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:: 2005 14 March :: 7.07 am


Happy "Pi" Day! (This is celebrated by some very deranged math teachers and nerds, in case you were wondering..)

Happy Steak and BJ Day! Of course, if you (the man) didn't do anything special for a girl on V-Day, then this day is null and void for you this year, anyway.

so I'm finally 18. It doesn't feel much different. Oh, I have the same rights as a thirty year old licensed driver in California. That's always a good thing. There's plenty of things I supposed I could do. but I won't.

One thing I learned? If you're ever going to post a "personal" (even if you're only seeking new FRIENDS), be brutally honest. I think nerds are hottttttt. I put out a request seeking nerdy or intelligent men. Nearly 90 responses. Without posting some cleavage baring photo, too.

I have some very amazing friends, even if I have a hard time appreciating all of them all of the time, especially the man who decided to classify himself as my "kinda boyfriend". um, no. :) I love you dearly, but I don't think so.

Today, I don't have to be at work 'til 8am. oh yeahhh.

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:: 2005 17 February :: 6.44 pm

originally, I left comments open to ALL 'cause that way people could comment on the journal even if they weren't woohu users. but I left it that way with the intention that they would all be respectful enough to leave their NAME.

so - the michigan comcast user who decided to say I am "ugly". do you really think your insult hurts me? did I ever post this pictures going "look at me, I'm hot"? No. So get over yourself and get some balls. leave your name in the future.

I am going out to CK Cafe tonight, with the wonderful Amy. I am going to find myself a hott boy. <3 kidding. A friend has decided we're going out tomorrow night, and I might hang out with Amy again on Saturday. We'll go out to see her friend's band play. :)

I really enjoy going to shows. That's what I've realized lately. I've never been to something really big, though. I need to buy tickets to the ONE TREE HILL TOUR for March 9th. I am going to go. But I need someone to go with me, someone who will hopefully drive. 'cause I don't want to drive to that part of LA, even if it is a Wednesday night. I know there's a dozen boys who'll go with me, but I want someone who can really appreciate The Wreckers, GAVIN DEGRAW, Tyler Hilton, & Bethany Joy Lenz, plus all the goodness that is One Tree Hill.


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:: 2005 15 February :: 8.35 am

It's 8:30 in the morning, and thanks to a day off of work - I'm still lying in bed, listening to BRIAN WILSON with a pup snuggled up next to me.

These photos are from Sunday. tra la?


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:: 2005 5 February :: 7.41 pm

does anyone want a gmail account? I have FIFTY freaking invites. oh yeah.

I went into a hair salon and asked how much they'd charge to cut my hair. My hair is almost 31" long. I just want a few inches cut off, nothing drastic. $20 and the women didn't even speak [edit:spanish]english. I'm used to $7 hair cuts. the mall is like $12 and they'll spend TWO HOURS cutting my hair, while complimenting me and whining the entire time in spanish. but still! It's almost half the price. I guess I have to go there, meh. at least I was happy with the way they cut my hair, as opposed to being unhappy last time I went to aforementioned salon.

Jason and I are through. I know, we were not in a relationship. but we're still through. it saddens me, and I'm the person who ended it. I made myself completely miserable because I was trying to be rational and logical. emotions aren't everything, though. :(

I'm thinking about really just having two dozen guys over the night of my birthday. feed everyone pizza and make them watch girly movies. yeah. [but then I have to deal with two dozen guys trying to hold me or hold my hand or whateverrr and they wouldn't be happy when other men wanted my attention too.] Or I could try to do dinner with friends at the Mariposa. I could go get a tattoo or go "clubbing" too. ha.

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:: 2005 15 January :: 7.26 am

yeah, okay. it's been a little while? like a week and a day. but I've been a little bit busy. two jobs, school, etc.

I'm going to start looking for a new job to replace my boy scout job. it's just too insane.

I love my puppy more than anything. <3 really.

the news makes me cry. it's awful. I'm wayyyyy overemotional.

livejournal is dead at the moment. and it sort of saddens me. It's not that I don't have other alternatives to lj - woohu is great. it's just that I lack the friend base that I have on livejournal, everywhere else. I have 77 friends on lj, and 75 of those people have me friended on their list. 9 other people have me friended on my main account. it's insane. I think there's only like 52 friends on my secondary account, which is good 'cause it doesn't usually get updated every day.

I went to lunch with a guy from school on Thursday. we went to the commons, ate at the buffet. Now he likes me and wants to take me out on a date. and I just needed to gush about that somewhere. Maybe I lean too heavily on lj. who knows.

Michelle Kwan is beautiful.

I have to continously mention it. but I'm looking so damned good lately.

oh, and my laptop is awesome. being able to play games with the stylus pen/ touch screen is way cool, too. <3333333

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:: 2005 7 January :: 9.03 pm
:: Music: Reba.

who I am is who I want to be
new look, finally!

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:: 2005 7 January :: 5.40 pm
:: Mood: tired

Nine weeks of spring quarter left. nine weeks until my eighteenth birthday.

the rain/wind/cold is extreme right now. It doesn't feel like California, yet we're hit with like three periods of storms every year. so this is only normal. but sigh.

this week, I've seen a lot of people I used to know. daniel setia, cassie, randy villaneuva, dunlap, ingrid, jonny. maybe not a lot, but enough to be significant. I've been social at lunch on both tuesday and thursday. it's crazy. on thursday, one of my teachers didn't show up. at fifteen minutes, we wrote our names on the board, fixed the desks, and all left. he's already informed us that next thursday we do not have class as he'll be in Hawaii. craziness. my second class on thursday - a lot of people have dropped 'cause the teacher is making it a habit to assign eight hours of homework per week.

today I purchased four different colored spiral notebooks - one for each class to keep notes in. it'll be interesting.

on tuesday night, I went out with some friends. didn't come home until four in the morning.

I'm losing weight, too. <3

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:: 2005 2 January :: 5.15 pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: I Love Lucy.

It's bound to be a long night.
Welcome to two thousand oh-five.

After much thought, I have five resolutions.

1. Spend more time with the people I care about.
2. Read one book every week.
3. Slim down.
4. Be more productive.
5. Send out more thank you cards.

I rang in the New Year with Jason and his roommate. We watched law and order, listened to music, and watched political commentaries/documentaries. It was quiet and lovely.

I have made plans with Amy on Tuesday night. We are going to Genghis Cohen to see her friend play. <3

Today I purchased a lateral thigh trainer in hopes of slimming down some. People report results in two weeks. but there's almost ten until my eighteenth birthday.

I go back to work tomorrow, as well as school. I'll be busy between 8am and 4:30pm. Meaning I'll be out of the house between seven thirty and five. the joys.

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:: 2004 31 December :: 10.58 am
:: Mood: my head hurts. :(

photos without a cut. woohoooooo.
I was going to post a photo entry. with a photo of my car, and Alaska, and recent photos of me, and etc.

but then I accidentally ended up going "back" on this webpage and lost what I'd done. so forget it - you lot are only going to see some of Alaska. <3


there's so many more photos that I have online, and ten times that number that aren't online.

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:: 2004 31 December :: 10.09 am

here are some thoughts as of late.

01. myspace is a terrible place full of terrible people.
02. 1up is an interesting sort of gamers paradise, but I'm unsure about it as of yet.
03. soap operas are beautiful. <3
04. the person you kiss at midnight tonight is supposed to be the person you spend the rest of the year with.
05. if you want to read some depressing and odd poetry, then venture on over to my secret livejournal and do just that.

I miss Brendan. and you probably have no clue who Brendan is, unless Andy's reading this. Scott and I got to talking about him last night, as we occasionally do.

four years ago, Scott and Brendan kept me up all freaking night 'cause they thought it was important for me to be awake when it was midnight on the west coast. I think we talked it up in a sW chatroom. last year, Jesse called me on New Year's Eve or Day. I'm not too sure, to be frank. but he called me and we remininsced. this year I'm going to call Scott at midnight his time to tell him happy freaking new year, even if I am hanging out with Jason then.

I kind of want to kiss Jason at midnight. I've never gotten into the tradition, and lord knows I'm afraid of what Jason and I could have. but still. if it ever stops raining, I'll venture the 31 miles to his apartment then meet his friends this evening. my sister will be ringing in the new year in Arizona. I would be there if Judy and Marshall had flown down from Anchorage yet. pooh on them. <3

this is all.

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:: 2004 27 December :: 11.38 am

gee, I don't even know what to say.

my father and brother bought themselves a .22 rifle for christmas. like whoa. that pissed me off enough to cause me to go out of town for the day. went up to ventura, did the family thing for the first time in 10+ years.

I got a 128mb mp3 player, two DVDs I bought myself, a bath set I bought myself, a usb optical mouse from my brother that cost all of $2, and a tiny hairdryer from my sister. oh and a tin of popcorn from my mom. yuck. I don't know. you can tell I'm not too happy? I asked for the larger three speed / three setting hair dryer. I got the two. now I need to take it back this week and get the bigger one. Sigh.

I know I'm trying to pretend that Zack doesn't exist, but I forgave him. I have too big of a heart and too many pure intentions to stay upset with someone. :\

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:: 2004 22 December :: 5.16 pm

it's not that I have nothing to say.

it's that certain things don't really need to be publicly announced.

'cause I trust the wrong people. at least I'm not a whore so I don't do things I could regret. I just believe in the good in people too strongly. and it doesn't pan out.

so I'm around. <3

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:: 2004 20 December :: 2.20 pm

oh man. it's been a long weekend. I'm sick, but psh I won't let it bring me down too much.

I went to the best hamburger joint on the planet on Saturday. Unfortunately, it was the location with the WORST service. I'm totally going to complain. I'm sorry. It's frustrating. it shouldn't take me fifteen minutes to get my food. that's unexcusable, especially when you're NOT busy. last time when it was busy, took me fifteen minutes to get my food and another fifteen minutes to get my shake. so my food was COLD by the time I got my shake and could leave. so I brought home cold food to the familia. ugh.

today I went to PC Club, and bought my sister a 512mb TINY usb jump drive. like whoa. $30 after rebate. I also bought my father a 16x DVD +/- RW dual layer drive, $55 about rebates. then went to the book store, where we bought my brother a HUGE but beautiful Army book, then to the mall to get him Army Monopoly.

the last thing on the christmas shopping list? an electric kettle for my grandmother. where am I going to find something like that?

and Wednesday is my day to go shopping for all the foodstuffs.

I want to have a journal dedicated to me being organized and stuff. <3 and cleaning. ha.

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:: 2004 17 December :: 5.19 pm

tired tired tired. <3

I'm so exhausted from work.

I think I turned a gay guy straight, today? it was weird.

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:: 2004 16 December :: 6.42 pm

okay. so I threw up gatorade, twice. ugh.

I'm wondering if I [A] picked up a stomach bug from the hundreds and hundreds of kids I've seen this week, [B] have some sort of a nervous thing where my stomach is upset 'cause I am upset, or [C] am not doing so well 'cause I hadn't eaten in 24+ hours, again.

I hate being sick. but work at 7am, so what's a girl to do? :\

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