This is more for myself and just wondering what the hell do I fucking say to this?
Joseph
I am ok with the way I was made.. But I know for a fact I am a lesbian in a mans body... god made me this way for a reason.. I am trying to figure out why, but I dunno yet.... It is tough for me though.. this is no joke britt.. it causes so much pain for me...
It sux ass
Joseph
but.. I do not feel like a male to be honest.. and I am attracted to women.. especially women who are not attracted to men..
life is a whirlwind right now. so many good things, and so many that i am freaking out about.
I just got back to WI and now I feel like I need to turn around and head right back to michigan.
f*ing pain.
somedays, when i see the wedding albums of all the people i know on facebook, i get sad. I am happy for the people... don't get me wrong, but i wish that i could have gotten those things.
no wedding cake
no pretty white dress
no pictures
Tell me why I had to be a Powerslave
I don't wanna die, I'm a God,
Why can't I live on?
When the Life Giver dies,
All around is laid waste,
And in my last hour,
I'm a Slave to the Power of Death.
sometimes I think my "friends" are just politely saying they don't want to see me in encrypted messages. I want a heart of stone. I hate feeling like this is all a lie.
If that's the truth tho, i guess i will never find out. My phone calls and attempts to do things can just be continuously evaded. Life goes on right, and nobody will ever truly understand how damaged i feel, how empty, or how alone.