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:: 2004 22 March :: 7.48 pm
:: Mood: a sad way.
:: Music: parents listening to new Aerosmith..

he loves me, he loves me not.
Alex really..I don't know. I have it all pictured. he's not letting me down, but I'm sure breaking his fucking heart, aren't I?

I got straight A's again. you happy?

I don't really know what to write, because I don't really know what's happening. what I do know is, just kidding, I don't know anything. straight A's and she can't even figure out her own god damn boyfriend. what a smart girl.

does it feel like 20 below?

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:: 2004 21 March :: 7.54 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: TBS

You're so good..
today was great. I missed Alex so much..ah, I was so happy to see him. I went over there around 1230..we hung Panera..hung out..went to the art festival..went to Static, this awesome Hot Topic but not so popular and industrial kind of shop..went to Guitar something..and yea. the art festival was pretty interesting, I'm glad we went. I think we both liked the same one the best..this gothic, er, art student type of girl had these drawings? paintings? I forget..but they were really dark..most of them were of different girls with one distinguished cut on their arms, wrists, whatever. it was sad..but so real and so great. right after that, we lost the rest of the Coopers, so we just sat down and talked, and then went to the bridal shop where we planned to meet them. yea, it was cool..kind of hot..but it was hot. hah. at Static, I got a DKM patch for my patch purse..which looks super cool. I love it, and I'm proud of it because..I made it! I actually accomplished something just because I wanted to, not because I had to. haha, go me right? yea, my mom taught me to sew in like, 2 seconds..but it's all good. I didn't make it for it to look perfect..did that make sense? whatever.

I'm not one, for complainin'.

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:: 2004 20 March :: 1.22 pm
:: Mood: yea
:: Music: yea

lip kiss
kiss on the lips - you're sweet and simple but
quite daring. you move for the kill confidently
knowing the other person wants the same thing.

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it's all because I said I like to make out in the rain..I love you Alex.

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:: 2004 20 March :: 1.15 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: what I was listening to 5 minutes ago.

when did Finch and I become punk rock?
You are an Official Punk Rocker! You love to go to
shows, get bruised and cut, and love every
minute of it.

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okay 1. I'm not that crazy at shows.
and 2. Finch isn't "punk rock."..but it's still a good picture.

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:: 2004 20 March :: 1.04 pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: Matchbook Romance

I'm terrible at this, you know.
he just called me from his mom's cell. he lost his. wow, I feel better..I'm such a nerd..

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:: 2004 20 March :: 11.20 am
:: Mood: good
:: Music: Hidden In Plain View

I'm back.
something messed up, so my entry didn't show last night. oh well, it wasn't important. today, I'm hoping that my mom will follow through on her telling me that she'll take me to altamonte. you never know with her. I don't really care so much as to where we go, I just want to get out of this house.
I can't stop thinking about Alex. he's getting back tonight..:) :) :) but I haven't talked to him in like, 2 days now. this bothers me. I hope everything is okay, which I'm sure everything is, right? hmph. I turned extremely obsessive last night and called him about 6 times leaving 3 messages. I freak myself out. I was also reading our journal and I realized how much shit we've gone through together..and put each other through. it amazes me that we're still happily together after everything that's gone down in that little notebook. I love him so much.
alright well, I think I'll go take a shower. I feel icky. later.

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:: 2004 19 March :: 11.43 pm
:: Mood: pleased
:: Music: Konstantine is playing in the other room.

so I missed Woohu. yea.
today I haven't really done all. but I like it. not doing anything I mean. I did make a picture gallery..stole the idea from Chris, :). I miss Alex so much. this whole, going away for spring break thing was definately not cool. but at least he's having fun. he gets back tomorrow night..meaning I get to see him on Sunday. yay, thinking of this brightens up my day. I got pictures developed, and there's this one of him and I and he has the greatest smile ever. he looks so happy, I love it. yea so I think I'm gonna listen to something now. okay, we're listening to old SOTY..In Her Bedroom. good song. anyways. you're gonna think this is ultra stupid, but the main reason I didn't like Livejournal was because you can't change the size of your font. unless you have a paid account that is, but I wasn't about to by one. so that really upset me.
yesterday, weird? yea, weird. my sister came over in the morning and, ah, I don't feel like telling the whole story. forget it. I'm gonna go waste time by uh, using Quizilla, or something. later.

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:: 2004 19 March :: 12.50 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Matchbook Romance

I miss Woohu.

Opening credits:The Calendar Hung Itself-Bright Eyes
Waking up:Sleeping In-The Postal Service
Average day:Kill the Drama-Spitalfield
First date:Sucker-NFG
Falling in love:Echo-Trapt
Love scene:Konstantine-SoCo
Fight scene:Lipgloss and Letdown-A Static Lullaby
Breaking up:Time To Talk-Open Hand
Getting back together:I'll Catch You-The Get Up Kids
Secret love:Is This Thing Loaded?-Northstar
Life's okay:Opiate Summer-Vendetta Red
Mental breakdown:Someone's Standing On My Chest-Atreyu
Driving:Take Our Car Now!-Saves the Day
Learning a lesson:44.Caliber Love Letter-Alexisonfire
Deep thought:Walking By-SoCo
Flashback:Best of Me-TSL
Partying:Heeey Yaaaa-Outkast
Happy dance:Headfirst for Halos-MCR
Regreting:Fading the Kisses-The Lyndsay Diaries
Long night alone:Dashboard. period.
Death scene:Silver and Cold-AFI
Closing credits:Lipgloss and Black-Atreyu

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:: 2004 6 March :: 9.09 pm
:: Mood: tired

I've gotten so used to woohu that I don't know how I'm going to leave. actually, I think I just might keep both this and my new live journal..the link of which is..
so, read whichever, and if one hasn't been posted in a while, the other probably will. I'm gonna go post in livejournal, since it's new and all. happy anniversary to me and Alex. :) later.

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:: 2004 5 March :: 12.14 pm

You are, er, Marilyn.
You are Marilyn Manson.

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