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2008 17 April :: 1.47 am
It is impossible to love the wrong person.
Love, in any way it is felt, is never wrong.
It just hurts.
And it's addicting.
And I love you SO much.
If you only knew.
Subconsciously I know you know.
I'll just be a very, very good friend.
And you will never have to know where my mind has been...
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2008 15 April :: 8.04 am
Alright, so I know that I'm not ready to be in a "romantic" relationship. However, there is a rather large amount of proof that Jesus does not want me to be in a relationship, either.
There have been four men that I have been "romantically" interested in since I ended my long term relationship. Here is the reason they have all gone down the tube. Some have been at Cornerstone, some not... for obvious reasons as you will soon read below. Even if a relationship didn't seem probable in the begining to start with: Jesus made himself quite clear.
1. Not a Christian. Slightly Jewish. Mostly Buddist. Doesn't really know what he is.
2. Deffinately not a Christian. Hey, at least he knew that much.
3. Initially, I was not at all romantically interested in him, but he started persueing me. As soon as I began to enjoy this idea, he turned into Mr. Douche McBagPants because I wouldn't "give him what he wanted" if you get what I'm saying.
4. Hey's a gay.
...frick.
Alright Jesus.
I really, do, seriously get it.
4 held on |
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2008 15 April :: 3.03 am
I am buzzing right now..
I'm sick...
I'm twisted..
I'm human.
I want SO many things... I just want... why do we all want? And why are we all so alone even when we never could be? And why do we all read what we want even though the exact same words are written on the page?
I'm crawling and choking..
I want I want I want I want I need I need I need I want..
I'm ready.
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2008 11 April :: 6.23 pm
..Oh.
And last night I got a fake breast shoved in my mouth.
Just thought I'd mention that.
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2008 11 April :: 6.21 pm
You know, when you finally get the nerve up to actually say something...
...it really does make all the difference.
1 held on |
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2008 8 April :: 6.27 pm
My physical body needs to learn how to keep up with my spirit.
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2008 4 April :: 2.16 am
I'm just me, okay?
Why did I lie?
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2008 1 April :: 3.40 pm
I just wish I was brave enough to give you a hug.
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2008 31 March :: 12.33 pm
Is it really possible for a person to be bad for another person? Or is one just not strong enough in themselves to handle the vivacity of another?
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2008 27 March :: 4.22 pm
Oh hell.
I'm speechless around him.
I am never. ever. speechless.
And not because he says something incredibly witty or mind-boggling and I can't respond, but because he makes me forget to have something to say.
This could either lead to something amazing or nothing at all; which could actually be an incredible let down.
He scares me.
They both do.
All three of them.
I want to feel skin on skin. I want to hear it. I want to breathe in the recycled air.
And something... someone... is telling me I'm just not good enough.
...to Hell with them.
2 held on |
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2008 27 March :: 12.16 am
I wish I could help you back out of the world.
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2008 25 March :: 9.33 pm
"Fat people scare me."
-Cake
I fricken love you, Caleb.
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2008 25 March :: 3.20 pm
I feel as though I must have bragging rights.
I have re-written the biblical story of Joseph and then performed it with a fellow group of Cornerstonian actors.
They were practically beside themselves they thought it was so hystierical.
I am good at something, by golly....
"...do I smell a Grand Award?.."
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2008 19 March :: 12.17 am
I love seeing the good in people.
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2008 18 March :: 9.52 am
So many words mean so much just by themselves.
everything
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