head's spinning

man you know when you have a crush on someone but your not sure what to do exactly? well i know what i would do NORMALLY but this girl is different, i dont want to push to much because i dont want her to freak out or something. we hung out the other night and it was fun but im not too sure how she felt about the whole thing. hmm im a dork i know, but do i care? fuck no! weekend come quick! saturday theres gonna be a big ass party in the cov and the whole bbc will be there so i can't wait.

BAM!

awkward
wow, so last night was my first day working my new job (right now i am at my other job), monday nights is when bowling is the cheapest and beers are only 1$ so it draws the attention of the younger crowd. anyway so im standing there last night and all of a sudden my ex walks in. it really freaked me out because its the first time that i have seen her since we broke up almost 6 months ago, and we were together for almost 4 years, so its not like is was some b.s. relationship. now obviously i still have some kind of feelings for her but that doesn't mean i am pining for her and wanting her back or anything. Anyway strange.

Coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss,
It was only a kiss.

Now I'm falling asleep,
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke,
And she's taking a drag

Then they go into bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head,
But she's touching his chest now

He takes off her dress now
Let me go
I just can't look,
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy - turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibi
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cos I'm Mr. Brightside

"Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don't stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don't stay

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I'm in disbelief, I didn't know
Somehow I need to be alone"

"The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me"

"I know I'll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us
But you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating
Up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall"

"It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone"

"I can't feel the way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal this damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored"

"I've
Become so numb
I can't feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I'm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
But I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you"

ahgvopaev

So Brian is gonna try and get me a job at the bowling alley. I'm undecided if I want to try and sell my car for cheaper because if I didn't have the car payment I am almost certain I could move out. Hmm...

Well last nights (kinda) date thingy was alright, but it was SUPER late and I SUPER tired (only had 3 hours of sleep night before, then we see a movie at 10 which goes until after 12). Otherwise it was nice to talk to her again.

I think of awhile ago
we might have had it all
I was so stupid then
you needed time to grow

But now just as things change
as well my feelings do
in time things rearrange
I am so sick of chasing you

But what do I get 'cause I just seem to lose
you make me regret those times I spent with you
and playing those games as I wait for your call
and now I give up, so goodbye and so long

It's not a change of pace
this time I'll get it right
it's not a change of taste
I was the one there last night

You have your other friends
they were there when you cried
didn't mean to hurt you then
best friends just won't leave your side

But what do I get 'cause I just seem to lose
you make me regret those times I spent with you
and playing those games as I wait for your call
and now I give up, so goodbye and so long

It's not a change of pace
this time I'll get it right
it's not a change of taste
I was the one there last night

When I needed you most
when I needed a friend
you let me down now
like I let you down then

So sorry, it's over

I love your skin
Oh so white
I love your touch
Cold as ice
And I love every single tear you cry
I just love the way you're losing your life

Oh, my Baby, how beautiful you are
Oh, my Darling, completely torn apart
You're gone with the sin my baby
And beautiful you are
So gone with the sin my darling

I adore the despair in your eyes
I worship your lips once red as wine
And I crave for your scent sending shivers down my spine
And I just love the way you're running out of life

Oh, my Baby, how beautiful you are
Oh, my Darling, completely torn apart
You're gone with the sin my baby
And beautiful you are
So gone with the sin my darling

Your turn:
Oh, my Baby, how beautiful you are
Oh, my Darling, completely torn apart
You're gone with the sin my baby
and beautiful you are
So gone with the sin my darling