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2005 15 March :: 12.22 pm
:: Mood: envious
:: Music: johnny logic
why cant i just get someone that i am attracted to. to like me like i like them?
Nothing more : By Casey Volkers
THIS is just the beginning of a long un-traveled path
A path that I’m not sure my amateur mind can handle
A path that a match could begin, that then turns into a forest fire
A tornado that will feed off of others accomplishments and fade when its destruction has left many alone, and empty
THIS is not what I can begin
Loneliness for so long
Open heart, broken heart, open mind now closed
THIS is a path I know I’m not ready to emerge upon
How can what I want be so god damn hard to ask for?
How can I want something that I know is wrong to want?
THIS and this alone may ruin my inner ambition of love
Wrong time, right person? Right time…wrong person?
This might be too hard. Just friends…Stop! Just friends
Nothing more.
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2005 15 March :: 9.40 am
i dont know what to do. ...i dont know if telling him would jepordize our relationship. pretty sure he already knows i like him.
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2005 15 March :: 9.23 am
well im falling for someone...whom im supposed to be "just friends" with. how can you be just friends with someone you are attracted too so much? i can tell. hes almost an exact replica of weston, just so much better. god. He does all the music stuff. hes attractive. he is nice. we are friends. we dont do ANYTHING, accept hang out and cuddle. I FRICKEN JUST WISH THAT FOR ONCE WHEN I LIKE SOMEONE LIKE THIS IT WAS RECIPROCATED. i FEEL LIKE FUCKING SHIT! i FEEL LIKE A CRAVING LONELY GIRL WHO WILL NEVER GET WHAT I WANT. you know im starting to think i dont deserve anything that i want or work for. i am not good enough to get what i want EVER! whenever i think somehting is going good, it turns around full circle and becomes shitty.
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2005 11 March :: 11.56 am
i wrote a great poem about love lol. i wish i would have brought it to school so i could write it. i think im finally getting in touch with the i hate the word love phase. lol. ill write it on monday.
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2005 10 March :: 11.38 am
i just want to cuddle. cuddleing anyone?
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2005 8 March :: 11.40 am
well i just ate some damn good jerky. sleeping in is fun. work sucks. eating food is nice. i think i am going to get a beverage.
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2005 7 March :: 11.28 am
fuck you all you stupid bitches. suck my fucking big fat harry toe.
lol
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2005 3 March :: 11.27 am
well sick with the flu for five days...now im back. i feel really weak. hello.
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2005 24 February :: 11.33 am
this really sucks. i dont feel good at all. i think i am going to puke. figures....this must be luck when the guy you care about so much is comming home for two days and you are too sick to see him! god! figures.
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2005 23 February :: 11.33 am
:: Music: taking back sunday
CHAD COMMING HOME!
hey everyone. you will find a smile on my face until after saturday cause that is the last day ill see chad! im so happy i get to see him at all in about 28 hours!!ahhhh!i have no time to do anything. i have to work tonigt. i want to go shopping for the wedding on saturday, i have to clean, i want to get some cute outfits for him, but i have no time! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i cant wait util tomorrow!
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