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:: 2009 19 December :: 3.34 pm

SERIOUSLY.
"Now it's time you invest in me
Cuz if not then it's best you leave."

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:: 2009 18 December :: 7.14 pm
:: Mood: Exasperated.

SO FUCKING DONE.
(Usher Usher Usher)
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 1:
I can't, get to work on time, can't believe the words to her I just said
But who the hell argue n fight like dogs at 6 in the morning?(in the mornin)
I know it's gonna' be some more shit tonight mm oooh
Our pastor's callin, tellin me I done went too far in
I'm seen around town and my friends can't recognize me,
'Cuz I took a chance on love(love), it's like(like), I'm dyin(ooh dyin)

Chrs:
For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world
'Cause you were my girl, girl, girl
I done damn near lost my mama, I done been through so much drama
I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you, I done gave up everything I had to
As hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say
I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Vrs 2:
I'm losin my mind, can't figure out who's wrong or right
I know it's you I love, but then I also know it's you I don't like
You claim you hate who I was, but that's the reason you here now
You think I don't know what's up, but sweetheart that's what ruined us
I ain't afraid to say I got needs
But the only time you here for me is when the bottles poppin' and everything is sweet
But I I'm tired of sleeping in the other room spending them long nights
Trying to figure out what in the hell in my heart I ain't do right. (Oooh for u)

For you I gave my heart and turned my back against the world(back against the world)
'Cause you were my girl, girl(girl), girl,
I done damn near lost my mama(mama), I done been through so much drama(drama)
I done turned into the man that I never thought I'd be.(never thought I would be)


I'm ready to sign them papers(papers), papers(paii), papers(paai ooh oh oh oh)
(I done took) all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you(know that I love u), I done gave up everything I had to
(Anything I had to) as hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say(I'm affraid I gotta say)
I'm ready to sign them papers(papers), papers(paii), papers(girl I took all I could take)
(I done took) all I can take but u leave me no options girl

Ohoh! OoOOooh! Oooooh yea! Papers
Ooh! OoOOooh! Ooh! Papers

Ready Ready Ready Ready
All my fellas up in here, if u had enough and you're ready to sign say
Ready Ready Ready Ready(I'm ready, yes I am)
All my ladies if u sick and tired, and you're, ready to sign, say
Ready Ready Ready Ready(ooh)
I can't keep livin this life, I'm gonna leave it for the last time I'm
Ready Ready Ready Ready

I done damn near lost my mama, I done been through so much drama
I done turned into the man I never thought I'd be.

I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl
I can't deny how much I love you, I done gave up everything I had to
As hard as it is I'm affraid I gotta say
I'm ready to sign them papers, papers, papers
I done took all I can take but u leave me no options girl

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:: 2009 9 December :: 1.03 pm

Pretty much exactly how i feel right now..
Ordinary People by John Legend

[Verse 1]

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

[Bridge]

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 2]

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
Then we head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

[Bridge]

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
As our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

[Verse 3]

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe another fight
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
We never know baby youuuu and I

[Chorus]

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Heyyy)
We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow (Take it slow oh oh ohh)
This time we'll take it slow

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:: 2009 7 August :: 6.54 pm
:: Mood: thinking..

This Time by John Legend
"This Time"

[Verse 1]
Ran into you yesterday
Memories rushed through my brain
it started to hit me
now you're not with me
I realized I made a mistake
I thought I needed some space
But I just let love go to waste
its so crystal clear now
that I need your here now
I gotta get you back today

[Chorus]
This time I want it all
This time I want it all
Showing you all the cards
giving you all my heart
This time I'll take the chance
This time I'll be your man
I can be all you need
This time its all in me.

[Verse 2]
I hit the bar everynight
Looking to score a good time
It's not like I planned it
I'm left empty handed
'Cause im still alone in my mind
Now what will it take to feel right
Can I come see you tonight?
Is there someone new now?
What can I do now?
Cause I need you back by my side.

[Chorus]
This time I want it all
This time I want it all
Showing you all the cards
giving you all my heart
This time I'll take the chance
This time I'll be your man
I can be all you need
This time its all in me.

[Bridge]
Last time I wasn't sure
This time I will give you more
I'm more mature
I'll show you
Last time I didn't know
I messed up and let you go
I need you
don't say no.


Lying alone in this room
All that is missing is you
pick up the phone
want you to come home

This time I want it all
This time I want it all
Showing you all the cards
giving you all my heart
This time I'll take the chance
This time I'll be your man
I can be all you need
This time its all in me.

Say what??


:: 2009 24 July :: 12.28 am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: itunes station

How I've Been Feeling Lately..
Baby you don't pay no mind
You act like you don't love me no more

Maybe you need space or some time
Your attitude is unpredictable
And I don't want to make you unhappy
If you're not happy then you're free to go on
'Cause I don't want you stayin' around
If I make you so miserable


If you don't want me then don't talk to me
(If you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Go ahead and free yourself
(Go ahead and free yourself ... yeah)
If you don't want me then don't talk to me
(If you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Go ahead to someone else
(Go ahead to someone else ... yeah)

repeat

Time Again and again I try, I try
(Baby don't you know I try, ohoh yeah)
But the love I had inside has died
(But the love I had inside)
Oh oh ... wooh ... wooh wooh...

Won't you be a man if it's over
And just admit that things ain't the same
Instead of making me think it's all good
Between us, which one's to blame?
I took a lot too much to handle
Until I can't take this game no more
This love thing is full of scandals
So you're welcome to walk

If you don't want me then don't talk to me
(If you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Oh go ahead and free yourself
(Go ahead and free yourself... yeah)
If you don't want me then don't talk to me
(If you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Baby go ahead to someone else
(Go ahead to someone else... yeah)

Repeat

Time Again and again I've tried
(Time and time again, I've tried it over and over and over)
But the love I had inside has died
Oh, baby, it's died, yeah .... yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
I had to take it there
I had to take it there
'Cause I'm tired
Ohhhhhhhh yeah!

If you don't want me then don't talk to me
(If you don't want me then don't talk to me)
Hey, go ahead and free yourself
(Go ahead and free yourself)
If you don't want me then don't talk to me
(If you don't want me then don't talk to me
Go ahead to someone else
(Go ahead to someone else)

You're playin' games

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:: 2009 18 January :: 7.39 pm
:: Music: Mrs. Officer - LIl Wayne

I'm thinking I'll make this a regular installment..
Things that i love:

VEGETABLE CANDY.. sounds strange? it's a label i've given vegetables that taste like pure sugar in your mouth! allthewhile being perfectly healthy vegetables! amazing. including but not limited to:

1. beets ... sounds gross in theory but have you ever had one? they're DELICIOUS! plus they're so pretty to look at all magenta-y

2. sweet potatoes ... the name says it all .. what is it with these roots that make them so yummy! ill take a baked sweet potato over a regular one any day.

3. corn! such a classic and probably the more conventional of the vegetable candies

I just realized something. My mom handed me a plate of beets 10 min ago and they were so delicious that i felt the need to blog about them... that's pretty serious. Now if that doesn't convince you to want to try one .. idk what will! All in all though i think it just serves to make me sound like a total loser. haha.



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:: 2008 23 December :: 8.30 pm
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: nothing

Where can I find me one of these??
I don't believe I've come across one of these and if I have, my apologies for not noticing you and only proving this guy's argument. Anyway, what I wouldn't give to have a nice guy in my life for a change. Nice is truly underrated. I'm tired of "training" guys to treat me how I deserve to be treated. Please, let me know when the mature, selfless, giving guys will start showing up in my life. Cuz I sure as hell can't wait.

Ode to the Nice Guys

This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl's every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they're at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don't end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.

This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn't worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you'd ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn't have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing "serious" between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: "oh, but we're just friends!" And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you're nice like that.

The nice guys don't often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don't seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can't. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as "oh, he's too nice to date" or "he would be a good boyfriend but he's not for me" or "he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn't possibly ask him out!" or the most frustrating of all: "no, it would ruin our friendship." Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can't figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I'm going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn't last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single.

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you're sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgment, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

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:: 2008 16 November :: 11.31 pm
:: Mood: happy

He will always have my heart wrapped around his little finger.. and I've come to the conclusion that there's nothing I can do to change that. =)

I love you.

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:: 2008 2 November :: 11.26 pm
:: Music: lil wayne

true.
"There's no such thing as a perfect soulmate. If you meet someone and you think they're perfect, you better run as fast as you can in the other direction. Cause your soulmate is the person who pushes your buttons, pisses you off on a regular basis, and makes you face your shit."

-Madonna


i watched nick and miri make a porno today lol .. and it reminded me of the difference between "fucking" and "making love". it was a sweet movie i recommend it.

night.

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:: 2008 19 October :: 1.03 pm
:: Mood: chill

Moving Mountains by Usher
It's like whatever I say, oh
i just can't get through to you oh,oh,oh,oh,ooh


Now, now she loved me, shawty I love her
Used to jump up in the maybach and roll out.
Used to care, she used to share
The love that she used to give me can't be found.
I lost my way, she said she'd stay
And lately I've been sleeping with a ghost
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us
And that was before the hurricane, came in and stopped us.
I told you to leave, but you lied to me
When you said that: "Baby, no worries I promise to get us back..."
I know sorries, just wouldn't do it,
Her Heart is obliterated, I'm trying to travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain, washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...Hey
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be oh oh ohhh

She, she don't touch me I don't touch her
We ain't really even ever say a word

I really wanna give her everything she deserves,
But the bad took away the good
She thinks that I'm full of it
Arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired.
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I'm trying.
You never believe when I say, and I never believe it when you say, I love you
And I shouldn't complain about it, I should take it like a man and walk up out it.
'Cause we will never be the same... oh

I've been standing in gas, and you have been the flame

Girl I know sorries, just wouldn't do it,
Her Heart is obliterated, I'm trying to get through
Gotta move this mountain...
It's like moving mountains...
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change

And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain, washes progress away
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...
Well baby why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be oh

this must be a slow death that im traveling on it feels so wrong im barely holding on see no matter what it takes i've gotta get it together (baby yea) and these hills that im traveling on she ain't showing me love im down of my love...

I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
My heart is obliterated, I'm trying travel through
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away
It's like moving a mountain...
It's like moving mountains...
Well baby why you just leave me,
Just leave me be
Just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be
Why you just leave me
Just leave me be ooh

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:: 2008 18 October :: 7.02 pm

"If you're having girl guy problems I feel bad for you son! i got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one!"

-Jay-z .. sort of. lol

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:: 2008 18 October :: 5.33 pm

I'M GOING TO PARIS NEXT SEMESTER!! WHOOOOOOO! :))))

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:: 2008 8 October :: 11.35 pm

She asked me what you looked like the other day in the car. I didn't say anything. I just opened my wallet and pulled out 2 pictures. The one we took in the photo booth and the one you took at FAA. She looked at me and said .. don't you think you should take those out of your wallet now? And all I could say was.. "No, I'm not ready." She understood, looked at the pictures, and mumbled something about how you weren't the kind of guy she pictured me being with. But you see that's precisely what I loved about us. Our love was unexpected. Unexpected by you and I, and unexpected by everyone around us. The moment I fell for your smile and that quirky sense of humor that you keep, not once did I ever think, wow this is it. This is going to be my first, real, break my heart into a million little pieces kind of love. But it was. It was a breeze that caressed my cheek, allowing me to sense it's initial presence and to be mesmerized by the way it felt. A breeze that carried me along, weightlessly, to a path I could never have mapped. And for every single breathtaking moment that that breeze enveloped, pushed, and handled me, I am forever grateful. But just as the wind picks up one day, it falls flat the next. And just like our love began, so shall our future remain: unpredictable, unexpected, and out of our control. I will always remember that feeling. And, I have made a promise to myself to only remember you in your brightest of moments. The moments where your smile was the most genuine. The moments where your eyes stared into mine with longing. The moments where I knew this was exactly where you wanted to be at that very instant. The moments where I knew you loved me. Wholeheartedly. Achingly. Tenderly. These are the moments that I will allow my mind to replay over and over again. I hope you are doing the same. Thank you for giving me a glimpse of the kind of love I want in my life, forever. A part of my heart will always be yours. And, in the future, if anything should happen where you need a friend, do not hesitate to reach me. I will always be here, regardless of any promise we ever made to cut off all ties. If you need me, I am here. I will not ask questions, I will simply be there to listen and to comfort and to try to understand your struggle. Please, if ever you feel like there is no one around that could possibly understand what you are going through, THINK OF ME. For, I shall be here waiting, a distanced friend who wonders how you are doing everyday. I like to think that I have the same in you. But to be completely honest, I am not quite sure. So, at this point, I am praying to the God whose existence I constantly question, that nothing terrible comes my way. Because without you here with me, I don't have a clue who I can turn to.

I love you. Be safe. Be strong. And, know that I am always here if ever you should need me.

-T

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:: 2008 8 October :: 10.38 pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: planes flying overhead

postsecret quotes
I recently bought 2 of the postsecret books off ebay for 10 bucks each. Best purchase i've made in a really long time. Here are a couple of the confessions and quotes that really struck me:

* Black postcard with a cell phone in the middle.. in the screen of the phone it says "I miss you... I wish you would call.." and on the side of the postcard it says:

Everyday I type you little text messages. I tell you I love you. I miss you. Have a wonderful day. Please be careful.

But I don't send them. I know I'm not supposed to.

But I hope that somehow, you know..

* How I wish I could hug everyone and tell them that it's ok. It's ok to be scared and angry and hurt and selfish. It's part of being human."

* The things that make us feel so abnormal are actually the things that make us all the same.

* What hurts more than losing you... is knowing you're not fighting to keep me.

There's something about knowing that you are not alone that makes everything feel bearable. There's something about knowing everyone goes through this too.. that reminds you it too shall pass and that time is all this wound requires.

In the past month, I missed you more as my best friend, than I have ever missed you as my lover. I really hope you're doing well, and I mean that with all my heart. I know you feel a million times better and more relieved now that I am completely out of your life. And to be honest, I completely understand.

Tonight this blog will deliver you the words that I never had the courage to say.

Goodnight.

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:: 2008 29 September :: 11.45 pm
:: Mood: whatevs

hiiii
I was just selected to present my research project at a conference in Orlando .. nov. 5-8. McNair's paying for the whole thing which is awesome .. so i basically get a free trip home before christmas break.. it's kind of bittersweet. I'm super excited to go back to florida but i know being there is gonna make me so sad. I guess i'll just have to keep myself busy so that i don't have time to think about him.. ok well i'm off to bed now.. cuz i have an early dentist appointment tomorrow. goodnight everyone.

Tonight's song: say what you need to say by john mayer.

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