i gotta tell you this
last nite ma parents were gone like usual until like befo i went to bed, so i was home alone. this was afta i replied to saras thing. ne way i turned on Gc's the young and the hopeless song and i put it way loud, i closed ma door. i lost it i could'nt take it ne more i felt like dying rite there sooooo bad i am so serious im not lyin, i screamed so loud, i am suprised the neighbors did not come over to see if i was okay, then i turned the music hiegher, and i grabbed my backpak and pulled out my books and threww them on the floor and i took out my old homework assignments and tore them up and threw them evverywhere, i pushed everything off my desk on the floor i grabbed my clothes from my closet and threw them all on the ground, once my room was completely tore up, i sat in the middle of my mountain of mess and i cried, and cried and screamed and yelled at God for fucking me up so badly. then i opened ma window and laid on my bed and passed out for a few min. cuz of the stress, once i woke up i cleaned up my mess put everything back, and to ma parents it was as if nothin eva happened. i am not tryin to make ya'll feel sorry for me, i just want to say that sumtimes i cant take tha pressure ne more and i say things i dont mean to. and well i dont mean to complain but i have a hard time at home okay, yesterday, when i to up ma room, i was thinking hard on suicide, cuz ma friends were not bein truthful, or bein tha way friends should be, or i was thinking about just hoppin o ma sk8 board and just goin wherever i could far away from ma house, but once i calmed down i realized it was not Gods fault or ne one elses, and i was scared that nite i was scared of killin maslef i wanted to die so bad, but i still had a will to live. sumtimes when i come to school i am holdin back sumthin that can neva be told, and it tears me up inside, i am not saying you guys dont have that problem, cuz if ya do you dont always tell me and that hurts you i am sure, so now i am telling you cuz i wanted ya'll ta no. well i gotta go to work so please call me ma fone is on. i really do love all of you reallly

hey
hi how r all of ya. i had kinda a sucky day to start ith, and it just ended worse. well i gotta talk to gell, Please sum one call me!!!!!!!!

hey
well hi i...i..dont even know what to say i feel so angry and so sad and so lonely, i cant help it. i have a 4h meetin tonite i have to come 45 min early! i am chair person for sumnthin. well ya bartsch is not up here yet but mrs j is so i gotta go TTYL call me on my cell!

hey
well hi i...i..dont even know what to say i feel so angry and so sad and so lonely, i cant help it. i have a 4h meetin tonite i have to come 45 min early! i am chair person for sumnthin. well ya bartsch is not up here yet but mrs j is so i gotta go TTYL call me on my cell!

hi
i really feel suicicdle today, i got a lot goin on and i feel like ihave nowone to tell it to. i feel sick and hurt and i cant explain it. scott is walkin ova here so i gotta get off, sorry i did not upload fo a while but my computer is broke and this is b's computer. well bye gotta go, i love the rain!!!!!!

OMFG!
i meen god i have been tryin to upload my thin scince valentines day!, well V day sucked my dad cant walk ruptered sunthin in his back, went to the movies with gell yesterday, and her bro and his two friends, and one of his friends kyle, was really mean. cuz we were at gels hoooouse for like two hours, and all he did was insult me! i felt pretty shitty! well and that nite when i got home i cried for like and hour, and i dont know why, i just hurt and i cried and i cried. oh and when we were at gells house i was looking up billy stuf and i listened to an interveiuwand ne way sum porn came up and the boys we lookin at that he he hehehe

OMFG!
i meen god i have been tryin to upload my thin scince valentines day!, well V day sucked my dad cant walk ruptered sunthin in his back, went to the movies with gell yesterday, and her bro and his two friends, and one of his friends kyle, was really mean. cuz we were at gels hoooouse for like two hours, and all he did was insult me! i felt pretty shitty! well and that nite when i got home i cried for like and hour, and i dont know why, i just hurt and i cried and i cried. oh and when we were at gells house i was looking up billy stuf and i listened to an interveiuwand ne way sum porn came up and the boys we lookin at that he he hehehe

OMFG!
i meen god i have been tryin to upload my thin scince valentines day!, well V day sucked my dad cant walk ruptered sunthin in his back, went to the movies with gell yesterday, and her bro and his two friends, and one of his friends kyle, was really mean. cuz we were at gels hoooouse for like two hours, and all he did was insult me! i felt pretty shitty! well and that nite when i got home i cried for like and hour, and i dont know why, i just hurt and i cried and i cried. oh and when we were at gells house i was looking up billy stuf and i listened to an interveiuwand ne way sum porn came up and the boys we lookin at that he he hehehe