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:: 2006 18 March :: 1.23pm

at least i'm doing something for phillip. i can't sit around and be sad.

i miss him though.

ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 15 March :: 5.29pm

nothing feels right. i'm doing normal things. i'm hearing normal things.

but phillip is dead and gone. and he was only four. and he was so smart and funny and beautiful. i always thought when phillip grows up he's going to be so cute. no. i don't know what to do. i don't want to do depressing things. i don't want to cry. but everything is so shakey.

nothing else is even important today. i love the peepers more than ever.

ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 13 March :: 1.02pm
:: Music: jack's mannequin-the mixed tape

oh how i hate piano. do do do do do.

nevermind though. i've got bigger fish to fry.

i'm declaring my major monday the next.
i'm doing dsk, big brothers/big sisters and the walk for the homeless.
and i guess i'm going to be voulenteering at the hospital in endoscopy with my dad. and safe on campus when i get ahold of dorris dirks.

no job yet, but at least i'll have things to get into grad school. and i have a place to live. zimmerman: room G15. it's close to the SRC. and that's good for me.

surgury on april 11th. fun fun.

ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 10 March :: 12.04am

You are a

Social Liberal
(61% permissive)

and an...

Economic Liberal
(10% permissive)

You are best described as a:


Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid
Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 9 March :: 12.06am
:: Mood: aggravated

hmph....i hate having to get things off my chest...and i know what i have to do, i just don't want to do it. ugh...sometimes i can be such a baby. but my heart is my heart and God is in it and with me.

yay Jesus <3

3 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 6 March :: 10.25pm

i've done a good jorb todizzle.

i applied at walgreens, bed bath and beyond and hollister. and also i'm going to volonteer at the hospital.

yay yay ya yaya.

1 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 6 March :: 3.10pm

not unhappy. just disapointed.

1 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 26 February :: 1.21pm

i've gone completly off my gord.

but seriously? fucking sheets?

i feel like such a waste sometimes. and also a psycho. i don't know. i need to start voulunteering or something. or maybe declare my major. hmmpt.

i want to work this week. i fianally got Gabe and Adayja to start talking. And i got Paigen to do her tasks. uuuuggggggggg.

4 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 22 February :: 11.24am

i don't know why everyone has to be so ridiculous, but they are.

on monday i had this hispanic culture midterm and i knew it was going to be hard. but not so stupid. okay. so we talked a lot about cuba and this movie we watched and i read about two million things about
puerto rico
i love lucy
the mexican revolution
the treaty of guadalupe hidalgo
the spanish american war
the cuban revolution
the bay of pigs/cuban missile crisis
dominican republic
san salvador
hipanic television-english and spanish
hispanic politics
the rafters
the cuban adjustment act of 1966
the jones act
the foraker act

so i had to know all this stuff. i went to every class. i participated. i read the texts. did well on the pop quizzes. everything.

did we get a study guide?


did we talk about a movie that wasn't on the midterm instead of reviewing like she promised?


and you know what's on this seven question essay test?

what is a chicano?

an obscrure little detail that i vaugley remember talking about like the second day of class. and she goes on and on about how we talked about it so much and blah blah blah and its origins. and everyone's like no way, we didn't talk about it that much. even the people who knew what it was guessed.

i just don't understand how i could filter all that information when the test only had seven questions and i had no clue what they could be about.

7 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 14 February :: 6.04pm
:: Mood: loved

happy valentines day everyone! i know it's been forever since i've posted but i wanted to let you all know that i love you! muah muah muah!! kisses for everyone!!

5 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 12 February :: 5.28pm

I've been thinking. This weekend was really really great. I've got a cyst on my ovary, but that's okay.

But I'm realizing this. I hate drinking and drugs. It's all so stupid. And I'm not just saying that because I've never tried it. But I really do think it ruins things. When I'm drunk I get in trouble or I cry or I think I'm dying. When I'm sober and see drunk people I think, "what's the point?" And I'm always uncomfortable at parties where people are drinking. They scare me and it's boring. Everyone acts so stupid. Plus it's illegal and can get you into all kinds of trouble. People who are allowed to drink get used by people who are younger. Then there are the people who keep me up all night because it's Thirstly Thursday. I like sleeping. I don't like hearing your gangsta rap coming down the pipe at three in the morning while you sing along. I don't like finding girls passed out in front of their doors. I don't like people thinking I"m weird when I decide that tonight is not a good idea.

And I'm all for making weed legal, just so we can stop wasting time and money. The war on drugs seems like it's mostly bullshit. It could be regulated and people could actually make a profit without getting in trouble. But I know it's more complicated than that and also probably too late, but it would be a nice birthday present. As of now, it's screwing up my family, and it's the most horrible thing. Don't tell me that I'm wrong. I'm just so sick and tired. It's breaking my heart.

5 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 8 February :: 4.12pm

this morning had so much promise.

doughnuts, sausage and strawberries.
but my piano teacher is hella crazy and scary.

and also i have a sore throat, mr. aleman makes me really mad and so does sarra b. ug.

and i'm sick again. it's been two years.

2 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 6 February :: 9.03am

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers,
I'll be all right when my hands get warm.Ignoring the phone,
I'd rather say nothing. I'd rather you'd never heard my voice.
You're calling too late
too late to be gracious you do not warrant long goodbyes.

this kind of friendship is too good to let go. we just had a thin part and we're used to being so thick.

i love you.

8 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 28 January :: 2.14pm

ho hum pigs bum.

that was stupid. whatever.

it's bien though. muy bien.

2 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....


:: 2006 23 January :: 12.25pm

brokeback mountain. real downer. i couldn't sleep last night. i was that upset. i'm sill kind of in a funk about it.

i needs me peepers.

2 can't stop the B.M. | ok...i was in band....

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