[siiiiiiigh] power, what a wonderful thing...


OMFG. freaking hurricanes are gay. jeanne killed our power but to make us suffer, more than half of my neighborhood had power. liek only my street and camilas street was outta power. for like hmm 3 days now? well yesterday we went to scotts house and him and zach wouldnt let us in so we jus walked around and then went home. then later that day we went to marcus and stefan's house and they let us in. but their AC was like barely on..wtf?!? lol. aww their dad was like sooo nice. hehe. then we stood outside for like 2 hours in the pouring rain. twas fun. today did nothing. went to publix and drove home. yay. then laid out to get a tan and then ended up becoming sick with heat exhaustion so i sat in the cold shower lol. then me and camila went to sum gay ass ghetto dollar store where she almost squashed her brother to death..LMAO!! then we ate pizza. came home. practically melted to death. then was about to cry myself to sleep cuz it was so fucking hot and magically...the power came on!! now i only have 15 minutes left online cuz my dads being gay. grr. well i have a ideas for a journal entry i jus wil have to wait till tomorrow to write it. ok bye.

-later EVERYONE-

<33333333-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

is it all or are we just friends?...

grrr. i wish thes damn hurricanes would stop picking on us. im sooo damn bored. theres nothing to do. i was gunna go outside with camila, scott, and zach but it started pouring like a motherf*cker. grrr ness x 483958349584. i hate this. its only 2 and i ran out of things to do. bafangul!

i was trying realy hard to think of sumthing meaningful to write in here in order to fix sumthing, but nothing i think of seems to be enough. i really hurt him, but now this silence is killing me...

-later gators-

<3-janelle.


"never look back we said,
but how was i to know
i'd miss you so?"

2 _* | ...[Ryan

i saw this coming still i dont know why i let you in...


blah tonight was utterly gay. went to the movies with zach and scott and met up with jeremy and chris. jeremy was bothering me and yeah. then joe showed up and so did annavictoria! thank the lord! <3. so we hung out the whole time. it was pretty damn boring there was like no one there. saw owen there and lisa. and we went to mcdonalds and we saw lucy. then my dad came and piked me scott and zach up then i went home and did nothing. blah. stuipd hurricane is coming so now i cant go to the mall tomorrow with chris and whoever else was going. bafangul. well im gunna go get sum sleep for tomorrow when we must endure the wrath of jeanne. =[

-later lovers-

<3-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

if i had one wish and 10 seconds to think of what it should be, i'd know exactly what i want....


1/2 DAY hoes!!!

school was a waste of time lol. got my progress report, all B's and one fucking A. that sucks huge penis. its absolutely unacceptable. ive never done that bad before. gahhhhh!! and then in 6th hour sean wrote "janelle is a slut" all over it so grrr. lol. after school were we supposed to walk with chris and jeremy and gustavo but they left us so we talked to damien then walked home. then we walked up to wendys and there were enuff middle schoolers there to like take over the whole fucking world. lol. then lucy and bryan duggen with two g's showed up. blah he bugs me. then we walked to the new park and there were EVEN MORE middle schoolers. there was like this big ass group of them like fighting so the cops showed up and everyone ran. cept us cuz we didnt do anything. so they skated teh 5-stair untilt he cops told us to leave. sum nice lady at the picnic table told us to sit with her and say we were with her so that when the cops left we culd stay. she was super cool. lol. we like talked to her for 30 minutes. then mike came and then they all skated for and incredibly long period of time. then we went bak to wendys, well only me, camila, nicole, chris, jeremy and galarko!!! lol. i forgot bout him. eek. lol. then they ate and shit and skated sum more...saw mike (wow he got really hot since the last time i spoke to him) then we walked to nicoles house and i had to go home. bafangul!! my shoulders and back and neck are in like 100% pain right now cuz i had to carry chris fucking backpack like evrywhere cuz he "injured" his shoulder. dude u so owe me, even if my shuolders dont fall off by tomorrow!!!! lol. but yeah i have no hw and this is like the 1st time since school started. im soooo happy. but im gunna go register to win a concert by RYAN CABRERA at our school. damn if i dont win i think im gunna fucking die....

-later people-

<33-janelle


--ouch! i got really sunburned today. damn florida and its sun and hurricanes!!

--ooh and one more thing minus all the "personal" stuff.....im still quite upset about what happened and i just wish max would talk to me...=[

5 _* | ...[Ryan

just a boy, just an ordinary boy, but he was looking towards the sky...


AHHHHHHH!!!! Fuck!! . i swore i would never update this bitch again but i cant help myself. im like seriously addicted to writing the retarded everyday things that happen to me. well ive decided to keep my journal jus im not writing anything personal in it. ohkay? now everyone should be happy and thats all i want. =]

so anyways....saturday me and camila went to the mall. it was gay we met up with kristin and allison but left them when they wanted to go to abercrombie and fitch. lol. then we ended up being there till like 8 cuz camilas family bought new cell phones. OMFG i thought the world was coming to and end. we saw a man wearing a skirt and he was very very hairy. lol. eww. then we went out to dinner at smokey bones,,, it was ok but we didnt see peter working there *tear* but i did go over to target and saw andrew!! <3 aw i miss him and all my olympic friends. then went to blockbuster and saw eric medina and sean o'dell. then went to camilas and watched "Godsend" fucking scary ass movie. i hated it. then slept over. suday went to suzie and carlos' for dinner. it wasnt bad. they are soo nice i love them. but yeah. monday school sucked big penis. tuesday school sucked even bigger penis. thursday we have a half day. if sumone doesnt make plans im gunna get a ride to olympic to chill with all my sexy lovers!! <33. bafangul! i miss them. so yeah. im gunna go. nothing more to say.

-later niggers-

<33-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

once again, my words screw me over...


I AM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT.


im done with this online journal shit.

5 _* | ...[Ryan

if all of the things you thought you would be pass you by....

tonight went to football game. it was kickass awesome. ive never had more fun before. everybody who was anybody was there. we all hung out on top of the bleachers screaming our lungsout, then we watched the band warm up. then they all tried to skate and then we all jus kinda hung out. it was me, camila, kelsey, olivia (they are such cool ppl. espec. kelsey cuz like she rocks and carol and katie etc. dont like her eitehr!! lol), scott, gustavo, chris, jeremy, kevin, sean, anthony, juliano, lucy, martin, nick, jd, allie, valerie, omg and i saw kelsey muldoon!! <33 and yeah more ppl that dont really matter lol. it was soo freakin hot outside. omg and martin helped me learn how to drop in off a curb. it was sooo wicked!! lol then took scott and gustavo home. now im here, tired, sore, and smelly. hehehe. buhbye.

-peace foo-


~****oh yeah, and i forgot, that when the band played, i stayed and watched the ENTIRE FUCKING THING. even when everyone else left me. i stayed and i watched. not becuz i had to, but becuz i wanted to.... but w/e no one really cares. so later. =]

1 _* | ...[Ryan

forget about the reason why....


last night wasnt as bad as i thought it was gunna be. didnt end up going out anywhere since theres really no where to go. so daddy had to make dinner so he was gunna get subway but i didnt want that so he siad i could get wendys if i walked over there from subway. i didnt want to so i threw a hissy fit until he took me thru the drivethru. lol im such a brat =] i saw nicole and nikki up there. came home and went online and stuff. then talked on the phone with gustavo and chris. crazy kids. lol. and then with hillary. then i slept over camilas house and i talked to ppl online and andrew tried to help me with my bf problem. lol thanks. then we went to sleep early cuz there was nothing to watch on tv. woke up an hour ago and camila is still sleeping so i ate her food. lol. dunno what im doing today since its that rosh hasahanah thingy. chris mite come over hur today. mayb nicole and nikki too. but yes. im gunna go slap camila repeatedly till she awakens.

-later chicos-

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

survey foos


Three things that scare me:
1: spiders
2: public speaking
3: blood
Three people who make me laugh:
1: camila
2: chris & gustavo
3: pretty much everyone
Three Things I love:
1: my friends
2: playing in the rain
3: getting note from people
Three Things I hate:
1: preps
2: g-units
3: ap english class
Three things I don't understand:
1: who created the alphabet
2: how ppl cant believe in God
3: falling in love
Three things on my desk:
1: stapler
2: coke
3: ryan cabrera cd <3
Three things I'm doing right now:
1: taking this survey thingy
2: talking to chris online
3: being bored
Three things I want to do before I die:
1: meet ryan cabrera
2: get married to the above^^
3: have lil cabrera babies lol
Three things I can do:
1: speak english
2: be retarded
3: type
Three ways to describe my personality:
1: i dunno
2: people (esp. dudes) always tell
3: me that it rocks. whatever that means. lol
Three things I can't do:
1: dance (hips are broken) lol
2: sing
3: skateboard

[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]

What's your name? ::: janelle
Birthplace ::: wisconsin foo!
Age ::: 16
Age you act ::: 6
Current location ::: in a house in gay florida
Eye color ::: they change color..like a lizard!
Hair color ::: blonde with black highlights
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: righty
Zodiac sign? ::: aries
Height? ::: 5'6"

[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]

Your heritage/nationality ::: american? mayb a lil german
Your hair ::: meduim length, straight, blonde
Your fears ::: spiders, public speaking
Your perfect room ::: black with white glow in the dark stars EVERYWHERE!
What you practically do in a day ::: go to school, do hw, sleep, repeat

[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]

Words you overuse ::: fuck!
Phrases you overuse ::: wow im retarded, and what the fuck
Your first thought when you wake up ::: wtf! how can it be 5:30 already?!?
Your greatest accomplishment ::: 4.0 in 10th grade
Something you want to do ::: go to italy and met a cute italian boy hehe

[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]

Pepsi or Coke ::: Coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: mc donalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: spears
Chocolate or vanilla ::: vanilla hoe!
Adidas or Nike ::: adidas
Black or white ::: black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: bills
Burgers or hot dogs ::: hot dogs
Egypt or France ::: france
Rock or rap ::: Rock

[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]

Smoke ::: nope
Cuss ::: all the time
Sing well ::: yeah riiiight
Sing in the shower ::: si
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: yeah, ppl have told me i shuld seek professional help..
Believe in yourself ::: at times
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: yes actually
Play an instrument ::: no way
Want to go to college? ::: of course
Want to get married? ::: yeah
Want to have children? ::: yes like 1 or 2
Think you're a health freak? ::: nooope
Get along with your parents ::: yeahh
Get along with your siblings? ::: not often but occasionally
Think you're popular ::: ha no and i dont want to be. ima fucking rebel! lol

[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]

Gone out of state ::: noo
Drank alchohal ::: yes but shhh....
Smoke ::: nope
Get high ::: uh no
Done any drugs ::: no for the 3rd time
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: ew gross oreos=ew
Been on stage ::: not in front of like an audience
Gone skinny dipping ::: no way jose!
Been dumped ::: yepp
Dyed your hair ::: constantly
Stolen anything ::: ha yeah...

[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]

Craziest ::: juliano and dana
Loudest ::: scott when he screams
Most shy ::: chris cuz he never speaks!
Blondest ::: ha me?
Smartest ::: janis/sarah
Kindest ::: janis/angela
Best personality ::: i dont know
Most talented ::: none? lol
Best singer ::: def. not camila
Most ghetto ::: chris or max with their gay "No problems" shit lol
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: camila lol
Pain in the ass ::: camila =]
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: gustavo lol jk
Funniest ::: aanonthony!!! lol
Best person for advice ::: my mom cuz my friends suck cock when it comes to advice
Dependable ::: most of them
Trustworthy ::: hillary
Druggie ::: danny lol
Most likely to end up in jail ::: either juliano, alex or scott
Person you've known the longest ::: hillary and mike

[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]

Last dream ::: i dont usually dream
Last nightmare ::: dont know
Car ride ::: today to get dinner
Last time you cried ::: almost today, but it was sunday nite i believe that i actually cried
Last movie seen ::: anacondas
Last movie rented ::: cant remember
Last book read ::: scarlett letter
Last word said ::: hi mommy
Last curse word said ::: ass
Last time you laugh ::: jus now
Last phone call ::: 10 minutes ago from camila
Last CD played ::: ryan carbera biotch!
Last song you listened to ::: Shame on Me by Ryan Cabrera
Last annoyance ::: my bladder..i haveta pee but i dun wanna get up
Last IM ::: chris and gustavo
Last weird encounter ::: yesterday when RJ randomly said he loves me..wtf? lol i thought it was funny
Last person you hugged ::: jaryd
Last person you yelled at ::: either camila or jd
Last time you wore a skirt :::yesterday
Last time you've been evil ::: today
Sarcastic? ::: today
Last time you fought with your parents ::: today
Last time you wished upon a star ::: a few nights ago
Played Truth or Dare ::: that nite with max, chris, jeremy, and camila
Spent quality time alone ::: right now

[x] Part 9! -- Randomness [x]

Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: yes
Do you feel lonely ::: kinda
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: nope
How about egging someone's house ::: no
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: WHAT ARE U SAYING KID?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: no they suck hairy whale penis
Yo Momma ::: is ugly
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: omg yea lol
What do you think of George Bush? ::: he rocks my socks
Any secret fetishes? ::: I absolutely LOVE skater dudes
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: not at all
How many languages do you speak? ::: uno

[x}--More Surveyness--[x]

_+ full name: janelle leigh ?
_+ first crush: rocky
_+ what were u doing 15 mins ago: talking to ppl online and listening to sum gay rap song chris sent me
_+ what are u wearing now: bball pants and a shirt that doesnt match lol
_+ Do have a Cell phone?: yes sir
_+ u shy or outgoing: both
_+ sleep with stuffed animals: uh noo
_+ what do you want from a partner?: to treat me with respect and love me
_+ feature you notice first: personality and if they skate lol
_+ looks/personality: a little bit of both
_+ tan or fair: tan
_+ like flirting?: hell yeah
_+ would you ever date a friend: yep i always do


[x]-- Relationships --[x]

_+ do u have a LIKER?: well a few ppl like me and i like one person
_+ what is their name?: max..
_+ what is ur favorite thing to do with that special sumone: hold hands and sctually be together
_+ ever been in love?: not really
_+ Best friend: huh?


[x]- FAVORITES --[x]

_+ color: black and pink
_+ silver or gold: silver
_+ diamonds or pearls: diamonds
_+ showers or baths: shower
_+ food: chicken fingers
_+ current song: Predictable by good charlotte
_+ holidays: Christmas, my birthday
_+ animal: llamas and monkies
_+ drink: dr. pepper
_+ perfume: ralph lauren
_+ cologne: axe
_+ activity: hanging out at the movies or wathcing the boys skate
_+ fruit: strawberrries
_+ do you like to dance: yeahhh but i suck at it!


[x]- LAST TIME I - -[x]

_+ showered: this morning
_+ went runnin: dont know
_+ went to a movie: sunday night
_+ wished u were sumbody else: all the fucking time
_+ were depressed: today foo


[x]-- RANDOM - -[x]

_+ where would you love to travel to?: italy
_+ whats ur aim screen name: i have lots...
_+what do u want to do with your life?: go to college, get a good job, makes tons of money, and have a family
_+ last time you went to the doctor: in july when one of my piercings got majorly infected. Ouch that hurt!
_+ do u have a credit card: nope
_+ do u consider urself a "nice person" ?: yes.. generally.
_+ are u stressed out?: all the time
_+ do u believe in angels?: yeah
_+ do u think ur spoiled?: totally
_+ do u like mustard?: eww no
_+ have u seen the exorcist?: nope and i dont plan on it either

[x]-- DO YOU --[x]

_+ read the newspaper: only when i have english hw
_+ believe in miracles: yes
_+ like the taste of alcohol: some of them
_+ have any secrets: yes
_+ wish on stars: yes constantly...however, none of my wishes come true. hmph.
_+ believe in ghosts: nope
_+ take walks in the rain: all the time..who needs an umbrella?
_+ sing in the shower: haha yuppers


[x]-- i.. --[x]

_+ i am: upset
_+ i think: im fucking retarded
_+ i know: more than i should about someone...
_+ i have: to pee really really badly
_+ i wish: everything would go bak to the way it was a few weeks ago
_+ i hate: myself
_+ i miss: the old days
_+ i fear: what might happen within a few days
_+ i feel: sad and nervous
_+ i hear: ryan cabrera's beautiful voice singing
_+ i wonder: why i think about things to much
_+ i regret: that one journal entry...
_+ i love: hillary, mike, camila, kyrie, dilan, jack, mara, nikki, nicole, max, chris, jeremy, scott, gustavo, martin, nick, alex, juliano, johnny, jeremy gale, zach, amanda, lisa, janis, angela, sarah, desiree, kelsea, dana, grace, diana, scott alarcon, aanonthony, daniel, john, allie, kristin, derrick, jaryd, rj, danny, joe, russel, luciano, seth, the piercing kid lol, chris (wendy), gia, frank, matt, josh, jd,RYAN CABRERA, and all my other lovely amigos.
_+ i care: about my family
_+ i am not: in a good mood
_+ i cry: wayy too much
_+ i do not: have good luck with boyfriends...i always fuck everything up
_+ i never: smoke
_+ i confuse: me and everyone else

...[Ryan

i can finally see...dont feel sorry for me...


today sucked pretty much. english we were bombarded with work and took a test (super easy) and i was gunna present my political cartoon cuz i actually understood it but we didnt do presentations today...grrrr. then went to spansih and had to do our conversation presentations. i was scared shitless as usual. but didnt do too bad. i got an A. me and fernando realized we have 3 classes together. hes a cool dude. lunch gustavo and camila fought like usual and he sat on my head. lol. history we read the delcaration of independence..whoooa. lol. then algebra we took a test and learned sum new stuff, this girl in my class was soooo stoned sum ppl thought she mite be dead. lmao. silly stoners. =] after school talked to sum ppl. kelsey has the same sandals as me. lol then walked home with jd, marcus, and steven. we talked about sex of course. i always seem to have very amusing questions. lol. i learned alotttt. lol some things i didnt need to know tho... haha well now im trying to figure out what to do tonight. movies? mall? they both are getting so old. and none of my super cool jewish friends can hang out cuz of rosh hashanah (sp?). so yeah. im out.

-later hoes-

ps- you know what REALLY bothers me? ...
....
...
hypocrites.

i hate how people can go on and on complaining about sumone either doing or not doing something and then they go and do or not do the same fucking thing. this "incident" happened to me today before 2nd period. its sooo gay i wish i had said sumthin right then and there. ghsdgasdjkdf

2 _* | ...[Ryan

$%^HH**^^@@(*)(!!!


A "Profile-worthy" convo between me and my dear friend gustavo...


ihateuall34: would u swallow ryan cabrera's cum?
mrs cabrera 69: in a heartbeat


lmao. im such a loser =]

...[Ryan

in a moment, everything can change...


today was the first day back to school after our long hurricane break. it was nice sorta. didnt do anything in env. science. we never do anything. omg i seriously think that ms.dice, my ap english teacher, is freakin inhumane. we did 60 vocab cards and got 3 hw assignments in 50 minutes. in psych we watched a 9/11 tribute. it was really sad. i wanted to cry. lol. then did our group projects in spanish and im in a group with this chick and this dude fernando. hes cool. they both speak spanish so i feel like a total idiot, but what else is new? lunch was usual except that gustavo came up behind me and scared the crap outta me and i thought the world had come to an end. lol. ap historty was ok. no test =] . alg was gay. no test either its tomorrow. and chemistry was soo boring. dana was absent and i kept falling asleep. lol. after school i wanted to talk to max and stuff until he had band but he never came outta the band room...hmmm. whatever. so me and camila walked home with derrick, steven, and stevens brother. stevens brother was a sweetheart. he carried my heavy algebra book all the way home (alllll of us live in the same neighborhood and we never knew that lol). then camila and derrick left us so i had to walk home with them. then did sum hw. for sum reason i havent been feeling good lately. i keep getting this horrible nervous feeling in my stomach and not being able to sleep or concentrate on anything. im pretty sure i know why, and i want to figure out what to do about this "problem" but im jus sooo darn confused. ahhhh. well im gunna go do more hw.

-later dudes-

<3-janelle


--omg! i think this is the first time i have not swore once in a journal entry. Go Me!! lol

...[Ryan

something isnt right, i can feel it again...


dang. i had a wonderful nite last nite. ha! yeah right. well me, kristin, and camila made last minute plans to go to the movies. everyone was going. max went. not with us tho. we ran into him there with kat his "girlfriend" cuz shes not technically his ex cuz they didnt "break up" wtf. ahhh. yes but im not getting into that all yet. anyways...everyone went to see a movie, cept us so it was kinda boring till the movies got out. jeremy, alex, juli, katie, lauren, leanne, nick, martin, eric, scott, patrice, and sum others i cant remember were there. we went to mc donalds and i saw ANGELICA!!!!! ahhh i havent seen her since she moved. <33. then we went to talk to max...ehhh. that had to have been the most awkward thing ever. but whatever. then came home and heard sum stuff. sum really fucked up shit. wow. i know more than im supposed to but im damn glad i do. who the fuck does that to sumone. like seriously? i dont even know what to do. i cant ask my mom (my best friend lol) cuz i kno she'll jus tell me to tell him to fuck off. but i dont want to. but i should. ahhhhh. whatever.

-later losers-

...[Ryan

so take your words and your empty promises....im done with this...


yesterday was not a complete waste of a day. me and camila went to the mall at like 5:30. we walked around by ourselfs for a while and bought sandals at pac sun. then we ran into frank and matt and they made us pull this shock thing. owww it hurted. lol. then we left them and ended up meeting up with them again and they hung out with us. we met krisitn and her friend chelsea there. then we al hung out and we had sum japanese man pull the gum shock thing and it hurt/scared him so he threw it, broke it and was gunna keep it. frank wanted to like beat him up lol. then we sat int he food court and gustavo showed up and i kept having to test the shocker thing to see if it wuld work and the last time it hurt like a motherf*cker.....ahhh. then we took pics on their camera phones and frank and matt left and we went and ate dinner at fridays. then went home and chilled with gustavo till he left. then jeremy and scott came over at like 11:45 and we sat on the driveway and jeremy took camila around the block on his dirt bike. then we went int he back yard cuz of the mosquitoes. camila jumped in the pool. no one else did. lol then we jus talked and stuff and stated everyones problem. everyone said mine was that im stupid. lol. what else is new? but jeremy said its not necessarily a bad thing. cuz it makes him laugh. lol. then we looked at the stars and planned out a road trip to new york, georgia, and pennsyalvania. lol. cant wait. they left around 2 am and we didnt go to sleep till 4. woke at at 1 and the 3 of us did nothing alll day. now everyone wants to go to the movies....grrr to all of u. but i g2g shower and eat dinner..

-later babes-



OMFG i almost forgot, when we were waiting outside of fridays for camilas mom to pick us up, i saw a fish on the wall and we spent 20 minutes throwing things up at it trying to get it down. all the employees at fridays came out and were watching and sum family stopped to help us. lol. then we got it down and it turned out to be one of those rubber things that fishermen use to catch fish. LMAO. it looked soooo real tho....

...[Ryan

so let me slip away....


Question:


How do eskimos who live in igloos take showers?


please comment with your answers

this question is very puzzling. please help. lol

1 _* | ...[Ryan

we dont even talk no more, and you dont even call no more...

today was retarded. did nothing until 1:30 when me , alina and steph went up to publix to buy cupcakes for dannys bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANNY!!! <33 anyways then we went and chilled at alinas. then got ready and went to the movies with camila, zach, and jaryd. we met up with amanda and danny. danny left and the rest of us crossed the street and went to the pet store and blockbuster. then we went bak to shadowood and everything started closing cuz of the fucking curfew so we sat in the movie theater lobby on benches and yeah. then we left. and yes. found out that zach likes me and yeah. and i hope things work out with me and max. cuz i realy like him. sighhh. now im on the phone with kristin, maggie, johnathon, and camila. but yes, im bored and im guna go.

-later skaters-

...[Ryan

look for the girl with the [b r o k e n] smile..


wow. today sucked so much ass. i woke up at like 11. talked to lauri a bit. then took a hot shower and stuff and went on the computer and danced around my house like an idiot while blasting the music until 5 when camila got home. then we went to get gas and while in like we ran into our dear friends scott, gustavo, and evan. we chilled with them for a while. they walked to publix with us then we left. then went to the pet store by home depot. they didnt have an ferrets (thank god) but we did see guinea pigs fuck each other up the ass. lmao!! anyways then walked up to wendys with nicole and camila. we met chris and max up there. it was gay. then left and walked nicole home and she got grounded cuz it was late. now im at camilas cuz i dunno why. but yes.


god damnit. i always fuck everything up. i seriously do. i wish i never wrote that fucking journal entry with my gay "rules". it fucked up everything. i like how things were before i wrote that. now i know that hes like either scared to do anything with me in public or w/e for fear that i'd get mad or sumthing. and i know that for a fact that he doesnt feel the same around me after reading that. i wish we would actually act like bf/gf. i take back every fucking word that was in the journal entry. god im so fucking stupid. this has to be what like the 5th time i've fucked everything up? wow janelle congratulations on being a fucking loser.


-later-

...[Ryan

pop pop pop that thang....lol

SmarterChild: I absolutely have a penis.



-wow. everyone has one now-a-days.

...[Ryan

blah blah beep blah blah..


ahh today was absoultely wondeful. i took a hot shower, blowdryed my hair and straightened it. i had gotten my hair cut during the hurricane and i never really got to see what it looks like and now i do. its hot. i love it. lol. but anyways im bored i was gunna go over jaryds house but its too far away to walk by myself. camila wont get home until 5 and then i want to make plans to go out tonite....

-later dudes-

...[Ryan

electricity=necessity


YAY for POWER!! wow, jus got our power bak this afternoon after like 4 days of no power. power is a wondeful thing. lol . anyways last couple of days have been really gay. thought we were gunna die on sat. nite when the hurricane came and i was on the phone until my battery died and the power went out. then one day went to miami with camila and we watched tv!! haha comedy central is funny shit dude. hung out with jaryd a couple times no one else tho really....ooo we talked to eddie one day for sum reason...dunno why. camila slept over a few times cuz i at least had a phone line that worked.
today:, after getting power, we went to the mall with jaryd and met up with kristin. max eventually met up with us, then left to go hang out with jeremy and stuff....grrr i dont even feel like getting into it right now. blahhh. yes then i jus hung out with jaryd cuz everyone was being gay. allison came and was being a total whore. krisitn and camila kept leaving and so i hung out with jaryd and his friends frank, matt, josh, and seth.....aww josh and seth were sooo cute. lol. but anyways yeah then we left and it was raining like a motherf*cker. and we culdnt tkae jaryd home cuz boca winds was like flooded. so he had to walk from the entrance. but yeah. now im bored and im hoping max will call me cuz i need to talk to him...but whatever.

-later lovers-

...[Ryan

frances this, frances that....


wow. im bored. the cables out and no ones online cuz most ppl lost their power already. hmm. so ill prolly end up reading my book...eeek. whatever. its so cool to watch the hurricane tho...

...[Ryan

wanted to belong here, but something felt so wrong here....


awww today sucked yet ended fun. i slept ovr camilas last nite and it was soo dark and scary and we beat each other up in our sleep. lol. then i went home and we were gunna go to max's house but camila didnt want to so i did nothing all day. ooo ooo ooo! but i cleaned my room! ya'll shuld be proud! i packed all my "nesecites" up. lol. then i talked on the phone with max and watched the ring. fucking scary movie. then camila and alina magically showed up in my room and told me to go outside that there was a party. so we went to the block party and sat in alinas room drawing pictures of her dead body after the hurricane comes and hairy penises. lol. then mike (her dad) came in and i gave hima hug and took a drink of his beer and it was really good so i took another then he gavve it to us and jus told us not to tell alinas mom. dude mike, u rock! so we all passed the beer around. it was good. we wanted more but he wuldnt let us. *tear*. then we laid in the street looking at the stars and at the boy next door. he was ugly tho. lol. then we ate chocolate cake with our fingers, well i used my fingers they were to sophisticated for that so tehy used forks. then camila left and patrick (20 year old chinese dude) from down the street, came over and sat down on the driveway and talked to me and alina for like 20 minutes. it was weird. hes kinda creepy. butyeah. then i told alina my "secret" and she and i have psychiatric sessions lol. and we sang my weed song. then i left and yes. im here. well i must go cuz i have to change this song. i hate it.

-later losers-





f*cking hurricane better hurry up and come cuz i want to actually be able to do sumthin this weekend!! ahhhh!! frances sucks hairy penis!!

...[Ryan

oh you drive me crazy...boy you just bring me down...


god im seriously considering making my journal friends only so no one can see it if all your gunna do is leave bitchy comments in my journal. if i say sumthin u dont like, suck it up. this isnt ur journal, its mine.

3 _* | ...[Ryan

excuse you!

wow. we jus saw a commercial for "Low-Carb Dog Food"...what has this world come to???

...[Ryan

she paints her nails and she dont kno, hes got her best friend on the phone...


The Story of Rap
as told by: Brian


Once upon a time........there were some black stoners smoking wayyy to much n they started a band of new music n they called themselves crap because they we're amused by dog shit but they were too stoned to even remember how to spell so they created rap that is y i laugh when i hear rappers cuz i always think of crappers.........And they lived happily ever after.

THE END.



--that deserved to win the award thing they give to good books. lol--

6 _* | ...[Ryan

i can still hear the sound of love run dry...


omfg. i wish everyone wuld shut the hell up about this hurricane. personally, i think everyone is over obsessing about this. and no one except for mayb ur grandparents can tell me that they've been thru a fucking hurricane before and that im being stupid not caring. cuz ya'll havent been thru one. everyone is jus scared shitless because a storm this big has never come this close to boca since 1947. yes, 1947 bitches. i went to wendys today and there were cars backed up all the way down the road for gas. wtf yo. its not like we are gunna fukcing die. jesus christ people. if one more person says that i better board up my windows, im gunna shoot them. seriously, shut up all of you and stop acting like u fucking know everything. god damnit people are fucking stupid...

-fuck off-

...[Ryan

here i go, so dishonestly...

how cool is this? its 9 am and school hasnt started yet!! i love these days. im on the phone with camila and eating chips cuz i didnt want a bagel. ewie. we get to go to starbucks before school!!! yay!!! scotts coming at like 9:40 then we will leave. but jesus christ i am sooo sick. if today was an odd day, i wuld stay home from school...

hurricanes coming. joy.

-later g units-

<3-janelle

6 _* | ...[Ryan

i got a bad feeling about this...

yayness. i painted my nails sparkly white and changed my journal format around abit. well jus the colors and the icon. comment and tell me what ya think! oh and i totally bullshitted my spanish homework. wow im gunna fail that class. =)

-later skater-

2 _* | ...[Ryan