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2008 16 October :: 5.23 pm
http://www.popeater.com/movies/article/duchovny-leoni-split-several-months-ago/213792?icid=aimDBDL1_link2-b
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2008 8 October :: 3.42 pm
Ok, yes I never go on here anymore, but to be fair, I really am not on the internet that much because I still have the computer i started college with and it is...tired.
Here Are my comments on the last couple entries by my Miche;;e though...
CONGRATS ON THE JOB I LOVE YOU.
You saw Jenny Lewis? *jealous* I am so into Rilo Kiley right now and I really like her new Cd too.
As for the whole HArry Potter thing, I could take it or leave it. I like the world of HP as a whole. The guy who plays him is sorta whatev.
I do want to come visit, but right now I am having trouble paying y bills...I guess that means I should ge a real job, but I have no idea what i want to do so I am havign a tough time. I have a really great support sysem here though, so I am optimistic.
I am sorry I suck at woohu, but here is my entry. Enjoy.
PS. Mulder is a sex addict? Score! You are in!
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2008 15 February :: 2.53 pm
Well kids, I know it has been way too long since I have written, but here goes nothin...
I finished college without much fanfane and after a brief stay in cadillac to care for my grandparents, I the rode the train to california and stayed with my wonderful auntie for a week. Last week I completed the final leg of my journey and have finally made it to SoCal. I am staying in San Pedro with Anne and 2 other girls, and while I currently do not have a job, i am haveing a great time.
I also wanted to tell you woohu-ers that i really miss you a lot. My night with Miche;;e a couple weeks ago really reminded me how much i HEART you guys. I will try to keep up with woohu better...promise.
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2007 30 September :: 1.14 am
I AM SORRY JOE> I LOVE YOU> HAPPY BIRTHDAY 3 DAYS AGO!!!
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2007 24 September :: 5.10 pm
Yes I am here, not often and I only skim mostly, but that does not mean I dont still love you, it means I dont have a computer and that I am not taking class, just working full time.
Things are going well for me for the first time in so long. I am having a great birthday. I worked an ovwr night last night and I work another tonight, but I came ovwer to michelle's and we had a cook out this afternoon and we played darts and listened to music and she got me flowers and made me a cake. I am glad to have friends around again.
Romance is still not a highlight of my life, but maybe if i met JOHN CUSACK things woulod change. I WANT TO GO, if I can.
I miss you.
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2007 4 September :: 2.04 pm
Well, today is the forst day of classes, I dont hve anything until tomarrow, yet my roomies puppy felt the need to wake me up at 7:42 this morning. Yay. I love that michelle and Jason put up the same pics from thwe bachelor party, but their comments were differnt and sometimes hilarious.
Rob has his chance with me and I am sad that he couldnt see what was there, but I guess I have learned from this and need to move on. He really just never moved out of the Prague mindset we established, and I felt like things couldnt stay the same when we got back and were living here.
Prague was amazing in every sense. It saved me in every way a person could be saved and I really think that maybe I was idealizing the people then it was actually the experience that was so meaningful. I found love there, but it was mostly that i learned to love myself again. I had lost the parts of me that were alive and fun and found them half way around the world. Now i need to keep a closer eye on myself and not get lost again.
I need to:
1. get school stuff situated for tomarrow.
2. talk to Rob.
3. get my schedule from Kohl's.
4. do laundry.
5. write...something...anything.
Since I have been back I have not been writing enough. It keeps me sane and that could be part of why I wasn't sane last year....at all.
Michelle and Jason I am glad I got to see you guys and I will let you know if I can come visit.
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2007 23 July :: 1.01 pm
YEsterday I was in cesky Krumlov and I bought HArry Potter 7 and read it cover to cover. It was great. I love that the european version is only 607 pages instead of like 750 like the us...it is also smaller, that makes it easier to carry around and get home.
I leave this glorious place on saturday morning and there is still so much to do. Here is my list:
aspects of alice @ the blacklight theatre
St. Vitus's Cathedral
The dancing house
I also have a paper due tomarrow and 2 poet meetings. Then there are readings tue, thur and a lecture tomarrow morning. Finally, the last thing I will do in prague is go to the big party on friday and get wasted one final time with all my new friends.
I have to go back to WMU in the fall. I am still on eclass short of graduation. I think the only saving grace is that I have met people here. I think if I hadnt come on this trip I would have died. It saved me and I am grateful. WOot prague!...
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2007 20 July :: 1.19 pm
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2007 18 July :: 12.57 pm
So I am having a great time in Prague. I really like the program I ma in and feel like I am learning so much. I can't believe I was so apprehensive about doing this.
I miss Ryan though. I miss Camp and my normal summer. I feel like I am outsidfe my own body a lot here. Like I am not really living my life, but I am on some type of parrallel plane of existence. Also It is weird that Peter Derby is here. I still can't get past that feeling. I feel like a kid when I am around him, so I try not to be very much.
This weekend I am going on an overnight "field trip" and we are going to see some really beautiful stuff. I mean I have seen a lot of really great stuff already, but this is going to be cool i think. We are also going to see a symphony i think.
Anyway, I saw two exhibits of particular interest. NEo Rauch: an AMAZING painter, and JAn Saudek and very interesting photographer, goodbye for now.
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2007 7 June :: 10.42 pm
I need to make a list of good things.
pictures
lilacs
hugs
music
tv
Anne
Ryan
Prague
cookie dough
Daily Defense shampoo
San Diego
posters
Aunt Shell
clean laundy
I saw Knocked Up and it was good. I think I might be in love with Seth Rogan. I have liked him since Freaks and Geeks and coniptioned a bit when he was on Dawson'd Creek. CAL!- he's a writer-nuff said. Anyway, he is awesmely awkwardly good in the movie. I LOVE the part where he is frakking halucinating. GREAT SCENE!! CAUTION: they show some graphic birth stuff...but it doesn't matter, I LOVE SETH.
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2003 10 June :: 10.27 am
I am siting on my bed writing in my journal. I didn't know how much I missed this. I went to caddy and stayed with the davis fam, which is becoming my fam. I also have a test in the morn. PRAGUE! WOOOT!!!
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2007 24 May :: 1.31 am
So after reading Michelle's reply to my last entry here goes:
I am going t move on and not really look back, and i know that there were good things that happened, but there are not that many of those things that will continue when I do move on. Michelle you are one f only a handful of lasting things frim these four years. I think of you frequently too...for example tonight I was watching TV and there was a commercial that was Sarah Silverman patting a guy down and she touched his taint and he said the word...I loved it. TAINT!
anyway. I should get my cmputer back soon, and I will be able to update more often. I miss you and I appreciate your words of encouragement.
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2007 15 May :: 3.07 pm
I am not excited to be back in Michigan, let alone Kalamazoo...alone.
So I am taking 3 classes this summer. I can do it, I can do it...I CAN DO IT!
Jon is in one of my classes and he has invited me...more than once...to hang out with him and Degrandchamp. That would be a bad idea i think, but I am tempted just for lack of other options. I also feel bad because I dropped Jon out of my life with all the others even though he was not one of the bad ones, he just hangs out with them too much...
I am going to be in a foreign country in about 45 days. That is crazy.
I know this is just a phase in my life. a lonely sad pathetic phase, but i just want it to be over now. The hard part is that I could make friends. I could even hang out with old ones, but I am leaving in...well 45 days, and I dont plan on coming back...ever if possible.
My Aunt is OK. It is really scary and going there to be with her was one if the hardest things I've ever done, but it was the right thing and I am really glad I went.
My college years have been far from the best in my life....I would probably characterize them as some of the worst actually. That is sad...but true.
PS. I had In and Out Burger twice while I was in Cali. SO deliciously bad for me.
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2007 27 April :: 6.15 pm
So I have been thinking a lot about Michelle since I left Michigan because everything is reminding me of you. I heard All American rejects on the drive to the airport, then on the plane we had an episode of the office and a behind the scenes of 24. I wish you were here.
So my aunt paula has been doing pretty well this week. She has been to work for a couple hours everyday. Today I went to work with DeAnn and actually we ended up going on a fieldtrip with the special ed kids...it was really fun, they are all really sweet.
It is really nice here, and we also went to kohls and are going out for...wait for it...SUSHI. ( I will have In and Out at LEAST once...dont worry.)
I love you guys.
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2007 23 April :: 6.18 pm
So I just finished an exam...1 down 3 to go. I think it went ok though, I only needed a 60 on it to get my C. It is sad that I have resorted to "hoping for C's" but there it is.
The day after tomarrow I will be in CAlifornia. I am really excited even though it is a not so happy reason for a visit. I love my aunties and am excited to see them. My cousin Ryan is takin me out to dinner before I leave too...it might be wierd, but good weird.
Now I have to write some papers, so I guess I will try to get on that.
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2007 17 April :: 1.01 pm
SO my mom freaked me out while she was here...I forgot my grandma Santiago died from Breast cancer...both sides of the family is not good...
Dunzo died...it was sad.
I fly out to California a week from tomarrow.
I have 4 papers, 3 exams, and a presentation due before that.
Harrison might stay in my apt. while I am gone.
Ryan wanted me to go to his graduation, but I don't get back til the day after. I think he was dissapointed, but we will both have to get over that. I was just happy he thought about it.
Ricci finally contacted me...to see when she could drop off my stuff...*sigh*
BAck to the grind I guess...
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2007 4 April :: 7.27 pm
So My mom was here frome friday to this morning and I almost killed her numerous times. This was the first time we had spent that much time together though in...and i would not be exagerating....years. She is thinking about marrying Mike and wants me to think about being her maid of honor...gag.
In other, more happy news, I am flying out of Michigan as soon as my last exam is done on the 25th. I am going to stay with my Aunt Paula from the 25th of April to the 6th of May. I am SO excited.
Also My plane ticket to Prague came in the mail the other day. It is real. I am going to Europe this summer. weird.
Harrison is picking me up in few minutes and I have to print off a map. Hopefully after certain kids see David D. I will get a phone call with some details and we can catch up.
I finally have made peace with my Kalamazoo situation, mostly because I am realizing how temporary it is. I am happy again.
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2007 27 March :: 5.00 pm
Well, I think I had one of the best weekends I can remember having all year. (being a senior hasn't done much for me) ANYWAY. I got the best hug ie the pick up and spin you kind when I got there, then I had a weekend of basketball, movies, darts, food and games. It was awesome. mostly I was just really glad to see Ryan, I needed my fix.
I also went and saw mike's mom and dad, and that was really a good thing. I was proud of myself because I was scared, but i made myself do it anyway.
ON to the bad news:
LAst night VEronica mars was interupted by some weird noises coming from the livingroom. I went out there and dunzo was hanging from the side of his cage by his back leg, which was broken, and he was flailing around and intermittnely passing out ( i think). so I FREAKED OUT because he wouldnt let me get near him and I needed to get him unstuck, so i called my mom and she calmed me down enough toget him unstuck and told me to call ryan to see if he would look up the scenario on the internet. so I called Ryan and had him "fact check" and he stayed on the phone til I calmed down. Dunzo is now resting comfortably in a box with some carrots and water and lots of fluffy bedding. I didnt realize how sad i would be until i almost lost him.
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2007 20 March :: 12.27 am
Today I have done good and bad in equal measure.
I went to class, talked to professors, picked up a shift, got my passport, signed up for classes, did homework and am writing a paper, I have done more taday and been more productive than I have been in weeks past combined, but all of this is now overshadowed by one bad:
I hurt a friend.
For that I am truly sorry, and the way in which the situation occured can only be resolved by explanation...if you are willing to listen...
You didn't answer your phone, and your email bounced back, so here is my message in a bottle...
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2007 19 March :: 11.56 pm
I was just thinking about VEronica Mars, so some of you might not want to read past here:
So something has been bothering me lately. I REALLY like this show and I get really emotionally attached to the characters, but the thing that really has hit me lately is that I am a lot like veronica...bear with me...She really doesnt trust people and she runs from intimacy. She can love lots of things, but she can't say I love you to her boyfriend. she doesnt let herself really experience the emotions she feels and keeps herself distanced for fear of getting hurt ( presumably). I mean online kristen bell has been saying that logan is bad for veronica, but i think that logan and veronica are good for eachother. veronica make logan better and logan forces veronica to thaw out a little. he makes her feel things, even when she doesnt want to. and I know he is a huge player, but he doesnt cheat on her, she runs away and he looks for what he cant get from her elswhere. SHE always runs away or blows him off first then he gets another woman, and she wants him again. Avoidance is key in thier realtionship and I feel like I do that too. I avoid until I can't then If possible I lie or run away. There are a lot of things I want and I am afraid to go after them. I dont want to hurt, but I guess ploating along not feeling anything isnt working either.
Switching shows:
Our pain makes us real.
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