the thought of giving up and moving on always scares me.
what if my original feelings were right?
what if she starts to like me?
what if
what if
what if..

therefore i hate moving on
and it takes me a long time.

i might get her something for Christmas
i really want to
but i don't know what
and i don't know what to say.
it has to be thought out
A LOT
it has to be perfect.

and i don't even think it's about getting her to like me anymore
i don't know what it's about.

it was love at first sight.