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koalalady

:: 2022 22 July :: 9.59am

I got a twenty-dollar bill that says no one's ever seen you without makeup.
You're always made up.

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koalalady

:: 2022 25 June :: 7.52pm

Link: Abortion Access by State

This is bad, guys.

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koalalady

:: 2022 25 May :: 10.21am

Another school shooting. A crazy racist shoots up a grocery store.

Women forced to carry their unwanted pregnancies to term because some people believe that's what their god wants to happen.

I believe there are things worth protecting in my life, in the place where I live. I went to a protest on May 14th and shouted "our bodies, our choice" over and over until my throat was raw and my words rang senseless in my ears, becoming sounds without meaning. Over 1,000 of us circled the capitol building in downtown Raleigh, waving homemade signs and shaking the rain off our umbrellas. I wore rain boots with my good pearls.

I'm going to online orientation meetings about volunteering with Planned Parenthood. Yes, I'm angry, and I am not going to take this lying down. I'm channeling my rage into action, and if you care at all about what's happening, you should be too.

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koalalady

:: 2022 17 February :: 2.03pm

I know your MOTHA thinks that I'm nice, but she doesn't want you dating a Protestant

I know your MOTHA thinks I'm as cute as a koala, but half as intelligent

I saw your BROTHA down at the servo buying a carton of Camels

I saw your BROTHA getting a sticky with his mates, I think he's a pooftah

- Variations on "Like China" by Phil Collins

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koalalady

:: 2021 19 November :: 10.11am

There will be no candle of Hope this year. Hope is no longer enough. There will be no candle of Peace this year. For there is no peace without justice. There will be no candle of Joy this year. There are too many empty places at the table to rejoice. But there will be Light. Light that shines in the darkness illuminating injustice and indifference. The lights I kindle will join with the lights others kindle and expose the depravity that steals, kills and consumes our children and, those complicit with it. This Advent is a season of preparation. We have work to do. Stay awake. Stay awake to injustice. And stay awake to justice, wherever it may be lest we despair. Stay awake. Or, as we say on twitter: #StayWoke.

Translation by Wil Gafney, Ph.D.

^ This was written in 2014.

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koalalady

:: 2021 18 November :: 9.17am

Thank God Saturn is finally going direct again. Even Jesus has been asleep in the garden.

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koalalady

:: 2021 1 October :: 12.58pm

Salsa Verde Recipe

tomatillos
garlic - 2 garlic cloves
minced white onion
2 or 3 serrano chiles
cilantro

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koalalady

:: 2021 29 September :: 12.06pm
:: Mood: determined

life update / rant
Dad got heart surgery on September 7th. Double bypass. I've been staying with him in Michigan for the last three and a half weeks taking care of him. Spent a week in Spectrum Hospital downtown GR, visiting him every day. The day of the surgery was something else. Physically he's recovering really well, which is good news. Back on his feet, making his own meals, no infections or complications following the procedure, etc., etc. But there's a lot of other stuff going on...

Dad still has bed bugs and refuses to take action to get rid of them, so I've been staying in a camping tent with a blow-up mattress outside his house. Well, they found me anyway. I now have maybe 15 bites on my face, neck, and leg. I don't have a safe place to sleep or a way to get clean. We have an extermination scheduled for next week, so that's good. I'm trying to be patient and forgiving, but I am very upset that I've been exposed again. There's always a chance I can bring the bugs home with me. Even with all the precautions I took this time - poison, lemongrass oil, never wearing any clothes into my tent that have been inside the house, a goddamn tent OUTSIDE - it still didn't work. Based on their sheer tenacity and resourcefulness, I'd call them the Walter Whites of the insect world, but even he had some redeeming qualities.

Dad's memory loss is getting worse and worse, which is making his insulin pump increasingly impossible to manage (type 1 diabetic). I have a meeting with an assisted living facility next week and will be putting down a $2k deposit to get him on the waiting list. He can't live alone anymore. I'm going home next weekend, and crossing my fingers that he'll somehow manage to be OK until we get an opening and can move him in. Then he'll be in a much safer place, but his care bill will be $4500 a month (A MONTH) ad infinitum. God bless America.

To top it all off, my mom came down with a pretty serious case of COVID over the weekend. She went to the emergency room yesterday and they've got her on 15 litres of oxygen per day. She's lying on her stomach most of the time because it's easier to breathe that way. She's in North Carolina and since I'm currently in Michigan, with my hands already full taking care of my demented, bed-bug ridden dad, there's not much I can do at the moment - plus she's in a COVID isolation unit so no visitors allowed anyway.

She spent the last 18 months insisting that COVID was just like the regular flu, refused the vaccine, and was hurtful and abusive towards me at every turn (typical). Would I even visit her if I was back home in Chapel Hill? Probably - she's still my mom.

Some of my Michigan friends - M, K, R - all know I'm in town, and I've promised to work out a visit with each of them at some point - but how? I simply don't have the time. I know it would be good for me to see them face to face, but any time I *do* get to sneak away from my dad's care / bed bug prevention / communicating with family is pretty much going towards work. My boss has been great and very understanding. If I don't get enough raw time to throw at work though, I just won't make enough money to sustain my own needs.

Hence the reason I'm going home next weekend, no matter where Dad is at. I have to get back to my husband, back to my clean home, back to work, back to my life. I might even try to book a session with a therapist when I return to Chapel Hill because holy shit, this has been a LOT. Every day I feel like an air traffic controller, trying to maintain enough cognizance to get all these details and big logistics right. High stress, high focus, non-stop. But weirdly enough, I'm holding it together so far. I came into this knowing that it was going to be a lot. My dad needs me - this is something I had to do. So I don't have any regrets (unless I DO end up taking the bed bugs home with me...but I can't do any more than I'm already doing on that note).

That's it for now - just needed to shout into the void. Thanks.

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koalalady

:: 2021 8 July :: 9.22pm

Anniversary Plan
Mad Hatteras

Saturday, August 14
Picnic at Veterans' Memorial with champagne/wine from market nearby (I think there's one across the street)
Master and Margarita

Dinner @ the special seafood place on Neuse Harbour

Sunday, August 15
Beach Day

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koalalady

:: 2021 26 May :: 10.11am

"Blame is for God and small children." ~Dustin Hoffman as Louis Degas, Papillon

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koalalady

:: 2021 14 May :: 10.23pm

Gonna be in Michigan May 30 - June 6 at least, maybe a bit later in June.

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koalalady

:: 2021 28 April :: 7.23am

"If you were a lizard in the sun, I would capture you." <333

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