you just can't seem to fake or force a smile, not even a little one.
i am wearing a bright blue shirt today.


sittin' 'round, no work today
try pacing to keep awake
layin' 'round,no school today
just drink until the clock has circled all the way


i think. i'm moving back to orlando, fer real. *shivers*

i cannot continue to sit here alone everyday. if i do anything at all, it's going to school or work and i dunno that's not really what i'd like to be living for.

after my BA in psychology i decided on an MBA now. i think it will have a lot more job opportunities with the same salary and i could do the same job as i could with the HR thinger.

i wanna call tim and talk to him about it, we've kinda always been in this boat they call college together. i'd be rooming with him in orlando, by the way. i know they say you shouldnt move in with your friend because 90% of the time it ends up bad, but we talked about it in social psych again this week in class and it's always because they didnt know each other very well, or as well as they thought they did. tim used to stay at my house for 9 weeks at a time and i know he's a messy fucking slob and you cant walk in his room and his bathroom gets disgusting and he's lazy and he cant cook shit and whatever else, so knowing all of this going into it, we should be fine. i know he's like that and i'm still willing, i mean, that's love right? <3 not saying i dont have some of the same issues either, lol.

you said,
"i'm done feeling like a skeleton
no more sleep walking dead"
you're gonna wake from this coma
you're gonna crawl from this bed you've made

im going to feel bad leaving lyndsey and lum here if i do end up moving though, more lyndsey than lum, he's going to play that game everyday whether i'm 30 minutes closer or not. i guess lyndsey has her own group of friends, but i dont think they're very good to her. i dunno, i've never really been there, so i can't talk.


try to find some source of light
try to name one thing you like
you used to have such a longer list
you never had to work for it

that being said, i've killed the last 2 hours on www.4chan.org in the random channel, /b/! woo... seriously though, check that out, especially you kayleigh.

i am so looking forward to my vacation i dont think anyone really understands how much.

i'm off saturday night and all day sunday and monday night again and i would fucking love if someone wanted to come do something with me or go somewhere or be productive or anything of the sort.

now it's so easy to second guess everything you do
'til all you want is to finish this half empty glass
til the ice all melts away
this feeling always seemed to pass
seems like it's every day
it seems like it's every night now


cem is going to a party tonight, i hope it goes well for him.
kayleigh moved today, i hope she's not sick anymore and it went well and they have tv and everything set up already (lol).
meagan got a tattoo i think and she's with her boyfriend i hope she's happy.
tim's girlfriend came to see him in orlando today, i hope she's not being poo to him.
i hope belen doesnt have trouble sleeping tonight.
i hope lyndsey gets laid tonight, twice (haha).
i hope dan doesnt have sex with the married girl again because he always feels like shit in the morning.
i hope lum levels on his gamey.


my eyes feel sad and my heart feels heavy.
im going to shower soon, do crunches, and lift weights.

you know what im not even making this friends only.

ok that's it for me.

This is the last post for a while ive been killing the intro page.

Joey

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