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:: 2008 17 April :: 3.57 pm

I need to find something to do when Justin has game night. darn 3 hour time difference.

I'll figure out something.
Today was a good day.
those are few and far between...


...well at least it was.

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:: 2008 15 April :: 8.27 pm

So, maybe I'll leave the poem as is. at least for now.

Shooting starts tomorrow. excitement.

:D

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:: 2008 14 April :: 5.44 pm

The darkness of night, a sweet embrace,
Silence and stillness mark the place.
Flame flickering in the tallow,
My breathing ragged, thin and shallow.

The day's troubles are written in gossamer thread,
Laid to rest in memory as I lie in bed.
The threads woven tonight form an intricate lace,
along the edge of a quilt I cannot face.

A tapestry woven of pain and tears,
for just one night I set aside my fears.
For tonight you are with me, to steady my hand,
As it caresses the folds I cannot stand.

The first pieces I touch cause my breath to catch,
They tell of shame, and a door with a latch.
Dreadnought coarse against my skin,
Dredging up tears from deep within.

Over grosgrain and satin my fingers fly,
The fabric as slick as the oily lie.
Don't stir up trouble, keep quiet 'bout this,
I'll love you forever, sealed with a kiss.

Calico and Jersey help hide the shame,
Fabrics of innocence if only in name.
Crisp and clean, their fibers soft,
A simpler time when dreams were aloft.

Velvet and Taffeta, my very first dance,
Just me and my daddy, pain had no chance.
Rosettes and ribbon tied in a bow,
I kept my secret, and he didn't know.

Denim and Fleece, familiar and safe,
followed closely by burlap which causes my fingers to chafe.
These memories hidden and carefully guarded,
are leaving me restless, hurt and bombarded.

ehh. not my best. but it's a start. in case you hadn't noticed, it's time for us to talk...

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:: 2008 13 April :: 8.25 pm

I feel terrible when I misplace my cell phone.

school tomorrow. not looking forward to it. at all. 68 days.

as of 9:05 I have found my phone :D

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:: 2008 12 April :: 9.09 pm

40 School days left until graduation. It's insane. and really messing with my brain. It's a lot scarier than I thought it would be. the uncertainty of it all. very very very unnerving. And I have no idea what to expect from college. at all. :\

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:: 2008 7 April :: 10.35 pm

As Promised
I didn't try to read everything all at once. Just the last six months. Those of you who got linked here by the boy, thank you for taking care of him.
I honestly can say I appreciate it more than you know. Perhaps more than you'll ever know. At any rate, I apologize for such a lame first entry, but it's late, and last quarter just started, and well, I honestly don't know what to write. My brain is kinda fried.

Take care.

Edit:10:56
I'm back to 9/19/06 and have yet to find anything you haven't told me honey. Yes, it's kinda hard to read, but thank you for finally sharing it with me. I think I'm gonna go to bed. or something.

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