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:: 2004 23 January :: 6.23 pm

I love my journal
Tonight Ari re-did my journal, it is amazing!!! Thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much babe

Parents are me..anyone!

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:: 2004 22 January :: 9.02 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

I know I have many issues wth my computer but now they are spreading to my AIM. I cannot, under any circumstances get it to work, not even Amy at her house can...I feel to alone form thw world without my AIM.

Anyways, this week is coming to and end and thank god it is. Yesterday I found out bad stuff, my uncle got fired, my mom's best guy gay friend's appendix burst and my grandma's best friend who is like my 3rd grandmother is pretty sick with her beast cancer.

I looked at the boys in tight pants community on and it is amazing! We need more boys in tight pants at ATL.

I'm getting sick of all these reality shows. They suck. I wish there were more fun shopping areas in Boca, like vintage clothing stores, there are the thrift shops, but they don't come close to anything great.

Tomorow in economics we have a debate ( woot woot - NOT ), anyways, I am kinda scared to go in front of the class, because I as afraid in english which is like 1/3 the size of he economics class.

Well, I am going to go try my AIM again or find more boys in tight pants...haha jk...I'm actually going to try to make my woohu really cool...I doubt it, but it's the thought that counts?!

Much <3 Love



:: 2004 21 January :: 9.28 pm

I finally got to the site, it has been down forerv, or I can't get to it, either one....

We were in computers today instead of economics, way

Soccer was nice, I caught up with Leah...DEF needed...who would have known she had a boyfriend? ( everyone but me, haha )

I think I need tutoring for spanish and i have thought about it and its all memorization, butI just can't get ahlod of it I am lost and feel stupid considering half the class is freshmen.

Anyways...not much is new, I need to go MADD shopping, but the day will never come when I can have guiltless shopping, *i wish*

No plans for this weekend, but i do long for them, wait i take that back i think im mallin ( haha like ballin) with natalianay! much love sweetie.

Much <3 Love


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:: 2004 19 January :: 5.37 pm life hasn;t been all to happeneing< i pretty much spent the weekend with with amy...much fun!

2 days ago I got my Birkenstock clogs <3 <3. Also went to flakowitz, yum yum



:: 2004 16 January :: 6.16 pm

This has been the longest week of my life!

Math test and econ test, many problems, I realized I should probably go to a psychiatrist. I looked for the eaaglettes on TRL, didn't see them.

On the bus today white trash kid sat in front of me, gaaah!

I am reading the best book ever!!! You must get Less than Zero! Thank you alex molina <3

Hope everyone has a happy martin luther king Jr weekend.

Feel free to call me if you would like to get together. 542-2078

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:: 2004 12 January :: 8.02 pm
:: Mood: accomplished

So today kinda's not anyone's fault excpet my own.
My family is being stupid. my brother....ahh...apparently I always look at him mean so he pretty much hates me.

My computer is messed up

maybe a hug would make me better..... *hug*

So I'm watching this show and its Reno 911 and its so stupid but I can't help watching it.

Yeah so I just wrote this massive thing and I'm not quite sure where it went cause it's not here. So it's off somewhere, but it's ok, cause I just ate ice cream.

This is such a weird entry, maybe I'm on drugs....that'd be nice.

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:: 2003 30 December :: 12.58 pm
:: Mood: hungry

I haven't updated in such a long time! Well to let everyone know, I'm back from the cruise, and it was pretty fun. I'm so grateful about living in Boca as opposed to some of those countries the cruise visited, such as Honduras and Panama. I finally know how the locks work - haha Amy . I read an amazing book, " She's Come Undone". Tomorrow is New Years Eve, I'm going to a party with some family friends.

I am totally free all of the cell or IM me to make plans if you want, cause my life is B-O-R-I-N-G!!

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:: 2003 18 December :: 8.13 am

Hello to all, this will be my last entry for a while because I am going on a cruise, thats right, a cruise.

This morning I woke up to my brother walking noisly around the hose, so when I go into the kitchen to see my dad he's like " Did you get mom or Brandon anything?" and I hadn't so said and he makes this mean face and is like but you had time to buy all your friends gifts? and now I feel liike shit, so CONGRATULATIONS dad, for ruining my morning!

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:: 2003 26 November :: 9.13 pm

Today was my typical "weekend day" I went to the mall with Amy and didn't buy anything. I went to the library as well, got 2 books. The perks of being a wallflower and some book by carl hiaasen, hopefully it is good, I've read all his adult books.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, and I am looking forward to the Macy's Day Paade. And as I think about it, it's kinda stupid, people look forward to soemthing where massive ballons shaped like cartoons are pulled down a big street in New York, but then again, I watch it,. I was also thinking that I can drive ( kind of) because I have my permit. It's rather strnge to think that in a year I will own a car. But I'm just babbling. Blah Blah Blah!

I am going to go read some more and eat ice cream ( YES!! gota love ice cream)

much <3 love



:: 2003 11 November :: 8.42 pm
:: Music: Paranoid Android - Radiohead

Not much is new in my life, although I got my pictures from homecoming week back, and to all, I LOVE them!! The people that dressed up made them work. I went to a super wal-mart to get them developed, it was like Atlantic, so haitian!

Today was very nice, I relaxed, went for tons of chinese food with my mother, and I talked to my Alex from Tallahassee, oh what a nice day.

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:: 2003 8 November :: 6.05 pm
:: Mood: suprisingly happy
:: Music: Hey Ya - yay my new mp3 player

Life's been pretty nice lately, between my birthday last wednesday and my new cell phone ( it's so pimp ). School is okay, last quarter suckde majorly, and i got a C, haha c for chemistry. Anyways, I haven't updated, and for those that ACTUALLY read my journal you must be dying.

Recently there has been an incident in our economics class, that even though I know it has passed, i want to address it and let people know they shouldn't assume it was a certain someone that told about the test.

But on a happier note, I got a new cool cell phone! :) yay! its nokia and it isn't a maraca!

Yesterday was the best football game ever! Atlantic/ Boca High! I went with Amy and Jessica and we definently had fun! Congratulations to the eaglettes! You rocked! THRILLER!

I'm going to go order sushi for dinenr, hehe, i love sushi, so goodbye to ya'll!!!

Much <3 Love



:: 2003 16 October :: 10.02 am
:: Music: none, typing of our econ class

sitting here with christina
i haven't written in a REALLY long, anfd this will be the only one for about a week cuz im grounded from the comp. hehe yay econ class

Eveything's been pretty good here, I miss my camp friends, wow im such a loser

This year is good so far, everyone's all happy and friends. yayness!

Homecoming week is soon, everyone's gonna look way cute with their mix/match and their time warp clothing.

I so wish i culd drive, cuz I'd skip this class and zoom zoom away from here

*I like the Way you move da da dah*

much <3 love


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:: 2003 27 September :: 9.11 pm
:: Music: Hey Ya by Outkast

I love 80's movies
Today is finally over. I went to temple and had my entire family over for dinner. I was the best jew ever today! Jessica gave met he belt she made me at temple today. It's awesome, polka dots and it ties! Oh man, gotta love it!

My family was ok, they were annoying though, like my aunt was on the computer adn was doing sometihing wrong, or it was goin slow, or something and she swas like this computer is a piece of shit, I ws like WTF it's my computer you should be grateful that we're letting you use it!

I heard last ngiht at City Place was fun, but I didn't miss much, I'm kinda happy about that, I wanetd to go bad. I was tralking to Danielle today and we were talking aobut incest, oh man we're the EXACT same when it comeds to that subject.

Tomorrow I think I'm gonna spend the day being kinda lonely. I don't really feel like being with anyone, just gonna do homework, go to the library, rent Monty Python, just hang out. Anyone's more than welcome to call me though, just to chat. Well I'm gonna go watch The Breakfast Club, what? I've watched it 5 times in the past week?

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:: 2003 23 September :: 4.30 pm
:: Music: Where is the love?

I wonder where the love is...
Today was pretty good, I mean, I don''t reallly remmber, amnesia?!!? In english we got our student ID's, lemme just say, Avi's is the best!! If you see it you'll know what I mean.

Anyways, eveything has been pretty good in my life, I mean I can't go to Cityplace with Valerie and all them Friday cuz I haveta go to temple, but oh well, we can go another time.

In english we got our credits, those paper thingys, I think im stupid cuz everyone around me had higher than me! Ms Landakeer was talkin about colleges, i think im gonna be a bum. I dont really have an interest in anything, DAMN MY LIFE

Weird..I thought this was gonnaa be a happy entry, but it went to bad.

I have BOFTY and Confirmation later tonight! YAY, i mean i guess it's fun, I get to see my husband (Jessica Urban). Well I think im gonna go start my massive amounts of homework!

Please comment, I dont care for what I just like comments, It makes me feel loved

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:: 2003 16 September :: 10.38 am

yay, im talking to him!!
Yah, so I'm at home right now. YEsterday when i got home from school i felt like major shit so i slept...until 8:30, then my mom woke me up and i ate a bagel and went back to sleep...until 5:30 this morning. At 5:30 I had a BAD stomach ache adn a fever, then went back to sleep.......until 10:00. so i wake up to find my brother sitting on the couhc watching TV and i was like what are you doing home? So he said "I'm sick" I hate him!!! I'm sick so he always gets away with staying home cuz Im here!!! DAMN HIM!! I really wanted to just relax, no family, do the whole "risky business" thing but he ahd to be "sick"

Anyways, i have kinda been depressed lately. I just randomly get depresed for a couple of days. I dunno. But I know i'll be better in a few days so its all good.

Im talking to him right now!! YAY! ANyways call me, anyone, when you get home from school. I might be leepin though.


:: 2003 6 September :: 10.22 am
:: Music: Im watchin recess...yay acing like a 10 year old again!!!

I rock my socks..and yours too
I haven't updated this thing in forever! Last night was the game, and we won!! YAY, go ATL! I saw Neil, Melissa, Ashley Passion, it was fun. I hung out weith Amy, Jessica, Ashley Cline, Christina, Brianna and Danielle. We saw Liz being an eaglette. I'm so proud of myself. I talked to him and yeah, we talked, Ashley and CHristina approve, Amy does. YAY!!

I've started my homewrok for this weekend. Tonight we are going out to dinner with my grandparents for my grandpa's birthday. I woke pretty early today and feel refreshed and just in a good mood, I SOOO can't get a smile off of my face. :)

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:: 2003 28 August :: 7.25 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Satellite ~ DMB

Today was a pretty good day actually, and by the time I got home I was in a good mood. In chem I understand it and that made me really happy. I just finished my martian thing for english and it blows still.

If only I could talk to a certain people ALL the time. Do you know the guys that you like, but your life would just be made if you could be friends with them? Well yeah. There are 2 people in particular, but who am I kidding, nothing will ever happen.

No one ever comments on mine. What if I were to write something crazy, like: I'm gonna kill myself, what would the comments look like? Would there be any? People never comments regularly, so why would they for an entry like that.

Tonight are the VMA's. Woo hoo!!! I have decided that I am an AIM addict, and a stalker, LOL Amy!!

Jeopardy is on, so BYE!!!

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:: 2003 21 August :: 8.24 pm
:: Music: No One Knows by Queens of the Stone Age

Butts Road
Hahaha. Butts road. How funny. I was sitting on the bus today and we passed it, and I was like "Whoa, that's hilarious"- Anyways. I haven't written in this in a long time! Crazy. I just got aim and am obsessed!!! It's great to talk to old friends.

School is pretty good. Classes are ok, minus photography. I hate lunch though. Don't really have friends in it on white days. So sad.

My cousin came over tonight. It was nice to see her. Not much else to say. Ciao!


:: 2003 12 July :: 10.01 am
:: Mood: i dunno
:: Music: Top 20 on VH1

I dunno how to feel right now

Yesterday I didn't do anything until my mom got home from her doctors appointments around 2:15 or so. We picked my brother up from camp and came home. Then my dad came home from work around 3:20. So my parents dropped me off at Katherines house and I was there until 8:45ish. We had fun...played with beads ~ I dropped my bracelet like 1000 times and we watched the Matrix, but forgot my cell phone and went back to get it. LOL. And in the car we were listening to this weird thing on NPR and this guy was singing a song about how he's a poet and is fond of banana's. I feel the same way.

Oh yeah. Yesterday my dad's uncle died. I dunno how I feel becuase I didn't really know him he just came over for holidays like thanksgiving. My dad and mom are at his wife's house getting crap for the funeral like clothes he's gonna wear and drivers liscense. His daughter lives up in NY and when he was dying she didn't come down or anything, but now that he did die she's like I'll come down, so she's coming down tonight when the funeral's tomorrow at around 2! BITCH!!

I am leaving for camp tomorow and can't attend the dude's funeral. I feel bad. But whatever. If anyone wants to write me comment.


:: 2003 7 July :: 9.15 am
:: Music: too early for music


I feel like BLAH!

My mom and brother are out and my dad is here. We had some guy come over to fix our blinds, like the ones to cover the windows. And around 10 minutes ago my dad came in and was like you need to get up. So here I am .

I am leaving for camp on Sunday and need to have all my crap packed by Wednesday because there is a busing thing that picks them up and buses them to camp. So stting here on Monday morning just wanting to sleep I still have to buy some stuff and pack my entire wardrobe!!!

I've also got a goal in life for myself. i want to learn how to scuba dive. I think that would be the most amazing thing in the world. Better than surfing. Only because you aren't only on top of water you are below water.

Well I am gonna go see what I can eat for breakfast. Bye!

Oh yeah I you wanna write to me at camp then comment with your email address and I will write you.

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:: 2003 30 June :: 10.40 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: I'm watching road rules so I guess the sound.

I hope Abram kicks Donnel's ass!

I am watching road rules...and think that Abram is very cute and don't like Donnel. So just now Abram got p'od and went off and started punching Donnel and I hope Donnel gets hurt. OMG, now the producer has to go through the videos and shit........WOW!!

Last night Amy slept over and we had fun. My mom's friend that came over, her husband was SOOOOOOOO weird. When I was clearing the table and I would get up he would push a dish of something towards Amy as if saying "Aren't you gonna do something?". About an hour after the left we watched some tv, played word whomp and the computer with my mom and brother.

Today Amy and I had eggs for breakfast and realized we really don't like them and discovered that the coldstone pie from last night had a crust. LOL.

We went to her house and Target and out for lunch at Chili's and now I am watching Ferris Bueller's Day Off for the umpteenth time. Wow ~ that is really a funny word. I think I have a thing for older guys. Like famous guys fom movies: John Cusack, Matthew Broderick and Nicholas Cage.

Road Rules is over and I truly hope that Abram doesn't get kicked off.

"He makes you look like an asshole is what he does" -Grace from Ferris Bueller's Day Off

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:: 2003 27 June :: 9.50 pm
:: Music: background to Conair

Save me from all the anxiety

Today we went out for lunch. A chinese/japanese buffet. It was really good. My brother and I barely fought on the way there, and that is truly a miracle. We stopped at a super gigantic wal-mart on the way back and I got essential crap for camp (razors, shaving cream, shampoo, conditioner).

After we got back from wal-mart I kinda vegged and now that I think about it I wonder what i did for the 3 hours before I went to my grandma's.

YAY! It's the best part in Conair, where they are landing on Vegas Strip and Steve Buscemi is singing "He's got the whole world in his hands". Now they are gonna crash in the hotel.

At my grandma's we were fishing (I looooove to fish) and my brother kept n telling me that I was bad. I was sooooo close to smacking him, luckly I didn't. But later on when we were waiting for my mom to grab all her crap she brought over to work on the computer my brother whcked me 4 times with his fucking crutches! DAMN HIM!!

Tomorrow my room will be complete! Thank god I like it because my family and I have been fighting and I spend a lot of time in there. I love the blue and yellow and the quilt. HAHA no more green and pink and flowers!!


:: 2003 27 June :: 10.50 am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Sweet Transvestite from RHPS , now it's Californication by Red Hot Chili Peppers

Ok, let me first off state that right now I HATE ( if I knew how to bold that would be bold ) phones, cells, whatever! I hate them, they disturb sleep and need to die. Ok...that's off my chest.

2 days ago Amy and I painted 2 walls of my room light blue.. I like them, then I was showering and she was waiting for her mom to pick her up, and when I got out Amy was like "Hurry up, your sleeping over" So I slept over and we had a lotta fun. We made s'mores, swam, jacuzzied, and made cookies at around 10:45 at night. Then in the morning I was gonna go camp shopping with them but my mom called and was like "Your room needs to be finished" so she picked me up and I went home and she got paint.

As of now my room only has 1 more wall to do. But the smell of this particular paint makes me sneeze so my dad is gonna do that when he gets back from the gym today. YAY! NEW ROOM!!

Last night I babysat for this girl i never had babysat for before and she was soooooooooo cute and easy. Maybe because I babysat for an ADHD kid before. But when I got there she ran out and was like "Babysitter" and gave me a hug. She's 4 and the cuttest thing and lives in the NICEST house! Like you walk in and there is a BIG chandelier and everything. SO nice......

Today I dunno what I am gonna do. Veg maybe. Or work on summer assignments. Blah. I wanna sleep. Even though I woke up 30 minutes ago. sleep......


:: 2003 25 June :: 10.13 am
:: Mood: feeling kinda bad
:: Music: Stupid Girl by Cold

I feel bad......

So yesterday after my bro's surgeon appointment thingy my mom called and was like he did something to his growth plate near his ankle so they can't really see. But he has a brace and has crutches. I feel really bad thinking he was lying. But he's been realy nice to me so far. Not like "Ohh, I'm cripple so you have to do everything for me!".

Today Amy is gonna come over ( I think ~ she hasn't called yet ) and we are gonna paint my room. We are gonna have sushi for lunch - YUM YUM!!! Only because my dad is going upto Tallahassee for today and tomorrow and my mom can't cook. LOL.

EWW. Now the music video is Madonna ~ I think she's getting a little old to do music videos. Her voice isn't bad but I don't like seeing a person the age of my mom acting and dressing like a 25 year old in music videos.


:: 2003 24 June :: 2.48 pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: I can't by Radiohead

Hope my bro's alright
Sitting here all lonely. I am waiting to find out whats wrong with my brother's foot and if he was faking it. He's in baseball camp and came home yesterday and couldn't put any pressure on is foot...and surprisingly kept the act up until now so I am beginning to think that he might actually be hurt. But if he isn't I am gonna yell at him for making me go get him crap all over the house.

The good thing is that when my parents get back from the sugeon guy's office one of them is taking me to Home Depot to get paint for my room because they match paint to whatever you show them perfectly. That'll be exciting. Tomorrow I am probably gonna start painting and Amy is most likely gonna help beacuse she thinks painting a room looks like fun. Hopefully it will be.

I am burning a cd and wanna do that long survey thing and put it on my journal but am WAY to lazy to do the whole thing at 1 time.

If anyone watches Real World Paris and Road Rules South Pacific comment if you don't mind writing me while I am at sleepaway camp to tell me what is going on. Thanks ya'll. Oh ~ so campy. LOL

Dream of Californication..............

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:: 2003 23 June :: 9.03 pm
:: Mood: better
:: Music: Can't Stop by Red Hot Chili Peppers

I wanna re-do my room
Toda was fun. Amy and I got together and had fun. We ran errands ~ went to Costco and DSW. I shoulda gotten the converse. I had enough money. but Amy and I are all better. No more fighting.

I got a new comforter, actually quilt. But I like it a lot. It's light blue and light yelow and light green. I want to paint 2 walls light yellow because I already have light green walls. But my mom said it won't look good. So I am gonna ask her if I can just paint 2 yellow and 2 blue. Hopefully she'll say yes.


:: 2003 23 June :: 10.46 am
:: Music: I wanna be sedated by the Ramones

This song describes my life.

It's amazing how much this song describes my life..I just realized this when I was singing it. Like I am always bored. Like the song. And I wanna be sedated

Here are the lyrics describing my life...

Twenty-twenty-twenty-four hours to go
I wanna be sedated
Nothing to do, no where to go-o,
I wanna be sedated

Just get me to the airport, put me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry, before I go insane
I can't control my fingers, I can't control my brain
Oh no oh oh oh oh

Twenty-twenty-twenty-four hours to go
I wanna be sedated
Nothing to do, no where to go-o,
I wanna be sedated

Just put me in a wheelchair, get me on a plane
Hurry hurry hurry, before I go insane
I can't control my fingers, I can't control my brain
Oh no oh oh oh oh

Twenty-twenty-twenty-four hours to go
I wanna be sedated
Nothing to do, no where to go-o,
I wanna be sedated

Just put me in a wheelchair, get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry, before I go loco
I can't control my fingers, I can't control my toes
Oh no oh oh oh oh

Twenty-twenty-twenty-four hours to go
I wanna be sedated
Nothing to do, no where to go-o,
I wanna be sedated

Just put me in a wheelchair, get me to the show
Hurry hurry hurry, before I go loco
I can't control my fingers, I can't control my toes
Oh no oh oh oh oh

Ba-ba-baba, baba-ba-baba, I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-baba, baba-ba-baba, I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-baba, baba-ba-baba, I wanna be sedated
Ba-ba-baba, baba-ba-baba, I wanna be sedated


:: 2003 21 June :: 7.37 pm
:: Music: Bittersweet Symphony

New Journal
I re-did my journal.

I can never eat again...SO much food...stomach hurts...DAMN cheescake factory


:: 2003 21 June :: 4.27 pm
:: Music: Happiest place on earth by Desaparecidos

Jorge H.W. Bush

First off ~ Amy congrats on driving

Today I woke up and Sarah and I watched part of Breakfast at Tiffany's and then watched Lizzy McGuire and Recess.

After she left around 11:30 my mom and I got all the crap we are donating form the garage and drove it over to the donation place, but it was closed. So we went to my uncle's house because when my grandma called and left messages he didn't pick up or call back. I was kinda scared because he's my favorite uncle and he has had problems with drugs.

But he was fine.

I almost bought the sex pistols cd, but when I came back to buy it I couldn't find the one I wanted to buy. :( Then I was gonna buy the Ramones cd but I didn't have enough something to look forward to the next time i go to the mall.

For lunch my mom, grandma and I went to the cheescake factory for lunch. Then went to costco and bought meat. It was gross, it was leaking and stuff.

Tonight my parents are going out so I am babysitting for my brother. Hopefully he will be good. But I dunno. he has a friend over now. I CAN'T stand the kid. He is rude and mean to me. he's gonna die.

Anyways... did you know that President Bush has dyslexia and he also has some type of disorder where if he is giving a speech he gets nervous and all.


:: 2003 20 June :: 11.04 pm
:: Music: The execution of all things by Rilo Kiley

Tonight I went to the mall with Sarah. It was fun. We went into stores and had a party with people at chick-fil-A. I also met Ryan from Fallen from the Sky and Nathan from No Reply. OH...Go me!!!

We got free ice cream, but it had some kind of protective layer over it.. so we threw it away. I guess that goes to show don't eat ice cream from chick-fil-A.

To someone that knows who they are ~ I'd prefer if you didn't tell anyone about our little quarrel. And if you already did... I thought better of you.

I almost bought a cd. But when i went back to go get it, it wasn't there and we decided it was a sign i shouldn't get it. ::tear::

GUESS WHAT??? Billy Jean is not my lover.....she's Michael Jackson's lover....duh! Not really....anyhoot Smells like teen spirit by NIRVANA was the number 1 song of the last 25 years.

AND the secret life of Kurt Cobain is on next. What a good day!

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