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:: 2004 22 May :: 1.22pm
:: Music: The used

from the way that you acted
to the way that I felt it
It wasn't worth my time
and now it's sad cause all I missed
wasn't that good to begin with
and now I've started you begging
saying things that you don't mean
it isn't worth my time
a line's a dime a million times
and I'm about to see all of them

Goodbye to you
you're taking up my time

you call my name when I wake up
to see things go your way
i'm coughing up my time
each drag's a drop of blood a grain
a minute of my life
it's all I've got just to stay down
why the fuck am I still down
I'm hoarding all thats mine
each time I let just one slip by
I'm wasting what is mine

I'm about to see a million things
I thought I'd never see before
And I'm
I'm about to do all of the things i dreamed of
And i dont even miss you at all

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to you
you're taking up my time

~The USed_Bulimic

....this song describes exactly how i feel about a certain few people that i used to associate with. Last night was so amazing i went to rays house and we hung out and it was soo much fun and last night along with many other times that i have been with him have made me realize how much i love him!!! :)

my other lover is comming over soon (ashlie ) were gonna go to the mall then to that party tonight, it shall be fun. well im gonna go now


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:: 2004 22 May :: 10.14am


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:: 2004 20 May :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: :)
:: Music: Death cab for Cutie :-D

My dick in your mouf
my chcikens are really loud...MMmmmMM i think im gonna make me some chicken nuggets...;) tee hee hee

Fuck, that party..on saturday, ne one going?

~Peace nigga~

I love Ray

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:: 2004 20 May :: 3.16pm
:: Mood: calm

mmm carrie smell
today was relaxing and funny...funny cuz of 7th relaxing for the rest.

bear played with my hair in yearbook and i was wearing charlies sweatshirt and mmm it made me so happy, i could have fallen asleep. yay

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:: 2004 19 May :: 3.38pm
:: Mood: confused.
:: Music: a perfect circle.

what the hell is going on?

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:: 2004 18 May :: 3.17pm
:: Mood: extastic
:: Music: chirping...lots of it

I got CHICKENS!!!!!!!!! ....i went over to rays house yesterday and he lives on a farm kinda and they got 26 new little baby chickens and they said i could take one home...and i named it bandit, and i think it thinks im it's mommy cause it follows me everywhere. :) its sooo cute though and then they were like well your gonna have to take another one so he dosen't die of lonliness...so i got another one..and i havent decided on a name yet im either gonna name it ducky or smokey cause its gray and black and white. and Bandit is yellow and white,but there both boys which mean's there COCkS heheh and all that good stuff but eventually im gonna bring them back to rays house cause they will be too big and they will be full grown roosters and my dad wont let me have them running around the house..there soo loud though..and they peck everything. i was laying on my bed with them and one of em pecked me in the eye :( ..heheh and right now i ahve them up on the computer desk and he started pecking at the screen where the mouse was moving around on the computer...it was very funny...yes well besides my new chickens :) i think im suposed to be going to some party in Briarcliff this weekend...hmm with a ashlie and ray and Christian and a bunch of people i don't know...but it costs 8 bucks to get in so i dunno...last weekend was fun we went on my boat and went tubing. ashlie and ray came and we all got very sun burnt...umm friday i spent the night at ashlies...Lots of fun things went on there all throught out the night ;)...yeah i m really tired though so im gonna try to sleep though i doubt ill be able to with all the chirping..what ebba..


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:: 2004 17 May :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: tv

i'm completely torn between two things that haven't even happened....

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:: 2004 16 May :: 5.54pm
:: Music: dave mattews band.

the space between.

You cannot quit me so quickly
Is no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you, love
The Space Between
The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep us safe from the pain
But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like 'Will it rain today?'
Waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted game we play
We're strange allies
With warring hearts
What wild-eyed beast you be
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep us safe from the pain
Will I hold you again?
Look at us spinning out in
The madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like a devil
In a church in the middle of a crowded room
All we can do, my love
Is hope we don't take this ship down
The Space Between
Where you're smiling high
Is where you'll find me if I get tickled
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight
Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splash in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into...
The Space Between
Our wicked lies
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain
Take my hand
'Cause we're walking out of here
Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here
The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time
The Space Between...

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:: 2004 15 May :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: dashboard in my head lala

tap dat shit
im so confused tonight, and last night was...well. confusing to say the least. i just dont know....

gah! something funny did happen though, charles and.... did....and it makes me laugh really, really hard. woot.

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:: 2004 14 May :: 11.28pm

oops. so i lied to myself again, oh well.

i'm really over everything with everyone. i dont know what started anything thats happening. im just as confused as anyone else...cant it just be over?

*i can feel your waves coming can you please speed up your current, time is expanding once again. i need you, i miss you, as you yearn for me*

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:: 2004 12 May :: 8.21pm
:: Mood: scared.
:: Music: cky.

bubble of thought.
my current thoughts to you:

fuck you.


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:: 2004 12 May :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: angry

i'm crumbling, everything i touch or think of turns to ashes...stay away from me, ill just hurt you in the end.

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:: 2004 11 May :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: Sleepy
:: Music: mest-rooftops

I just woke up yayy...i was very tired, I was suposed to go to some latin rythem club at school with ash-leigh but she didn't go cause we didn't have a ride home so we didn't go :(..whatever, dance isn't really my thing ne way art is :) :)...yeah so last weekend was pretty fun, well atleast friday night at the movies was.....but were not gonna get into that, then saturday me and ash-leigh hoplessly wodered what we would do all day. so we decided to walk to subway..cause were pimps and subway is cool, then my dizz-ad came and picked us up and we went to the mall for a little shopping...thats always fun. then we came home to my house and ashlie had to leave shortly after, then i demanded to my dad that he would let me go driving...and he was like no my back hurts...so i was like wahh and i sat on the computer some more then a little while later he came out and was like ok lets go..i was sooo happy, he drove to prime time Video then i was liek can i drive now so he let me drive all the way to home depot in south Ft. Myers, then to the wall mart next to it, then when we were done at wally world he let me drive all the way home..it was exciting concidering that i have only drove like 3 times before that and im not even 15 yet....woot......then sunday was mothers day...blah, church then brunch at Brixz, but then i got to drive home from Brixz...fun :)...now im listening to Lost Prophets, Shnobi Vs. dragon and it reminds me of that hoobastanl and lost Prophets concert and the huge pit that opened up in this song it was soo fucking crazy, and those stupid ass preppy chicks that me and ashlie decide that we would..hmmm...*Mosh* with even though they werent even moshing but we decided that it would be fun to kick there ass's, lOts O fun ;)....Yes Indeed

yesterday i went to Rays house :). when i got there he gave me a shirt that he got me at the blink 182 and Taking Back Sunday concert he went to. its Bright green, My favorite color and it says Taking back sunday on it, i felt all special and stuff...

Im bored, i have a lot of home work to do...kinda and i have to go run so i think that will be all for now...oh yeah tomorrow im finally getting my hair colored for real, i even have an appointment..*!!!YAYY!!!*

Ok, bye everyone..


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:: 2004 11 May :: 5.39pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: taking back sunday

you people make me laugh teribbly hard.

to my bear: you can get through this emo time of yours, you can.

muaha. my day kicked. im doing a whole lot of nothing in most of my classes and its amazing.

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:: 2004 9 May :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: scared.
:: Music: garbage.

words ill regret saying tomorrow...
i thought i could handle this.
i thought i was strong.
i hate not knowing. i hate feeling like this and saying these words.
maybe its done, maybe its not.
i fucking hate this.
i hate loving you but i live to love you.
i love you and thats why its so hard.
i cant handle this much longer but i have to. its better than the alternative.


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