blah

i dont know whats going on with my emotions anymore.. i just want to cry

i love tyler.
but i miss greg....

i really love tyler.. he means so much.. but i still think about greg..

*Do You love me?*

:: 2006 8 October :: 8.52 pm

i feel... blah

*Do You love me?*

:: 2006 1 March :: 9.27 pm
:: Mood: blah

god its been forever.
i need a friend.
i need an outlet.

i need someone. or something.

*Do You love me?*

:: 2005 29 September :: 6.33 pm
:: Music: photograph- nickelback

I miss you woohu. i wish i could go on you more.. i dont write about my life anymore. i read stuff i wrote a lonnng time ago. its crazy..

*Do You love me?*

:: 2005 13 August :: 6.41 pm

told you id write. been feeling blah. livejournal im sorry but has taken you over for soem reason. i dunno cause woohu is better?

*Do You love me?*

:: 2005 1 August :: 11.19 pm

well.. long time no update. this place has changed quite a bit. lots has been goign on. i stll love greg. but i thought id say something. :]. i have a car. got my belly button peirced. and school starts in 6 days. i <3 life. myspace is cool. and id ont know.. everything has its days. ill write more.

*Do You love me?*

:: 2005 23 April :: 8.25 pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: im moving on

so life has definatly been stupid lately. my parents treat me as if im grounded when im not. i havtn had my phone for 2 weeks. i feel miserable. school is once again really bad. it was better butnow it sucks. only 20 some more days left. i almost forgot about this journal. how could i forget about it? this was my lifeline once upon a time ago.. now i have the live journal one..

god diary have i missed you.
so much is going on in my life.. my parents hate me.. i just.. AHh! i just want to cry alot now.. alot just isnt going right..

me and greg are over agian.. i miss him extremely. i need him back in my life. you odnt understand how much i love him. i realyl love him. i know i said that about alot of guys.. its just its been 9 months with meand him and now its finally finaly over. i saw him at prom and he didnt even say hi to me. he looked at me and was all over this girl.. god .. i just anted to cry.. i dont know diary. when i get a chance im going to write in you more oftnen. i miss you.

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 18 November :: 3.56 pm
:: Music: i melt

so yeha... everythign fucking sucks.. i hate school i HATE IT!.. once agian i am the slut of the school..
having sex with justin..
giving head to spencer..
what more?
peopel are saying me and spencr did all this stuff. and they are saying all this stuff about justin..
why cant peopel get a life and fucking come to me first.
i fucking hate all the sophomores! they look at me soo crazy when i wore the juniors shirt, but fuck it! i fucking hate the c/o 07. all they are, are stupid bitches who cant mind their own fucking business. THEY WONDER WHY IWORE A JUNIORS SHIRT!!!!!!
me and audrey talked about alot after school because i almost started crying in her car.. i was just so.. blah.. out of it.. and i didn tcar.e.
ive just felt like shit.. i dont know what to do.. ive neglected to write in this journal. i dont know.. i kinda like it when people leave me comments but then i get the rude people who print it off and show the world... so i just odnt know..
life is just so crazy. you have no idea..
i just want to cry..
ive been wanting to cry..
i just dont get why life has to suck so bad..
i want god in my life more.
i want him.. i want to go to church but my mom never goes and my dads always working and i dont want to ask someone to take me..
maybe i can walk there.. its not like its far.. i need to walk anyway..
i guess..
i feel like crying os i think im going to in a littl ebit..
love alwyas

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 13 November :: 11.07 am

so yeah.. lifes been stupid...
i cant wait till the summer. ill get to see everyone at robbys graduation.. and alex's.. we have this weird relationship. id sooo do him.. its kinda strange because i barely see him.. i prolly see him twice a year? IF that.. i dunno
most of my life is being written in livejournal... sorry ive neglectied to write in here.. too many people know this address.. im thinking of taking off the password protecting but i dunno..
lifes so confusing right now.. schools so hard.. boys suck.. everything..
im going to take a shower
love u bunches

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 7 November :: 10.06 am

i think im pregnant

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 24 October :: 4.03 pm

justin and i did it..

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 15 October :: 9.08 am

homecomming... tomorro night.. i cant wait..
im going to have myperiod for it tho.. it sucks.. plus i have the biggest crush on chris g... maybe not a crush.. i just.. i dunno hes so sweet! i wish i hada chance.! lol
i couldnt sleep last night im so excited. otnight im working the concession stand.. but yeah the dogs trying to get in
love u

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 9 October :: 8.41 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: everytime

i changed the password... ineedyou... how cute! lol
anyway last night was such a blast... kind of..
ok this is what happened
went home with nicole after school and kelly went too! so we got back to her hosu eand chilled then went to wendys and barely ate but w/e.
so then we went to the football game like an hour early and i was sooo bored.... but hten collected $$ with nicole for conscience alliance.
watched the game, saw sooo many people i havnt seen for a while, met up with ryan richard and cody.((im going in their limo))
and talked with them...
andre silva came up to me and sat by me and was hitting on me like crazy haha he felt my legs... lol
the asshole was there and i made it apparent to him i was NOT happy. he touches girls all the time while he hasa gf... iw onder what he did when he was going out with me.. i honestly wonder..
after the game, richard me kelly ryan and cody piled into richards car and dropped cody off, then found dogs roaming the mcgregor area so we had to call their owners and waited.
so then, we pile

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 1 October :: 4.11 pm

well.. once again i get screwed over by guys because they don't return calls and when they do they want something... dew and i were gonna hang out tonight but i dont think thats happening. i got sick in school today and mr hassle let me fall asleep through a test. that was fun. i got a 75 on the ap euro test. eli got a 100! ahhh! lucky bastard. lol jk... that means i woulda passed the national test. but id ont think my essay was all that grand.
mk well i think im goign to go

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 29 September :: 2.51 pm
:: Mood: happy.. kind of...
:: Music: whiskey lullabye

Well school was ok... pretty boring.. i had a very easy test quiz thing in gemonetry.. found out i have an 89 in chemistry... failed a test in ap euro but so did everyone else haha the average grade was a 56! w00t w00t! thats like getting 1 more than half right! lol! its a 1:3 ration i think. i dunno im not good at the stuff.
Michael and i didnt even exchange glances except when i was talking to karl about my ap euro test and i said i bs it and michael said you must have to bs a lot, and i said, no you're good at that.
Him and Nicola are getting so close now... its starting to bother me.. i mean me and nicola are friends and i dont kno.. michael is just a bother in everything. im sorry if you guys are friends with him but.. he is the meanest creature ever!
I wrote billy a note todya. lol but he was sick so i couldnt give it to him! me and dew are gunna hang out on friday.. hopefully! i love him to death! hes muh buddy! lol.. hes all over my website lucky him. so is alexa... but kno what else has been bothering me?
ok, lets say her name is... katie. well, i try to be nice to katie and we used to be BESTFRIENDS... we had so many personal jokes about a guy and then stupid stuff we made up while we were outside and we continuted the tradition of "getting drunk"... then, after alot happens, i comment in her journal telling her stuff to make her happy and then she says.. "i dont like him anymore.." and blah blah.. when the joke was about him that she thougth funny.. then i hada pic of her and other girls on my website and she said."its good but could u take that pic off..." the website should be MY memories... but she was in a swimsuit so she flipped out.. its just everything i do anymore someone/ or she has something to say about it... its really starting to get to me along with everything else. my grades are slowly starting to suffer... thats a bad thing.. britts party is on saturday. im sleepin the tent with kelly and other people i think nelly and someone else. itll be fun! haha.. i think it fits 8? i dunno, i haftaget the details. i jsut need to get out i think.. homecoming si on the 16th and i think im going to go but im not sure.. the theme is a night in hollywood so i dont kno... my dress wouldnt be too dressy considering the theme.. but who know.. its more prommy... but so is alot of dresses...
well, i think im done here.. ill write later. gotta doc app. NOT fun..
Comment me if you want.

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 28 September :: 7.06 pm

things with me and greg i think are falling apart... i hope it doesnt stay that way...
i got a 104 on my oral..
me and dew are gunan chill at the movies on friday. ihavnt seen him in oh so long

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 20 September :: 3.25 pm
:: Music: so much for my happy ending

i feel so blahh

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 18 September :: 8.11 am
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: my happy ending

well hello! i just woke u p and its sooo early in the morning...
last night i went to the football game.28-26 baby! i took lyndsey with me. we had alot of fun! i called greg and told him to go... but he didnt call back.. i was upset.. he said he did.. but i guess it didn't go through? i dont kno, i just wanted to see him and iwas really close to his house and everything...i dont know.. god i want to just kiss him and make everything all better.
there was a peprally yesterday.. it was pretty lame. i was by pedro sean marie n matt. it was like.. i dunno, alot diff then being a freshman but also at the same time still lame! lol.. i honestly was such a bitch to michael yesterday.. i mean i feel bad but in the long run.. i dont. he hurt me worse than anyone has ever...so yeah i was just a bitch to him..
hes liek.. "why are you being so bitchy?"
and i said.. "because i hate you" and walked away.! thats sooo not me, but yah kno, when someone says you enjoy something terrible, he needs to die.
that was the highlight of my day when he said that haha!
know what i realized? i havnt gotten drunk in sooooooo long. im so proud of myself.
im going to TRY to be good but everytime i see greg, i just want to make him happy. i mean yeah we did it like 5 times but i always dont like having sex... its like.. i dont know, id rather just hang out. but imean its good tho...that we do it... i just wanna hang out more.. but whatever happens happens right?
ataulyl what i want is a kiss.. thats all i want right now.. is a kiss... a kiss to get me through a week of smiling... so i know hes there and hes not doing anything with anyone else. i know hes not. thank god i can trust him. lol...i like him alot.. maybe im just a stupid sophomore.. but i like him alot. he gives me butterflys. :]
okay now onto why it says my mood is scared.
i had a REALLY bad nightmare.. thtas also why im up so damn early lol.
ok.. i dont even know how it started, but i went on a walk and i was talking on my phone, but then i looked back and there was alot of cars all of a sudden by the entrance to my neighbor hood and a lil neighbor girl that looked like a lil girl from my church, was riding her plastic bike across bass rd. with all these cars all alone! so i got off the phone, ran and got her and brought her back to my hosue? my house why? i dont kno.. but anyway.. when iw as getting ready to take her home i said "i wish it could go fast".. and there was a blue car i recignizedbacking up into my driveway. of course i got freaked out because in the dream it was like 130 am! and then i froze with the lil baby and they popped the truck and it was supposed to be paul popping out but for some reason it was sean simmons and he was comming towards me and said .. "was that fast enough".. i was froze so i screamed and then he started to take me and somehow Casey from renaissance, his friend, came out of the car... and like then we started yelling. i was so scared. then one of them through something and it ended up looking like blood spilled by the front door. my mom opened the door and i ran in and i forgot my dog and the baby and her dog i guess lol and then my mom opened the door back up and all 3 ran inside. i went back out and yelled "how the hell could you do that infront of a baby!" then i leaned up against the house and startd crying... and i woke up crying...
that was my weird night. i had 9 phn calls i missed an dmy phn wa son loud and i was in such a deep sleep it was crazzzy.
well i think im done rambling!

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 15 September :: 3.57 pm
:: Mood: dumb..
:: Music: so much for my happy ending

Well school is once again in session after ANOTHER hurricane.. i feel so BLah right now..
michael was an asshole again... he decided to take my ticky tack and put it all over my pictures today over all the faces that were mine.. what an immature loser! me and katie talked for like over an hour today. it was nice... shes so sweet! daniel got a good catch! haha i think i got him in trouble today hto.. oh well! hell get over it.
i love this song
i really feel like i dont have a happy ending..
greg and i are arguing... i hate this.. but people told me he might.. i just hope its not true.. i still like the boy alot... and ahh! i feel like screaming.
i had straight as idont kno if i told you that or not. i think i did. i got like an average of like a 90 on all my projects.. in ap... i think im doing good.. i have a shit load more to do.
i dont know if i want to go to homecoming anymore. im just not syked as i was last year.. i just feel so bummed out. i have felt like this... whatever.. i only went last yr cause nick wallace convinced me to go and i actualyl had fun.. but i dont kno, this year it just seems so stupid for me to go..
the sad thing is i miss talkign to michael about some of the stuff going on with me.. i cant help but feel that.. i want to tell him what's going on.. but when i do he just makes me cry.
he said i dont deserve to be his friend.. he lies to me constantly. i know i know im setting myself up but damn.. what an ASSHOLE!...
i dont kno right now. i just got alot of my mind.. its prolly keeping up with hw and grades in ap euro.. that class is hard..
some people are making it with like a 99 right now.. i have a measly 92.. and itll prolly sink a lot lower due to the map test i flunked...
ill write later

*Do You love me?*

:: 2004 12 September :: 4.32 pm

001. What is your name: Lauren
002. Spell your name backwards: nerual
003. Date of birth: 12.08.88
004. Male or female: female
005. Astrological sign: saggitarious
006. Nicknames: Laur, Lorena, Laureen
007. Occupation: school
008. Height: 5'2 and 1/4
009. Weight: 101
010. Hair color: dk brown
011. Eye color: dk brown
012. What is your LJ name: playbunniee2093

013. What does your LJ name stand for: no idea
014. Pets: mindy
015. Piercings: ears
016. Tattoo's: no
017. Shoe size: 7
018. Righty or lefty: righty
019. Wearing: sweatshirt and living waters boxers
020. Hearing: "you'll think of me"- keith urban
021. Feeling: bored/sleepy
022. Eating/drinking: PASKETTIOS

Guys/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff

023. Have you ever been in love: i thought so
024. How many people have you said 'I love you' to: my family, friends, and one guy
025. How many people have you kissed: lol, i dont know
026. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex: BRITT!
027. How many people have you dated: 7
028. What do you look for in a girl: personalility mostly.They gotta have some looks. BAd i kno.
029. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: face, eyes
030. What type of guy/girl do you usually go for: white, sporty guy, at least somewhat cute
031. Do you have a crush right now: kinda
032. If so who is it: Greg!
033. Do you believe in love at first sight: no i don't. you cant love someone when you dont know them.
034. Do you remember your first love: yepp
035. Who is the first person you kissed: David
036. Do you believe in fate: no, i believe you can change it.
037. Do you believe in soul mates: i dunno
038. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours: i dunno

~Family Stuff~

039. How many siblings do you have: 3
040. What are your parents names: mom + dad
041. What are your siblings names: amanda and courtney
042. How many siblings does your mother have: 1
043. How many siblings does your father have: 5
044. Where are your parents from: dad- greensville pa, mom- monreoville pa
045. Is your family close: the smith side
046. Does your family get together for holidays: yeah
047. Do you have a drunk uncle: not sure
048. Any medical problems run through your family: dunno
049. Does someone in your family wear a toupee: nope
050. Do you have any nieces or nephews: 0
051. Are your parents divorced: nope
052. Do you have step parents: nope
053. Has your family ever disowned another member of your family: nope
054. Did some of your family come to America from another country: grandparents

Music Stuff

055. What song do you swear was written about you or your life: always- saliva
056. What's the most embarrasing cd you own: N*sync
057. What's the best cd you own: The youth gathering CD
058. What song do you absolutely hate: really rap songs
059. Do you sing in the shower: nope
060. What song reminds you of that special someone: you'll think of me... thats to my OLD special someone


061. Color: green/blue
062. Food: Chicken alfredo
063. Song: youll think of me
064. Show: That one on MTV
065. School subject: English
066. Band/singer/artist: Jessica Simpson
067. Outfit: My pink hollister skirt and a white shirt
068. Radio station: 103.9, 92.5
069. Movie: Final Destination 2
070. Pair of shoes: sandals
071. Cartoon: no idea
072. Actor: no idea
073. Actress: no idea
074. Potato chip: sour cream n onion
075. Drink: lemonade
076. Soda: cherry coke
078. Holiday: Christmas!
079. Perfume/cologne: Love
080. Pizza topping: pepperoni
081. Jello flavor: cherry/lime
082. Lunch meat: ham
083. Card Game: Egyptian
084. Video game: Zelda
085. Website: neopets lol
086. Book: diaries of teenagers, witch child
087. Computer game: alice
088. Number: 7
089. Cereal: apple jacks
090. Comedian: dont know, that black guy on whose line
091. Dessert: icecream cake
092. Disney character: tinkerbell
093. Clothing store: american eagle
094. Past time: dont kno
095. Teacher: Mrs Mondi
096. Childhood toy: Puppy
097. Carnival game/ride: Aero 360
098. Candy bar: butterfinger
099. Magazine: seventeen
100. Salad dressing: ranch
101. Thing to do on the weekend: just chill n sleep
102. Hot drink: hot chocolate
103. Season: winter
104. Sport to watch: football
105. Person to talk to online: billy, courtni, dew, alot of peopel actually, jeannie... it goes on

Have You Ever....

333. Been to a foreign country: nope
334. Broken a bone: nope
335. Swallowed a toothcap/filling: nope
336. Swear at a teacher: nope
337. Talked to an LJ member via e-mails or instant messages: uh yeah
338. Got in a fight: nope
339. Dated a teacher: lol
340. Laughed so hard you peed your pants: nope.. well wheni was lil
341. Thought about killing your enemy: nope
344. Told a little white lie: of course
345. Told a secret you swore not to tell: on accident
346. Stolen anything: nope
347. Misused a swear word and it sounded absolutely stupid: prolly
348. Been on TV: ya the newwws
349. Been on the radio: nope
350. Been in a mosh pit: lol a church one
351. Been to a concert: yepp! backstreet boys and some christian groups
352. Dated one of your best friends: yeppp
355. Broken the law: nope
356. Been to a rodeo: nope
357. Been on a talk show: nope
358. Been on a game show: nope
359. Been on an airplane: yupp
360. Got to ride on a firetruck: nope
361. Came close to dying: nope
362. Cheated on a bf/gf: yepp he cheated on me, so i kissed my friend to get him mad. lol
363. Gave someone a piggy back ride: yah
364. Terrorized a babysitter: nope
366. Had a dream that you're falling off a cliff: i dont htin so
368. Been so drunk you don't remember your name: lol yeah
370. Felt like you didn't belong: all the time
371. Felt like the 3rd wheel: yeah
372. Smoked: nope
373. Done drugs: nope
374. Been arrested: nope
375. Had your tonsils removed: nope
376. Gone to camp: GIRLSCOUT
377. Won a bet: i always seem to lose
378. Written a love letter: yeah i was obsesed
381. Kissed in the rain: nope, id start to laugh
382. Slow danced with someone you love: not yet

386. Asked a friend for relationship advice: yeah it didnt work
387. Had a friend steal your bf/gf: yeah, stuid bitch
388. Watched the sunset/rise with someone you love: my friends count dont they?
389. Gotten a speeding ticket: nope cant drive yet
390. Done jail time: nope
391. Had to wear a uniform to work: dont work
392. Won a trophy: softball baby!
393. Thrown up in public: yeahh
394. Bowled a perfect game: hell no i suck
395. Failed/got held back: nope
396. Got perfect attendance in grade school: kindergarden, i was the only one
397. Roasted pumpkin seeds:yes! they taste oh so good!

Childhood Stuff

401. Did you play with Barbies: i still got some
402. Did you own Treasure Trolls: yepp! make a wish on there tummies!
403. Did you watch Beverly Hills 90210: lol no
404. Did you play Simon Says: yah
405. Did you watch Fraggle Rock: huh?
406. Did you wet the bed: who didnt
407. Did you believe there were monsters in your closet or under your bed: under the bed id run!
408. Did you wear the underwear with the days of the week on them: barbie ws them
409. Were you shy: kinda
410. Were you spoiled: no
411. Were you abused: no
412. Did you go to the circus: once
413. Did you go to the zoo: mmhmmm! pittsburgh zoo all the time when i was lil
414. Were you in a car accident: no
415. Did you build snowmen: everyyear
416. Did you cry when you scraped your knee: ya
417. Were your older cousins mean to you: no
418. Did you think slinkies were cool: ya
419. Did you think the Ninja Turtles really lived in the sewer: duh!
420. Were you afraid of the dark: ya, still am
421. Did you have slumber parties: yep
422. Did you have New Kids On The Block sheets, curtains, sleeping bags, dolls and pajamas: no?
423. Did you tease your hair out like Tiffany:what ???
424. Did you believe in the Easter Bunny/Santa Claus/ and the Tooth Fairy: mmmhmmm!
432. What's the scariest movie you've ever seen: JAWS
433. What is the best movie you've seen in the theater or rented recently: final destination 2
434. What is the dumbest movie you've ever seen: blair witch
435. Do you drive: with my mommy n daddy
437. Do you think you're good looking:nope
438. Do others think you are good looking: select ppl do, just not the ones I want to
439. Would you ever sky dive: no im scared
440. Do you believe in Bigfoot: no, my momswears she saw him on rt 66 tho
441. How many rooms do you have in your house: 5
442. Are you afraid of roller coasters: hell no!
443. Do you believe in God: ya
444. Do you believe in Satan: ya
445. Do you believe there is a heaven: ya
446. Do you believe there is a hell: ya
447. Do you own a pooltable: nope
448. Do you have a pool: yup
449. Do you have a dishwasher in your kitchen: ya
450. Do you like chocolate: its ok..
451. Who is on your calender: ann getties babys

452. How many U.S. states have you been to: pennsylvania, ohio, maryland, virgina, west virgina, rhode island, georgia, north carolina, south carolinea, alabama, florida
453. Ever wished on a shooting star: yeah never came true
455. Do you carry any weapons on you: nope
456. What is your weakness: im emotional lol
458. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: outgoing, fun, unique
459. How many kids do you want to have: 3
462. What is your ideal way to die: for something that matters
463. How do you release stress: journal
464. Do you consider yourself a trendy person: no way
465. Are you an artisitic person: do stick people count?
466. Are you a realistic person?: i guess
467. Do you un-tie your shoes every time you take them off: no
468. Are you a strong person: nope
469. Are you a strong willed person: usually
470. Who is the last person to e-mail you: lyndsey
471. Who is the last person to IM you: jon
475. What do you believe is your best quality: being able to connect to lil peopel
477. Do you like to burn candles or incense: yeah
478. Do you do yoga: nope
479. Do you have your own credit card: nope
481. Do you have a check book: nope
482. Do you like your drivers license: my permits ok i hada hangover ;)
483. Do you tan easily: shit ya
484. What color is your hair naturally: dk brown
485. How many fillings do you have: 3
486. How many cavities did you have at your last dentist visit: 0
487. Worst feeling in the world:when everything seems to be going wrong
488. Best feeling in the world: seeing little poeple understand and beilieve in god
489. Is the glass half empty or half full: in the middle
490. Last thing you downloaded: a song
491. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life: lol
492. What do you think people think of you: i kno they call me a bitch and a slut...
493. Are you a likeable person: i try to be, but if u dont like me than fuck off
494. Do you need therapy: hmm no
497. If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge would they call it FED UP: maybe i would

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:: 2004 11 September :: 11.11 pm
:: Mood: perfect
:: Music: youll think of me

ooh i just had a nice night with greg! nothing could have gone wrong. we drove around for a while.. that was so pleasant, he had to go home early tho because he was grounded but i didnt mind. at least i got to see him. then we pulled into lakes park... lol no more is to be said, im just a happy camper. hes so sweet to me. i dont want anything to change.

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:: 2004 10 September :: 3.27 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: space

Well well, i havn't written in a couple days.
believe it or not im not failing AP euro. as of the intereims, i have all As, a 96 in Ap! YAY im exccited!
oh well, i hope i can keep them up. Hurrcane Ivan makes his way to florida on monday. they still arne't sure if we are going to have shcool. they arent sure of his projected path yet either but they are thinking it will hit south florida, meaning ft myersish! lol.. whatevr works i guess. im so incredibly tired. today was a long and yet fun day! i danced and i singed in spanish. i have a 95 in that class when i did really good on my oral because she didn't correct me at all.. whatever, i don't understand it. i hope seh did the right lauren's grade because if she didnt then im gonig ot cry because that's not fair.
Greg is grounded, im not sure if i told you that, i want to see him so bad. oh well.. maybe his parents willlet him off the hook for a night bfore everything gets destroyed in teh hurrcane. ill go to pittsburgh on sunday if it is def gunna hit. well, im done now. ill write later

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:: 2004 7 September :: 8.54 pm

michaels gunna have another fun day of audrey and alicia making his life hell! hah! tellin him about greg! ahh ! i gotta crush on him oh so badly! lol he knows that tho so yeah lol
that is where the hickey came form lol
Love always

ps= i think im failing ap euro!

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:: 2004 6 September :: 11.01 am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: shark attack

Im so sad for some resaon.. i just feel like crying.. no reason.. i feel like shit.. i dont want to go to school tomorrow.. i just dont want to do anything... i hate the color of my hair even tho its natural, i hate school, i just hate everythign right now.. i dnot feel like doing anything.. Ahh.. people suck and i dont even know why

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