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:: 2003 20 June :: 9.14 am



:: 2003 19 June :: 9.08 am

my computer is scaring me

My computer is scaring me. Like, I am burning a cd and its going like vroooooooom then quiet then vroooooooom then quiet. Is it gonna blow up?

Anyways, i woke up to an empty house once again, except for my dog of course. Today I woke up to my bedroom door opening, I was like go away, and I turn over and my dog was sitting at the side of my bed. I was like " AWW Buddy!"

I'm going to sleepaway camp kinda soon, well actually like 3 weeks or so, but if you wanna write me email me your address at and I'll write you first. I reccomend you should because it's a reason to actually go get the mail......because you might get some!!

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:: 2003 18 June :: 10.49 am
:: Music: creative suicide ~ Atl

today is a happy day

this morning I woke up early - 9:15. Anyways my mom was like what are you doing today? So as usual I said I dunno, probably nothing. Then she said I spoke to Dad and if you really want to redo your room he'll help you paint. I was like YAY!

Also we are definently going on a cruise to the Panama Canal. This is going to be so exciting.

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:: 2003 17 June :: 2.44 pm

Today hasn't been much fun, I woke up to an empty house, finished my book, and helped my mom clean out the guest room closet. But my grandparents offered to take us on a cruise if we could find one, and we've been pretty much everywhere ~ europe, alaska and carribean ~ so we are finding one for the panama canal which is very exciting. So I am probably going to go there over winter break.

I also wanna re-do my room, like paint and all but my mom says I won't be up for it about halfway through. But I mean I'll eventually wanna finish it right? I'm not gonna have it painted halfway and then be like I don't really feel like painting anymore...

I'm watching a really old episode of SNL. It's great... this guy meets this group of people he's gonna work at and goes to put his coat up and this black gut sitting with them gets up and while the other guy is putting his coat away another black guy takes the firsts seat...well this goes on for a while and it's really funny.


:: 2003 16 June :: 9.07 am
:: Music: when I come around

LA LA LA Jules is engaged LA LA LA I'm back home LA LA LA

First of congrats to Jules, my friends sister who's bf after like 3 years finally proposed thurs.

Anyways, I got back from my trip on yesterday. Its was really nice to see some of the family I haven't seen since I was my brothers age (8). They got sooo much older.....I still can't believe Raffi is becoming a teacher and that everyone is moved outta the house and that Josh is engaged. OMG! My family is growing.....

Amy and I had a blast! We went to NYC and saw the empire state building and went to the top and couldn't find my mom and brother, took lotza pictures at the statue of liberty, and saw the MTV studios and also went into the "MTV store" LOL. We got matching t-shirts.

Then we went to New Jersey to stay with my mom's aunt and uncle, but they are more like MY aunt and uncle and my mom's friends. So we went to a mall there...prety much like ours, but NO tax on clothing. I got a skirt and a cd. The one by the foo fighters.

Last but not least we went to Reading, Pennsylvania to see where my mom grew up. We saw the house she lived in and all the houses where er friends lived. As well as the elementary and high schools she went to.

It was fun!!

if ne1 wants to get together call me


:: 2003 4 June :: 12.42 pm

no more la la..2 more days till I go up la la
WOW... this school year went by soooooo unbelievably fast! In 2 dats we are going up north. I am soo happy! Amy is coming with us and it will be a lot of fun.

Yesterday felt so weird. Like I woke up early and took my english exam. But when I got home it didn't feel like it was onlyt 10:30 in the morning it felt like the normal time I get home ~ 3:45.

I am gonna start packing later today or tomorrow. I got a cool camera. It's a Fugifilm and it's little and takes drop in film. I like it a lot and it is silver.

YAY! It just really hit me that I don't have school or work for like 2 months! Except for the stupid history and english reading that I am probably not gonna do.

Hope everyone has fun over the summer.


:: 2003 2 June :: 10.06 am
:: Music: ROck your Body ~ Justin Timberlake...I AM watching mtv

I just took a personality test and I am pretty normal but am this entry to find out what that is

Last night I went to the Beck/Dasboard concert at Mizner and Katherine......I saw the atl kid from the mall ~ LOL amy. we "went to hear Dashboard" but me and amy really knew it was to see Taylor. So katherine and him wer not talking at all!!! I was getting aggravated. Anyways....Katherine sat in gum and we were scraping it off with a plastic knife. But before that Katherine saw this guy walking around in a fountain so she decided to go in too! Yeah that personality test. I got "very high" in this one. GREAT....

Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing themselves injury. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. They think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

On a happier is almost over and I am going up north with my family and Amy. So that'll be REALLY fun. LIke I am gonna get to see all of mydad's family,some poeple that I haven't seen since I was around 8 years old or so.


:: 2003 30 May :: 7.55 am
:: Music: The General by Dispatch

I like exam days

I really like exam days. I studied for bio and know it all! I am also half way done with histroy. Pretty good if I must say so myself. Tonight I am gonna see Chicago for he 2nd time with Amy at the cheapy theater. LOL.

Anyways...Hope everyone does good on the rest of their exams.

There was a decorated General with a heart of gold
That likened him to all the stories he told,
Of past battles won and lost
And legends of old
A seasoned veteran in his own time

On the battlefield he gained respectful fame
With many medals of bravery and stripes to his name
He grew a beard as soon as he could to cover the scars on his face
And always urged his men on

But on the eve of a great battle with the infantry in dream
The Old General tossed in his sleep and wrestled with his meaning
He awoke from the night to tell what he had seen
And walked slowly out of his tent

All the men held tall with their chests in the air
With the courage in their blood and a fire in their stare
and It was a gray morning and they all wondered how they would fare
Till the old general told them to go home

He said: I have seen the others
And I have discovered
That this fight is not worth fighting
And I've seen their mothers
And I will no other, to follow me where I'm going

Take a shower, shine your shoes
You got no time to lose
You are young men you must be living
Take a shower, and shine your shoes
You got no time to lose
You are young men you must be living
Go now you are forgiven

But the men stood fast with their guns on their shoulders
Not knowing what to do with the contradicting orders
The General said he would do his own duty but he would extend it no further
The men can go as they pleased

Not a man moved their eyes gazed straight ahead,
Till one by one they stepped back and not a word was said
And the old general was left with his own words echoing in his head
He then prepared to fight

He said: I have seen the others
And I have discovered
That this fight is not worth fighting
No, And I've seen their mothers
and I will no other
to follow me where I'm going
Take a shower shine your shoes
You got no time to lose
You are young men you must be living

Take a shower shine your shoes
You got no time to lose
You are young men you must be living
Go now you are forgiven.

Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven, go

Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go ooo oooooooo

Go now you are forgiven
Go now you are forgiven
Go now you got to be,
got to be, got to be, got to be,
got to be yeaaaaa


:: 2003 24 May :: 9.01 pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: Light my Fire by The Doors

80's movies are my favorite

Today I kinda had a lazy-blah day. lIke I read, and watched movies (Ferris Buellers Day Off ~ which I own and The wedding Singer). Then I rented the Hot Chick on dvd...I haven't watched it yet but I think I might tomorrow. me tonight or tomorrow, I'm confused about what you wrote in your journal to me and Amy.

"Life moves pretty fast, if you don't stop and look around once in a while you might miss it"
- Ferris Bueller's Day Off

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:: 2003 23 May :: 8.26 pm
:: Music: Enjoy the Silence by No use for a name

La la is la la la la

Oh Drama!! Life is full of drama and shit. It's a bitch. People ( you should know who you are) don't get mad at other people because you told us something then got mad when we treid to help you out and give you advice.

To one person ~ we need to get together this weekend and spend time together

to another ~ you need to get yourshit together (guy-wise) you had the guy as a friend, but you told him something and are losing him

to others (you probably are so involved with yourself you won't know its you) ~ you need to realize that life won't always be easy and people won't always cater to you... try doing something by yourself

If you think it's you I'm talking about call me. I may not be specifically directing this to you, but if I made you realize something...good

Otherwise, I hope everyone has a fun 3 day weekend ~ do good on exams

" Define irony:
A bunch of idiots dancing around on a plane to a song by a band that got killed in a plane crash."
- Steve Buscemi ~ Conair


:: 2003 22 May :: 7.54 pm
:: Music: bohemian rhapsody by queen

Today was okay. I got my grade in biology, the report card grade, and I have a C. I thought I would be angry about it though and I am not. Whatever...

Otherwise, I am babystting for my brother tomorrow night and the night after, if any one wants to get together give me a call.

Katherine........thank you for sitting with me at lunch

My math project is coming along well. It's cool, like it's my dream house! For when I marry a rich, starving-artist type guy that is in a rockband.

Hope everyone has a happy friday.

"Looks like you're having a case of the Mondays" ~ Ofice Space - Great movie!!!


:: 2003 20 May :: 9.36 pm
:: Music: the strokes ~ take it or leave it

Today was pretty good. Amy came home with me and we were kinda scared that she wouldn't be able to because we have had different afternoon bus drivers for the past week and a half.

Later we watched old videos from when we were in 3rd grade. LOL! Amelia, amelia open up the door.........

Then after she left my parents and I had dinner. My mom asked me if I wanted to go buy shirts, but I didn't feel like it, so I randomly asked if I could get my hair cut. So it got cut a little, and the lady was like I adeda few layers, so it'll look cute once I straighten it.

Tomorrow we have history. I honestly don't like that class. Some of the people are the biggest IDOITS ever!! Like......have any of them ever heard of the concept of common sense? Then we have Wesley, he sounds like he has marbles in his mouth.

I also think I might like someone else. No ne knows who........not even amy. I am also SOOOOOO over Pan from Peter Pan, but Peter is still in the running.

Enchilada Nirvana~LOL
yay nirvana


:: 2003 18 May :: 3.50 pm

I know what I wanna be when i grow up

I went to Disney yesterday, BOFTY had a scavenger hunt.

Today my mom an I rented Catch me if you can, the guy that this movie as based on is my hero. Like seriously, he is my idol.

I also know what I wanna be when I grow up... A con person


:: 2003 14 May :: 7.28 pm

i got a picture icon thingy......

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:: 2003 14 May :: 4.36 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: creative suicude ~ all that's left


Why does life suck so much?

I'm just so sick and tired of everything- school, home and school work, acting happy, life, it's all shit. I'm not happy and I hate acting like I am.

What's the point of life if you're not happy?,,,,,,especially when you have no reason not to be?>.............


:: 2003 11 May :: 1.13 pm
:: Mood: happy

I smell like beer, pot and massive sweat!!!

Last night was the concert, so after trying on around 30 outfits and figuring out who was driving there (my grandma would, then wouldn't, then would, then wouldn't drive us there)!! In the car on the way there we were pointing out people that were going, and funny looking people. Once we got there we had to wait in a pretty long line, but it went by quickly, then we went to the floor! OH YEAH, NICE AND CLOSE TO THE BANDS! So we were pretty close for hot rod circuit and mxpx, then went to eat, becuase food is good, and got in as good charlotte was starting, figures, the song I know I almost miss! Then, like HALF the floor decided to go get food/go to the bathroom/ or something else during the break between Good Charlotte and New Found Glory, so we went up really close. These 2 guys behind us spilled beer ALL over us. And 1 of them kept saying to the other "I'm gonna get you so fucked up. I made my sister so fucked up she shit herself!" We were like WOW, so then we were moshing and got killed, kicked in the head, and helped this girl crowd surf. After the show we went outside to this GIANT crowd of people. I liked hot rod circuit and New Found Glory had the best show. They were funny and really energetic and cared about the crowd. Good Charlotte tried to be funny, but definently failed at that attempt. I also bought a shirt ~ maroon NFG shirt with people crowd surfing on the back.


:: 2003 10 May :: 12.06 pm
:: Mood: waiting

charles manson is scary and elvis is dead

I am going to a concert tonight.

Right now most of you are probably wondering about my subject... I am watching the 100 most shocking moments of rock and roll, and they talked about charles manson and elvis presley. and Kurt Cobain ~ RIP.

My grandma and brother are at his baeball practice. My brother and I are gonna go crazy! My grandma is the biggest OCD person in the world.

Hope everyone has a fun rest of the weekend! I have a concert and lots of bullets, history assignment....FUN!!


:: 2003 9 May :: 9.33 pm
:: Mood: jubilant
:: Music: sublime ~ santeria

jubilant.......what a funny word!!
I think I wanna become a comedian. OR a "mad" scientist, because I have the hair and the "i don't care what the hell I look-like" attitude.

Today I spent half the day with Amy and the other half bored outta my mind, because my parents are out of town and my grandparents are staying with us and my grandma had a doctors appointment.....old people doctors appointments take FOREVER!!

I don't practice santeria
I aint got no crystal ball.
I had a million dollars but I'd,
I'd spend it all.
If I could find that heina and that sancho that she's found,
well I'd pop a cap in sancho and I'd slap her down.

What I really wanna know,
my baby, what I really want to say I can't define.
Well it's love,
that I need, oh ,
but my soul will have to,
wait till I get back and find heina of my own.
Daddy's gonna love one and all.

I feel the break,
feel the break,
feel the break and I got to live it up,
oh, yea huh, well I swear that I.
What I really wanna know, baby,
what I really want to say I can't define.
that love make it go,
my soul will have to...

What I really wanna say,
my baby,
What I really wanna say is I've got mine.
and I'll make it, Yes, I'm comin' up.

Tell sanchito that if he knows what is good for him he best go run and hide.
Daddy's got a new .45.
and I won't think twice to stick that barrel straight down sancho's throat.
Believe me when I say that I got somethin for his punk ass.
What I really wanna know, my baby,
what I really wanna say is there's just one,
way back,
and I'll make it, yea,
but my soul will have to wait.
yea, yea, yea


:: 2003 7 May :: 9.10 pm
:: Music: Times like fighters, now 1000 hours by greenday

sling shoting butter if fun........
my mom is a teacher, so me and my brother were helping her grade tests, soo amy called and I'm done grading and so are my mom and brother so my mom is sling shoting a rubber band at me while I had toast in the toaster and I had a little individual packet of butter( at like a restaurant), so I shot it at her and we were all throwing butter at!!! Any ways.math sucks!!!! My parents are going on a cruise tomorrow so my grabdparents are staying with us and my grandma was freaking out that I am going to a concert saturday night, LOL!! I was like "I've been to concerts before!", she's gonna be calling me like every 15 minutes!! Tomorrow Amy and I are probably gonna go to the mall.

Who should I pick to like??? Peter or Pan? Comment on who I should pick. Peter ~ fun to hang out with Pan ~ mysterious, has something pulling me towards him......

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:: 2003 5 May :: 8.53 pm
:: Mood: kinda mom and I are getting along REALL
:: Music: Preppy Girl ~ Mad Caddies

computers are stupid
All Apologies...Nirvana

What else should I be
All apologies
What else should I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies

In the sun
In the sun I feed as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqur scafoam shame
Sunburn with freezeburn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy
All in all we all are

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:: 2003 5 May :: 7.00 pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Times Like These...Foo Fighters

I WIN!!!
HAHAHA!! To all of you that still have to do their research papers.........I WIN!!!!

Can you make me 10 years older??? Then I could live to the time when Nirvana was alive and I could go to their concerts...

PlEaSe ComMeNt.....oh yeah, and people DO your bullets.*cough-cough* Amy......

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:: 2003 3 May :: 1.25 pm
:: Mood: I feel like ripping someones head off

Why is life so hard?!?!?!
Why is life so hard?............ I feel like everyone is against me and right now I don't care about ANYTHING in the world. When I was doing my homwork before my mom came in and was like "would you be upset if we sold our house?" So I was like YES!!! I love our house soooooo much. So then she ran out to run errands and then catch up with my dad and brother at his baseball game, so she calls me just now and was like "do your birkenstocks look really worn in? I saw them for $29.99 somewhere" I was like yeah, so then she said well I could lie a little and say they weren't comfortable, i was like NO! That's lying. Holy has sucked even more than i thought.


:: 2003 3 May :: 9.41 am
:: Mood: bored

this weekend is gonna suck........
First of, congratulations to liz for making eaglettes.( probably the only happy thing that'll be in this entry) I have a research paper due Tuesday, that if I am anymore confused about, i could be qualified as retarded. Then I have to study for a math test Wednesday and try to bring that grade up to a B and keep all my other A's and B's. Amy and I WERE gonna go the Wellington mall, which I have secretely been dying to go to, but she can't, so basically I am stuck all weekend doing homework, which makes me fell like a bigger dork than I already am.

Off of that problem, in a week I have a concert I am going to, the GC/NFG/MXPX/ more bands i dunno... anyways I don't really listen to them, so am gonna be sitting there not knowing any lyrics, or am gonna have to be listening t them all week........hmmm..I just won't know any lyrics.

McManus's test was actually pretty easy, minus a few odd multiple choice questions. I am proud of myself for doing well, even though I only read 112 pages of the book.

I am very confused about who I like,
"peter" and I have not been talking that much recently, which is not making me like him as much, but "pan" has this pull that I can't get out of. And even though I know in my heart I will never have a chance with either of them, especially "pan" I still have this (I guess you could say hope) that he will miracuously say "Heather, will you go out with me?" BUT HAHAHA, like that will ever happen, so as for now, yeah..........

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:: 2003 27 April :: 6.46 pm
:: Mood: happy

I Got Birkenstocks!!!
This weekend was pretty good. Saturday Amy and I went to the mall, where I got Birkenstocks that I love!! Then her mom picked us up and we went to her house. When my Mom picked me up she took me to blockbuster where we rented Minority Report and we watched it. For those who haven't seen it, see it!!! For those who have, how cool is it?!? Today I went to festival flea market with my mom and she got shoes and I got stud earrings (cubix circonia), like diamonds! Then I went to ice cream to meet these family friends, after ice cream we saw Anger Management. comment on how the movie was. I haven't TOUCHED any homework or books over the weekend. Oh yeah go me! See ya'll tomorrow at school. Bye.....


:: 2003 24 April :: 9.45 pm
:: Mood: blah, depressed even though I had fun today

thank god I am not the epitemy of Boca.....
Today was AWESOME!! Amy and Katherine came home with me and we had fun...*if you know what I mean*, LOL . We walked home from the bus stop and saw interesting things. Also walking home from sugar sand about 4 guys driving in cars honked at us!!! Yeah, anyways.....tonight I went to dinner with my mom and grandparents and their frinds and their friends daughters and grandchildren, and 1 of the grandchildren was a 15 yr old girl and the biggest bitch in the world! Even my mom said those exact words. She was like "Yeah, the school system in New York is soo much beter than down in here in Florida". Like how the fuck would she know? She hasn't experienced both of them! Also, on Sunday I have to go to lunch, ice cream and the mall with these 2 girls I know becuase all of ours moms are getting together for my mom's birthday which was last week during passover. So, since I am getting Birkenstoks (I have NO idea how to spell that) Saturday I can just stare at them walking around the mall, and randomly join in on the conversation by saying Yeah and Uh-huh. LOL, Gonna go lay down for bed, It's past my bedtime. Please comment!!! Because no one ever does!!!


:: 2003 23 April :: 7.13 pm
:: Mood: singy ~ singing "Just a Prayer" by Madonna
:: Music: watching seinfeld ~ does that count?

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder If quizzez are quizzical, then are tests testical?
I love "Peter"!!! He is gonna be on the same team as my bro!Today was not bad, everyone was sad though (Amy, Katherine ~ feel better you're making me sad!). Spanish class is sooooo unbelievably long. The bus was really boring becuase my headphones are retarded and the wire that connects directly to them has to be twisted, which sometimes doesn't even play. So.... I was going crazy! Tomorrow is a half day! Which means only 4 1/2 hours of school, 30 minutes of it is lunch. I think just now I randomly got depressed cause I am sad. That's bad, right?! Yeah, I know, I am watching seinfeld and Kramer is searching for a pig man? It's interesting, pig people ~ like the twilight zone one where "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder". GREAT EPISODE. Gonna go, luv ya'll!!


:: 2003 22 April :: 8.35 pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: none

yes your hinest.....
I have not written in my journal thiny in a long time! i HAVE DECIDED ONCE AGAIN TO BECUASE AN ACTUAL WRITING JOURNAL DOESN'T WORK VERY WELL FOR ME AFTER A WHILE. oops.... I pressed the caps lock button. School was cool today. Making sex oises on the way to english w/ k-dawg (wrongfully) and realizing I am deaf in history ( what ?!? ) Anyways at BOFTY we decided that like only 3 people are NOT bad jews because, like, everyone else broke keeping kosher for passover. I have bio bullets to finish... BLAH! Bio is gonna be the death of me? What about you. Oh, and to Katherines "anonomous" comments, if any of K-dawgs friends find out who you are, be prepared to get a royal ATL iB @$$ KiCkInG!!
adios..........and by the way to the 1 person who knows, at the moment I like Peter more than Pan ~ LOL Amela

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:: 2002 7 December :: 5.10 pm
:: Mood: blah

Hey. Last night we went to Amys. Amy and Liz are kinda in a fight so we were spending the whole time trying to get Liz not to be mad at Amy. I don't know if she still is but I will find out soon enough. Today I had an early game and had to be at the field at 8 in the morning for pictures. There was this one girl on the other team who was such a bitch, she pushed me and grabbed me but I elbowed her and stepped on her. I hope she dies, that whorebag. Then I did my bio bullets and went to the mall with Sarah. We saw lots of people like Christiana, Lydia, Donna and my bat mitzvah tutor. lol. Tonight I am babysitting for Karen, yay ( said with such enthusiasm) not really. i wonder what i'm gonna have for dinner......


:: 2002 6 December :: 9.00 pm
:: Mood: tired, falling asleep, lol
:: Music: weird computer noises....

Tonight was the last night of chanukkah, :( yeah well we went to amys house, it was fun. Th food was yummy and we talked to amy's camp friend matt. Now I am at home trying to remember my day. Last night ZI got red converse slipons, they are s cute. oday Bryan had a rose, we thought it was for liz and it was. ahhhh. And on the bus amy and him were talking so i was in my own little world, as usual. I don't hae much to say but suure I will tomorrow, if i don't go to Buzz Bake Sale then don't expect much at all......


:: 2002 4 December :: 9.04 pm
:: Mood: sneezy
:: Music: tap tap of the keys, yay

recently I have been slacking off, but that's bad. i can't. slacking off leads to bad grades which leads to becoming stupid and stupid leads to failing and that leads to me having to drop out of IB which leads to me going to boca high which lead to my life sucking! No Heather, no slacking! Unless you're in the ,movie slackers, AHH David Chernak had a slackers t-shirt. And Davied Chernak was SOOOOO fine. Oh man gotta get me a piece of him! yum!Tonite i got a long sleeve shirt for Chanukkah. I hate when people pronounce the CH( as in cheese)it's pronounced hah-new-kah there you go, a stupid person way to read the word chanukkah. YAY! I am getting used to being stupid. NO heather don't be stupid. Anywayz.. I think I say that in every entry. Yeah well.... Today I was torturing this kid Chris, I kept saying he was stoned, but he said he wasn't but I was like YES YOU ARE, it was funny. Also the skitso was on the bus today and in school. I swear she's gonna kill someone one of these days. Then she sat next to me on the bus, I nearly crapped my pants. lol. I need oops I crapped my pants. yay snl. I'm kinda tired, so I'm gonna go do something. If you come up with anything I can do this weekend comment on what i should do. Well adios amigos!

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