i'm too old to dream

i'm too old to dream

:: 2008 15 July :: 9.05 pm

so, i guess we're all really busy adults.

how depressing.

i miss you guys.

i'm working 10 hr days.

help!

:: 2008 29 May :: 11.19 pm

venus was a fly trap
the man you loved devoured
i used to dream about your sister
standing in the shower
but i was never cool
you thought i was a cowboy
i wonder where my gun is
can you spare a bullet, senorita?

i will always be the worst

generation X-wing
that's got to be the death star
i used to dream about the future
i used to dream about a lot of things
but i was never cool
so you can call me loser
yeah, you can call me
anything you want to, senorita

i will always be the worst

help me up with
a pair of wings
a little rope
all those things
she always said i'd find the cure for cancer
i read my horoscope but i just can't pull it off alone

:: 2008 28 May :: 12.04 pm

i can tell you how this ends
i think the high price of gas is GREAT!

people are supposedly driving less and less, which means a decrease in pollution, noise, congestion, and isolation behind metal and plastic encasing.

a latency effect is an increase in social contact and interaction. perhaps more human touch. more exercise. more cooperation.

of course, it could also bring about a lot of crime. a lot of anxiety, depression, frustration.

this is a really interesting situation and time to be alive. it's exciting. things are happening. let's see what the fuck we can come up with to destroy or save ourselves.

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:: 2008 7 May :: 5.38 pm

"You have a serious problem of distorting reality. You could sleep with the entire planet and still feel rejected."

:: 2008 5 May :: 1.12 pm

flux by bloc party
if your right hand is causing you pain
cut it off
cut it off
if your colors have started to run
let them all run, run away from you

there is lightning in this room
above our heads
waiting to strike
i'm a thinker
not a talker
put your faith
your faith in god

we were hoping for some romance
all we found was more despair
we must talk about our problems
we are in a state of flux

i'd kill for an adventure
just you and i
in the curzon bar
dancing until we knew
so all that we've learned disappears

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:: 2008 3 February :: 2.45 pm

music is such a huge force in my life. it brings comfort. i feel like my favorite artists and musicians are my friends, in a way. they open themselves up to such an intense degree, it certainly does provide the kind of intimacy that deep friendships attain through reciprocal disclosure. they know nothing of me, but i definitely feel close to these people. i dream about billy corgan, tori amos, and kurt cobain a lot. these are people i relate to and respect, and feel an ethereal connection to that is unexplainable in terms of time and space.

songs maintain familiarity, like the smell of a family cottage or the no-longer annoying creak of an old door hinge. a recording of a song is always going to sound the same (in the most general sense) and the lyrics will always be the same. the vocals will sound the same, too -- even the little mistakes or off-key parts or whispers. it's so nice to listen to something that brought pleasure or kept you sane years earlier and realize that it is still effective today.

i am very sensitive to my surroundings, particularly anything musical. it's like i become part of songs when i listen to them, and i feel everything the singer and instruments are expressing, even if i have never actually experienced those things myself. it's slightly dangerous because i absorb others' emotions quite readily. it's also very beautiful. i'm glad i have this kind of sensory/perceptual experience with music.

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:: 2008 30 January :: 4.22 pm

tax tip for the day
you can e-file your taxes AND have your money wired direct deposit to a variety of accounts (checking, savings, other financial institutions) instead of waiting for a check to come in the mail.

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:: 2008 29 January :: 6.06 pm

lorenzo's tax tip of the day
technically, you are supposed to claim internet purchases made from other states on your MI state tax returns.

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:: 2007 27 December :: 2.27 pm

i'm in love with your pills
now i can get rid of myself
if all of this kills
why am i so hard on myself?