I want a love like me,
thinking of you
thinking of me
thinking of you type love,
or me telling my friends
more than I've ever admitted to myself
about how I feel about you type love
or, hating how jealous you are,
but, loving how much you want me all to your self type love
or, seeing how your first name sounds so good next to my last name
and shit, I wanted to see how far I could get without calling you
and I, barely made it out of my garage.

I want a love that makes me wait until she falls asleep
then wonder if she dreaming about us being in love type love
or who loves the other more
or, what she's doing at this exact moment
or, slow dancing in the middle of our apartment to the
music of our hearts, closing my eyes and imagining how a
love so good could, hurt so much when she's not there
and, shit I love not knowing where this love is headed type love.

And check this, I want to place those little post-it notes
all around the house, so she never forgets how much I love her type love
then not have enough ink in my pen to write
all there is to love about her type love
and, hope that I make her feel as good as she makes me feel
and I want to deal with my friend making fun of me
the way I made fun of them
when they went through the same kind of love type love
only difference is
this is one of those real love type love.

And just like in high school
I wanna spend hours on the phone not saying shit
then fall asleep then wake up with her right next to me
then smell her all up in my covers type love
and I wanna try counting the ways I love her
then lose count in the middle
just so that I have to start all over again
and I want to celebrate one of those one month anniverseries
even though they aren't really anniverseries
but doing it because it makes her happy type loves.

And check this
I want to fall in love with the melody the
phone plays when her number is dialed into it type love.
Talk to you until I lose my breath
she leaves me breathless
for with expanding my lungs
I inhale all of her back into me.

I want a love that makes me change my cell phone calling plan
to something that allows me to talk to her longer,
because, in all honesty,
I want to avoid one of them high
cell phone bill type loves.

And I want a love that makes me regret how small my hands are,
I mean the lines on my palms don't give me enough time
to love you as long as I'd like to type love.
I want a love that makes me st-st-st-st-stutter just thinking
about how strong this love is type love.

And I want a love that makes me want to cut off all my hair.
well, maybe not all of the hair,
maybe I cut the split ends and trim my mustache,
but it will still be a symbol of how strong my love is for her.

I kind of feel comfortable now,
I even be fantasizing about walking out on a
green light just dying to get hit by a car
just so I could lose my memory
get transported to some third world country
just to get treated
then somehow meet up again with you
so I could fall in love with you in

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My heart aches for you.
I wish I could tell you that.

okay