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bleedingheart

:: 2005 3 December :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: incubus - pardon me

but i guess that it comes with the territory

honestly,
i sick of this shit.
it all makes me want to vomit sometimes.

**************

that i have had all i can take.
and exploding seems like,
a definite possibility to me.

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 8 November :: 5.08pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: the shins - kissing the lipless

the grey remains of a friendship scarred

so,imissyou.
but step outside and really look at yourself. there is more to life than being fucked up all the damn time. seriously. i dont know anymore. and how about you get over this little grudge you have against me. that would be wonderful. because honestly, i think you have done way more damage to me, than the little petty thing i did.
i still care. always will. but it makes me dissapointed to see you like this.
i'm done.

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blacktears844

:: 2005 24 October :: 11.13am

I made a new journal:

http://www.woohu.com/~crossmyheart

Pllllllease go add me on it, anyone can, and I'll add you back. =)

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 21 October :: 11.35pm
:: Mood: pensive
:: Music: days away - easier said than done

pick out your answer when you're gone

nothingtosay.

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blacktears844

:: 2005 21 October :: 5.10pm

Read more..
Oh yeah, and that last one is my boyfriend.
It's not a very good picture, but oh well.

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blacktears844

:: 2005 21 October :: 10.56am
:: Mood: hungry

Well I've dyed my hair once again. I'll post pictures when I get home, since I'm at school.
It's like a violet-dark brown-red. It's very odd, but I like it.
I was just sitting in the hair salon place yesterday, and I was like, "I'm bored. Let's dye my hair." So I did.
Only a half hour til lunch. Then I get my frickin' chicken sandwich!
My boo gets to come over tomorrow, and we shall watch Hocus Pocus and have a jolly old time.
I have absolutely nothing to write about, so I shall update this later. <3

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blacktears844

:: 2005 20 October :: 11.00am
:: Mood: bored

Whoa man, I haven't been here in 45489456 years.
I just found out I could still log into this thing. It's all like LOLUHAV2PAY now. =(

Does anyone still use theirs?
Anyways, I'm sitting in class right now, bored to death, and really really wanting a chicken sandwich. I still have a half hour til lunch, and it's driving me crazy.
Should I give an update?
Ok, umm...I have really red hair now. Not like the orangish crap I had before, now it's straight up red.
I got me a boyfriend, which I'm not sure if I put in here or not. But yesterday was our 8 month anniversary. Yeah, it's serious.
I really want a chicken sandwich. Like you didn't know that.
I think that's about all that's changed.

Well drop me a line, people, I wanna figure out who's still here.
I kinda missed this thing.

Love, Sarah.

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 2 October :: 7.29pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: life of agony - ugly

when the problem's yourself you start thinking

everytime he lashes out....
i'm haunted by the disaster for awhile.


i'm afraid you'll leave.


you didnt deserve it.
and i'm sorry.<3


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bleedingheart

:: 2005 24 September :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: diffrent

home on a saturday night
Wish0nAstar7: hey girl
silentxragdoll: hey girl
Wish0nAstar7: i think i just sang the abc's and twinkle twinkle like 30 times literally
silentxragdoll: since i stayed home tonight i got popsicles. so thats a plus. and i got tylenol p.m
Wish0nAstar7: lol
Wish0nAstar7: haha
silentxragdoll: so i'll be passed out in an hour
Wish0nAstar7: lol
silentxragdoll: at least i still got kelly on my saturday night
Wish0nAstar7: haha
Wish0nAstar7: so true
Wish0nAstar7: you lucky girl;-)
silentxragdoll: i know. i'm so thankful
silentxragdoll: so my popsicles have jokes. yeah they are corny... but can be entertaining
Wish0nAstar7: go for it
silentxragdoll: where is a good place to put your t.v?
silentxragdoll: in a remote area
silentxragdoll: i didnt like that one. ha
Wish0nAstar7: lol
silentxragdoll: i just got that joke 2 times in a row. lame
Wish0nAstar7: lol
silentxragdoll: so. i'm jaming to a song called 'gimme that pussy'.....
silentxragdoll: hott
Wish0nAstar7: hahah ssseeexxxyyy
silentxragdoll: you bet
silentxragdoll: theres a party in my pants and your invited!
Wish0nAstar7: omg
silentxragdoll: ha
Wish0nAstar7: no way !!!!
Wish0nAstar7: fuck, im so excited now
silentxragdoll: you better be girl. its the best damn party you'll ever go to in your life
Wish0nAstar7: duhh
Wish0nAstar7: i figured that one out
Wish0nAstar7: im just excited to get there
silentxragdoll: no girl you get v.i.p
Wish0nAstar7: i better
Wish0nAstar7: no sloppy seconds for this one
silentxragdoll: fresh and pure right hurr
Wish0nAstar7: yesss!
silentxragdoll: what do pigs put into there computers?..sloppy dics
silentxragdoll: lame
silentxragdoll: next
Wish0nAstar7: HAHA
Wish0nAstar7: that was funny
silentxragdoll: glad i can entertain u
silentxragdoll: this one it better.
Wish0nAstar7: yesss score
silentxragdoll: what did that girl melon say to the boy melon?
silentxragdoll: we're to young we cantaloupe
silentxragdoll: hah i like it
Wish0nAstar7: hahha
Wish0nAstar7: thats a good one
Wish0nAstar7: did u mean *were to young to cantaloupe
silentxragdoll: nope
silentxragdoll: thats what i thought to when i read it
Wish0nAstar7: lol
Wish0nAstar7: they sound like some ghetto ass melon
Wish0nAstar7: we cantelouple bitches
silentxragdoll: ahahaha
Wish0nAstar7: thats what there saying
silentxragdoll: i love you kelly
Wish0nAstar7: lol
Wish0nAstar7: i love you too

i love this girl<3

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 16 September :: 11.57pm
:: Mood: amused

and oliva said...

'sarah, you deserve to get laid.'

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 5 September :: 12.12am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: matchbook romance - if all else fails

no words to speak

<3

the end.

*************

your still my favorite.

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 7 August :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: rise against - life less frightening

face down in the dirt with your foot on my back
summer is over. back to school tomorrow. kinda nervous.
***
had some unforgettable times this summer. some were amazing, some werent the best
***
this year will be really diffrent, but intersting.
***

that seriously made my day.
***

our futures burn in red horizons
ashes scattered in winds of change
casualty numbers are rising
now it’s time to raise the stakes

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 5 August :: 1.48am
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: remy zero - fair

and all my words were bound to fail

actions.

a fucking mess.

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 27 July :: 11.26pm
:: Mood: shaky
:: Music: a wilhelm scream - brand new me, same shitty you

catch me. i'm a wreck who let my conscience down

what does this mean?

i really dont want to go through your shit again.
i dont know.

it's been breathing fucking heavy for a long fucking time now
and it's lost its fucking will to survive.
and what's so sick, so wrong that you don't want to believe
that such a massacre is capable of coming from me?
catch me if you can but don't fall for what you've found.
you don't feel sorrow, but I'm already there, because tonight I've taken nothing but insults
you ignore my resolve while my conscience clings to life.
but i stomped the heart out of it, hoping that it dies.

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bleedingheart

:: 2005 21 July :: 12.31pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: finch - grey matter

i've surrounded myself with all i have inside

i feel like that bubble with the rain cloud over him in the zoloft commercial.


can smile,
but can barely laugh.


its hard to feel okay anymore.


just worn out.

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