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christini

:: 2005 7 March :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: lazy

i love friends
i love fun
i love weekends minus sundays
i love driving
i love sunny beaches and hot boys that are found there
i hate school and all that comes along with it.
less than two weeks, and i will be driving to gainesville with my buddy sans parents.
YESSUH.!!!!!
that will be the high point until summer, a damn apex if you ask me.
get the ipods and radar detectors and car games ready, cause here we come. : D

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 6 February :: 11.33am
:: Mood: sick

el weekend
friday was nataliaz birthday partyyy..it was fun..natalia looked so0 pretty..me n van just talked....n yeah...saturday i cleaned..by this time..i felt so0 sick.sore throat..stuffy nose..u kno da deal lol..n 2day i feel worse..ugh.n im drinkin galllons of water so i can get better.n ive just been peein every 3 minz..lol..but i mussst get better b4 saturday..its the bigg day lol..but yeah.i hav no hw..im just doin laundry..yay....well imma go..happy superbowl

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 31 January :: 2.00pm
:: Mood: pissed off

i wunnnna cryyyy !!
so0 im in 2nd hr..n yadda yadda..i happen to look at my coach purse..n i see this burn mark on da side of it..like an actual hole..n burnt.n brown..n omg i wanted to cry..i spent alot of money on dat damn fuken purse.n itz ruinnned..n i like spent all of 2nd hr text'n eric..n cryin to him..he made me feel better..but im still so0 madd.. =( sighh..wen eric gets home were guna try to go to coach n have dem fix it or sumthin idk.. =/ but yeah.den i went to art..n i just painted..it was gay..mattlin wud not stop fukin hittin me.n i was not in da mo0d.i already have a bruise from him..so i take my pant brush n painted his whole arm..n he tried to rub it on my white pants..ugh.w/e lol den i went to english..n me n yeli just talked..den i went to lunch..n brian started callin me a potsmoker..cuz of my bag.lol i love timmy hez so0 funny..hez like my bestest frend..i walk outside.n him n matt are just pointin at me.n im like uhhh lol ..got sumthin to say..n tims like.so matt.on a scale from 1 to 10..how wud u rate melissa..n im like..o0h god..n der like oh yeah definitly a negative 2..i was like..yeah i kno..n der like no no i mean her body..i was like .ahh stop lol..n der like..i guess a 7.6..no 8.9...i was like wow 8.9 eh..n tims like..well ur like the sweetest person i kno..so that automatically gives u a point.lol..but since ur goin out with eric..thats like negative 50..lol..n i was like ok..if i wasnt.n hez like if u werent..prolly a 11.6..i was like hmm interesting..n den we were talkin about how we hate da beach.lol this kid is so0 funny..den i went to math..she changed every1's seat..but i still sit next to yeli !!! no1 can separate us..haha..lol..but jess sits so0 far.n same with natalia..ugh..gay..den my mom came n picked me up..n shes like..o0 while i was waitin der..dustin came up to me.n started to point at me..n my mom was like uhh..n dustins like..i knoooooo u....your melissa's mom..n she started pointin at him.n goes..o0..and ur dustin! lol..oddd..but yeah..sigh im still upset..well imma go ..byeeez

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 30 January :: 1.54pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: the darkness - i believe in a thing called love

wo0o!
cant explain all the feelings that ur makin me feel..my hearts in overdrive.n ur behind the steering wheel..touching u...touching meee..touching u..goddd ur touching mee..i believe in a thing called love..just listen to the rhythm of my heart..theres a chance we cud make it now..we'll be rockin till the sun goes down..i believe in a thing called love...i wunna kiss u every minute.every hour..every day..you got me in a spin.but everythin is a.ok

ahh i love that song..newhoooz..this weekend was very eventful..u could say..[ friday ] me n eric drove all around boca..lol..we went to jamba juice..o0o0h yeahh..its so0 orgasmic lol..yeah idk..we just drove around lol... [ saturday ] cleaned..made 20 bucks..got ready n went to that weddin i didnt wuna go to..idk it was fun cuz i saw my lil paige'y ..awww shes so0o cuteeeee..n adam..ah it was worth it..i mean we had fun.i didnt get home till like 1 ..den today [ sunday ] i woke up late...did da laundry.finished my hw..yo my whole family abodanded me..der still not home..oh wellz..i like the peace..but imma go..n do stuff..peaceeeeee out !!!

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 26 January :: 9.04pm
:: Mood: loved

ahh my baby is so0 cuteeee!!!
so0o my mom picks me up 2dai..n shes like..o0 derz a surprise for u..in ur ro0m..n im like..surprise? u bought me sumthing..uh is it a new dog or sumthin..lol n shes like no.n im like oh...hm den wha..n shes like u'll see.so0 i get home..i go to my ro0m.n on the dresser was a dozen yellow roses..i was like omg...n i read the lil card that was on it..n it was like... '' just because its wednesday love eric '' i was like.awwwwww !!!!!! =D ( even tho he jacked that idea from juwunna man ) lol it was still so0o cute..n ahh.it made me so0 happy..my babys so0o adorable i love him..n im gettin everything ready for that biggg valentine / half year anni weekend lol..but um 2dai at skoo was go0od..but i dun feel like talkin about it..my eyes hurt lol.wow i am so0oo0 sore from workin out..ow..but um i think imma bounce..peace cuh x0ox0

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 21 January :: 4.26pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: pretti rickie - grind on me

aaah
2dai was so0 much fun..skoo was an absoult blast..lol..1st hr..talked with van..n timmay..muy fun..den went to chem..did a lab..omg i love alex micheal fonte..he is da cutest..now potsmoker i kno lol..n we were talkin..n crackinnn up so0 hard..den i went to 5th..den me yeli n tim skipped went to lunch..den walked around da skoo..so0 fun..found mattlin n fonte...den lunch came..n mattlin bit my arm..omg it hurt so0 badd..den i went to 7th.eh it was ok..den i was walkin cinthia to her bus..wen i hear...melissssssa arguellooo is the biggest potsmoker..drinkin..love of my lifeeee...i was like ? lol..yea it was fonte..lol..n i was like..im what? n he like gave me the longest hug ever..hez like i love u soo much..im like are u high? n hez like no..buttt this weeekend..wooo yea..were so0 guna get crunkk...u to0..rite rite...u haveeee to come with me..n im like only if u can get cinthia to come..n hez like.ok cinthiaaa..wuna toke..n shes like uhhh? yea.n he started crackin up..omg he was soo off his rocker..lol..it was hilarious..i absoultly love that kid...den eric picked me up..n we were chillin outside my house..n we had another crazy silly momentos..i locked him out of his car agen..n im like crackin up..den ah he broke in.i didnt kno da back door was open..so i was like.o0 look ur wallet..n i got out of da car..n threw his wallet far away.n he ran after it.n i locked him out agen..all da doors lol..it was so0 funn..lol..yea..but idk wut im doin 2nite.eric wants to party..hmm idk..we'll see..but im guna go n eat sumthin..byeez x0ox

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 20 January :: 7.55pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: luda - blueberry yum yum

funnnn dayy
lets see..skoo was alrite..it was fun..cant complain...eric picked me up..den we spent 4ever in da car..in front of my driveway..talking..mostly..all about club times..god it was embaressin..he wanted to know everythin that went down in da club..lol..i told him..idk we were just crackin up..den we finally decided to go inside..n me monique n eric were chillen..lol.my baby is so0o funny..n i took off his hat.n he was sayin he had bad hair.it was all bad.n he didnt want me to take off his hat.. ( okaaay u cudnt even tell it was ''messed up'' but to him he hated t) so i rannn to my ro0m..n grabbed a comb..n started combin his hair..lol..hez like u have officially embaressed me 2dai..ive never felt so embaressed..u'll prolly do it agen..lol..idk i was sooooo hyperrr..den he had to go get gas..n hez like eh ill brb..i dun wuna go over der late..so we get outside.n i was sayin bye n alla that junk..den idk..i got even more hyper..n like skipped over to da van..n infront of my window..n i was like ericcccccc..comeeeeeee..lol..n we were spyin on monique in my ro0m.n she saw us...n den we were like idk..lol just playin around n shizz..me n eric started playin trust..so i wud fall bak.n i cudnt..lol..den i jumped on ericz back..to have a piggyback ride.n we almost fell..hah..n mo's in da window crackin up at me..n we were vogue'in..lol.den mo came out..n we were all like runnin around da yard..lol..it was soo like a reunion of our childhood'ness..i miss playin outside..n climbin trees..den were like playin hand clap games..lol.den i was like ok u gota leave..so me n monique joined arms..n marched into da house..cuz we left in a rude way..den we quietly tipped toe'd bak..n he was like tip toe'in to find us..lol..idk it was so0 funn..den were like ok were leavin..so we pretended we were goin inside..n he was like ''followin us'' so wut do i do..i see that he left his car door open...i effin dashed to his car..n locked him out..den he was like what..n mo dashed from da other side..n got into his car..n we totally locked him out..lmao..i was like on da floor it was so0 funny.n hez here tryin to open it.cuz he did have his keys..lol..but den he was like ahhh so0 tricky..lol he eventually broke in..lol..n hez like o0o0o yeah ur so guna get it now..n im like..bring it onnnn!!!!! so he tried to pull me out of his car..n like tickle me at da same time.n i cant stand ticklein..so i like freak out.n slap him..lol..n he went foward or w/e n we head butted eachother..lol.i have a hugeeee lumppppp on my forehead..lol..den he like got into da car with all of us..but in da back..n were like w/e..n were like goin thru his wallet.n stuff..n den me n mo were like o0 wutz in here..n u see a whole bunch of gum wrappers .n a calculator..n a lil box of mints..n im like o0o0o!!!!! these are my fav..n he starts to flip out..n hez like dun open it..n of course.that makes u wuna do it more..lol..i had to fite it for him..lol..he had a bunch of condoms in it..hahahaha..omg i was dyin..i was like awww..at least ur plannin to be safe with me..lol..n hez like..yeah..once agen..u've embaressed me..lol it was so0 funny..den yadda yadda.he left mo left.im here..full..n i got lotz of hw to do lol..lataaaaaaaaa homiez x0o

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 19 January :: 9.49am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: usher - caught up

yawnnn
well im not at skoo..cuz i had no ride.n my parents were like..dont go to skoo..so im like ok...cuz eric cudnt take me..den 20 minz later..hez like i can take u..den zac n yeli were like we'll take u..n i got all these invites..but nieh..skoo or stay home? yeah lol but im just here chillen..just had breakfast..scrammbled eggs with cheese n hotdogs with coffee..mmm.lol..godddd i fukennnn hate dumb effin sluts..wowow goddd..i cant stand herrrrrrr...i told eric wut she sed..he got all madd..n hez like..ok shes pissssin me off..im guna go online.n just go..u kno what ur so0o fucking dumb.did u knoooooo that..lol..he didnt tho..but umm..newho..v-day is commin up..so is a buncha stuff..what to get eric? hmmm i have an idea..but i wuna get him that for da year anni..n ill sooo kill him if he gets it b4 da year..lol..newayssssss....after skoo or w/e i gota go to hialeah..with monique her mom..n vivi..to get sum shoes for moniques quince..fun? maybe lol... =[ it suksz how eric doesnt have his cell..i hardly get to talk to him..it saddens me..he better fix it so0n..well i gotz nutten to say.ima just lie in my ro0m..n watch television...bye love you's

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christini

:: 2005 18 January :: 5.55pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: mae- soundtrack for our movie

I started to ache when I started to think of you, Wondering how long it would take before I step into something new.
There's only so much I can fake, There's only so much that I can prove.
Well, do it in a minute, I could go play the fool for you.

Lights, camera, action, I think I'm going for it this time.
There's something you should listen to, Could I take you for a car ride?
This is the soundtrack for our movie.
Would you tell me when we get to the best part?
I'll play it for you.
Oh no, I think I've lost this one, Can we try again?

Well I'm a wreck.
I really can't explain it but I, I hear the music when I look at you.
Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment.
Well, I'm so in love with you.

Are you looking for an answer?
Because I could really use a friend tonight.
We can make this last forever, we don't have to fear the sunlight.

I'll take a chance and steal away this movie moment.

I'm in deep whenever I'm with you.
I'm directing the scene that has you and me forever.
We'll I'm so in love with...


*shrug.

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lizzy

:: 2005 15 January :: 4.29pm

so eljay is malfunctioning. GASP. how do i know what my friends are doing every second? i only wish i was being facetious :-/

the first week back was alright...thursday after NHS tina kat and i adventured to dunkin donuts. "are you hispanic?" ...no. lol. it was good spending time with tina :) she gets me. friday afternoon we all got very wet cuz...yea it was raining hard. i broke my shoe :-/ ...hey mom, do i hear new shoes? :D i just got new shoes tho....oh well! then at night christine, rach, danielle, jess, adam, armando, ari, and i met up to see a movie and eat at carrabas. we saw in good company, which i'll admit had its funny moments, but overall was just eh. the dinner was nice, a lot of comedic relief, none of which i really remember. lol.

today i feel alright, cept who went back to procrastinating her saturday away? i guess i can still salvage some of it though. JOY.

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 15 January :: 12.32pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: monica - for u i will

i love my baby
so0o on thrusday is was me n ericz 5 months anni...he gave me this cute love card..n he made this lil heart booklet..that sed...5 reasons why im the luckiest guy in the world to be with a girl like u...n yeah it was so0o cutee...den we went to get sum icecream..den came bak to my house n just watched tv..den last nite..we went out to da beach..n just walked along da beach..n hung out.idk.it was great.i love him..sigh..newho..2dai i went out to breakfast with da family.n we rented napoleon dinomite agen..so imma watch it agen so0n...n 2dai.idk if i can go out.my fasha is bein a lil a-hole bout me goin out..but 2morro i wunnnnna go to paladium..we'll see.n monday..beach? maybe?...hmm idk..iight imma go.lovee u'z

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 12 January :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: nb ridaz - wishin

havent updated in awhile
so0 yeahh skoos back..umm all my classes are the same cept law studies..now i have pysch 2..n omg i loveee that class..everyyyyyy1 is in it..like my one n only lover van =] ah itz the 1st class 2getha since freshman year..ive been so0 deprived lol..n my timmmmmy is in der..ahh lol n zac n courtneee n steph..itz so0o str8..we've been watchin donny darko in class..umm..other den that yea..2dai in chem..like b4 da break..we had to write sumthin about every1 in the class that was positive..like..u kno..adam that sits up front..write hez nice u kno...n u didnt have to put ur name..newho...we got a paper back..with all the things that ur classmate rote about u..n think about u..all on a piece of paper...mine went sumthing like this..... *cute,funny,kind,sense of humor, really nice, fun, co0ol, nice smile, nice hair, go0d frend, very nice, nicest person in the world ( that was from fonte lol ) , she is a go0d frend, nice personality, pretty smile, nice frend and veryy pretty, interesting and smart, quiet but helps wen u need it ( ? ) , quiet and kind, funny, she is smart, nice personality, funny, go0d lab partner, hard workin, n co0ol personality * yupp thats wut ppl think about me lol...n yeah...o0h i am so0o0o0o glad that kaila is havin a great time in OH..what a relief for me..lol.....n ummm o0h yeah 2morro is a very special day..itz vannnn's bday!!!! and itz me n erics 5 months anniversary =D so0o happy ahhh lol..but um i g2g..n wash my face n stuff..love u byee

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 8 January :: 10.27am
:: Mood: blah

*yawnn* go0d mornin
man im still so tired.n i slept a go0d 10 hourz..im guna die wen skoo starts...well last nite was alot of funnn...me eric n kailaa..went to muvico..n saw white noise..ahhh lol it was so0ooo0o0 scary..like it def made up for the past non-scary movies that ive seen..it was def creepy..n surprising we got tix n seats really fast n easy..mayb itz cuz we saw a 7:30 movie..hmm idk..den after da movies my baby got me taco bell..cuz i was seriously guna die..if i didnt eat sumthin lol..but yeah..2day..idk omar wanted to go to da beach ( i didnt ) but i think he just went to da pool without me..oh well..i dun care..even tho i need a tan.i wuna loose weight b4 i get into a bathin suit...god im tired..iight imma go..byeeeeez x0ox

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liddlebaby

:: 2005 6 January :: 4.34pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: gemini - crazy for u

yadda yadda yadda
newho..umm..2dai was a whatever day..woke up late..ate breakfast/lunch..took off my nails..which took exactly 3 hourz..godd..but at least der off i feel better..ill prolly get em done at da end of da month..cuz i have this wedding to go to..umm..lets see yesterday was a go0d day..me n eric went job searchin..we went to sports authority [him] den tj max [him] booksamillion [him] then party city [meee] lol..den we had cici's pizza.yummmmmm...oh man..i havent had that in ages..i was stuffed...n i love my baby..he is so0 hottt..i love him so0o0o much <33...he workz 2dai..blah..o0h im like gettin over my cold i feel 89% better..which is go0o0od...now im eatin tostitos with salsa..mmm..2morro is friday..i duno wut imma do..n =[ so0n skoo will start...umm monique's quince is so0n..well in june..but still lol..i heard her dress is so0o0 pretty.n dress she got for me for the court is pretty to0..itz lavender..ive never had nethin lavender..o0h well..ders a 1st time for everything..wOw i have to pee agen..iight imma go lol..byeeeez x0xo0ox

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christini

:: 2005 5 January :: 5.11pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: the postal service- nothing better

Will someone please call a surgeon who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart that you're deserting for better company? I can't accept that it's over, i will block the door like a goalie tending the net in the third quarter of a tied game rivalry. so just say how to make it right. and i swear i'll do my best to comply. tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better than making you my bride and slowly growing old together ?

I feel i must interject here. you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself with these revisions and gaps in history. so let me help you remember. i've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear. i've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave. so please back away and let me go.

i can't my darling i love you so... tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better than making you my bride and slowly growing old together?

don't you feed me line about some idealistic future. your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures.

i admit that i have made mistakes, and i swear i'll never wrong you again.

you've got a lure i can't deny, but you've had your chance so say goodbye.

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