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:: 2004 17 April :: 9.34 pm

lmao... i just got the confirmation comment thingy from andy saying "your $2 dollars have been received".. and before i read it i was like "oh god, what did i do! andy is commenting in my jounral.. i dont remember doing anything bad."...

i jsut saw School of Rock, that movie is wicked good.. likea t the begining i was like "umm.. that little guy on guitar is ok..".. but then at the end he pulled out a cuple solos so yeah hes alot better then he has to act in the begining.. unless it was fake.. it looked real.. so... yeah.. or if he didnt right all that stuff. then yeah.. id have to hear someother stuff.. but hes awsoume for being 10.. Fenominal i shouldsay..with a capital "F" unless its spelled "phenominal" then it would be with a capital "PH"... anyways...

ive been running kinda late today.. i took my shower at 6:00 (4 hours ago)...

i want to stay and type more but im hungry.. going to make some nachoz... be back later!

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:: 2004 16 April :: 9.49 pm

if you can remember ever haveing fun by a river when you were a kid... thats how i feel.. its that rope swing.. jsut sitting there waiting to be used.. and you want to, but its that part where you leap off the shore.. and let go... its tough, but then its worth it in the end.. i gotta leap monday....and jsut liek the rope swings... there is no half leaping.. you either jump and let go over the water or let go over the shore and brake your tail-bone... i jsut have to make sure i do it in the right way...

im tired and bored..lol... if i wasnt so tired id go make up a guitar solo like i plan on doing tommorrow... but.. too tired...

i wonder what shes thinking right now... shes probly thinking "im hungry, yet its 10:00..."... and i agree.

i saw dan at steves music store place.. and me and steve talked for a while about stuff. hes pretty cool.. just liek that dude from string and things i was talkign to last week for like a half an hour.. there was some rocker kid there holding a bass and being like "wow... this bass shreds man.."... and then i saw the Peavey 5150 combo.. and i was like "Dan look its my amp accept puny".. and the kid almost crapped his pants.. hes like "your saying that amp is.. pa..pa.. puny!". and i like "well.. i have the 5150 120 watt tube head... with 2 300 watt cabs... (compared to the 60 watt, i think, combo)."

shes worth jumping for, hand down... shes so awsoume in ever way i can possbly think.. even when shes mad its really cute and i cant help but smile.. which then leads her into more cute fury.. which is umm.. bad.. anyways...

the only thing is i hate seeing her sad... miss denham was being super biatch today... like.. the things she (miss d) was saying.. what a biatch... her (miss d) and miss fitzgerald were talkign bad stuff about hannah and alan behind there backs like little school girls jsut gossiping away i guess according to lindsey.. i wouldnt doubt it... i hear them when they do it about me... they arent exactly good at being secretive.. Miss Denham is a bad influence on Miss Fitzgerald... i bet Miss Fitz would be awsoume if she was roomed next to Dalfonse (spelling) instead.

icecream is good. :)

shes in every other paragraph so why not keep it going.. yeah, shes awsoume. and its not becuase im bored an tired..

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:: 2004 16 April :: 8.22 pm

hmmm... xanga is being gay..... really gay.. like it says "youve found a bug.. the page you have selected does not exist.".. and its my page!!.. it wont load my page which i jsut updated 10 seconds ago.. if anyone reads this.. plzzzzz.. go there and see if my journal is there and the last update is liek my really big last update on here.. thank ya lots!..

oh yeah.. i forgot.. in Art today courtney came in from working on her muril and marissa c. like flipped out on her and was like "you are a witch!.. why are you soo mean to people.. why are you soo mean to todd.. huh!"... she must have been randomly thinking back to when i didnt know who courtney and she got mad at me becuase i didnt know her last name... and before that when i didnt know her first name.. i deserved it.. kinda crazy how marissa decided to stick up for me... it was really nice to know she cares.. but... it got me in trouble with courtney becuase she probly thinks that i talk abotu her behind her back.. which I DONT!.. lol... oh well...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 16 April :: 7.13 pm

wow i havent updated in a long while.. but i think im going to be updating alot more now that my senior project is over with..

today was an ok day.. in physics we were talkign about donar babies... which lead to sperm banks.. which lead to talkign about masturbation.. wich lead to talking about how much masturbation is exactly healthy.. yeah my physics class is cool.

on a further note about my physics class.. like 2 days ago janelle (spelling) and sarah were randomly measureing eachothers boobs in the front of the class with like toilet paper.. like i swear to god every guy in the entire classroom were starring and like drooling.. janelle finally realized it... and was like "sarah maybe we should do this somewhere else...".. what was she suppossed to expect would happen.. lol... im sure she wanted it to happen.... and then it was wicked funny.. the day before that dominique (spelling) got scratch and sniff underwear for her b-day.. and she was liek showing everyone in the class.. and in the hallway.. she was like "smell my underwear!".. i didnt smell them.. id feel really awkward...im surprised she didnt jsut pass them around... lol.. Miss Brichi was like "umm.. that is kinda weird...."oh yeah... and since ice already said a bunch of stuff about physics... lmoa.. everyone was talking about chris's sister like hmm... a week and a couple days ago.. lol.. and theere was no reason.. dominique was jsut like "wow.. your sister has big boobs..." and then liek everyoen joined in, including miss brichi... lol.. she was like "shes such a tiny girl.. and they jsut seem so out of proportion..".. and then luke was like "i have no idea where she gets it from".. and chris was like "what!! youve been lookign at my mom to!".. and then luke was like "what.... is that bad.. i mean im a guy.. whats wrong with that?''... and chris was like "its my mom!!!! there are laws.. your only 17!!..".. but enough about physics.. i luv that class..it so awsoume.. we dont do anything... lmao.. oh yeah.. chris and luke becuase if the sperm bank convo today decided that us three shoudl go to the sperm bank and donate.... TOGETHER... i know wed be in seperate rooms.. but that weird.. how they want to like plan it out and drive their together.. i was like "umm.. nah....maybe SOME OTHER TIME"... and by "chris" .. i meen "chris A.".... not chris franseen.....

I skipped art class to go see hannah and alan work on there muril (they are in my class, but the muril is in another part of the school).. and Hannah was offered me a hug... and alan gave me this face like "you know you want it.".. and he knows i have the biggest crush on her so it made me feel too awkward to do it.. somethign about him knowing just how overexcited id be over that hug... and now i feel shitty.. should have tooken the hug... she probly thinks i hate her..

i dressed kinda Emo/ punk rocker today... i had my usual jinco pants.. but then i had a whit work shirt (which was not tucked in) and a tie (which was really loose) and i had fishnets....not sure what thats called... "Gepic" i think..

if it is bothering me sooooo much all becuase of a missed hug.. i should just tell her... lol.. what do i have to lose... but of coarse if alans there... that will make me feel awkward again.. becuase he'll be like "hes trying.. i think.. wow.. he sucks at this"... or "wow... hes really corny... "

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 27 March :: 9.58 pm

today was sweet.. didnt do any recording but me and jeremy did write a song.. (in one day).. yeah.. we are alot better then we used to be.. lmao.. songs used to take like 3 weeks to make.. and theyed suck.. but now what we make is alot better.. and in a day..lmao.. crazyiness... anyways.. IT MAKES ME HAPPY!.. lol.. the song we wrote today is pretty soft in some spots.. but its wicked heavy to.. lol.. yay..cant wait until i get to record that one.. its my favorite..

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:: 2004 26 March :: 10.02 pm

today was soo awsoume out.. lol.. like up in the jam room and stuff it was actually warm.. and i was bale to wear a t-shirt.. lol.. i was like "LIFE IS GOOD!".. Will finally came over but he really wasnt much help.. he tried setting up the drum tracks.. but they didnt sound as good as they were before.. he did bring up a good point about how to set them up, though he didnt try to hard at making them sound good...

its sooo aggrivating.. like.. ill think "wow.. weve got some stuff done and recorded.." and then all of a sudden "lets start over".. its like "WTF".. im starting to get nervous.. though when i actually think about it.. what we hadd recorded only took us less then a week... and i have a month.. soo... its all good.. im jsut easily nerved up..

me and jeremy jsut kinda randomly played a bunch of stuff we pulled out of our asses for like an hour and a half..im soo much better at guitar then i used to be.. it feels great..lol

oh yeah, i got some email from the Manager of DaDarrio and hse was like "yeah we will send you straps and materials under the condition that you show us how your design turns out, or if you have any design elements complete to jsut send them our way....."..... sooo... im thinking im goign to write her a nasty letter... Mr. Ginty told me to be really carefull.. becuase she most likely is tryign to rip me off and steal my design.. so...or she coudl jsut be checking to see im not tryign to get free stuff.... but MOST LIKELY shes a bitch.....

Mr Ginty said it wouldnt be the first time that happened... i guess during presentations some lady drew out a bunvch of sketches of the studesnt desings like 2 years ago.. so they walked up to her and were like "excuse me, that intelectual property... if you dont dispose of those sketches or if anyway you steal our design... we will sue your ass."..so she ended up buying the design off them for like $1000 instead... stupid bitch.

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:: 2004 22 March :: 8.14 pm

today was a pretty standard school day.. lol.. i went to school.. came home.. ate and played DOAXBV.. i would have goen to jeremys since we are actually actually recordign now.. like.. wow.. i know idea it would take such along time. its easy.. but sooooo time consimuing.. lol...

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:: 2004 20 March :: 9.25 pm

i did absolutely nothing today..lmao.. kinda funny..hmm.. i can sum up today pretty easy, i woke up, took a shower, looked online for games, played DOAXBV (becuase i was in a really pervey mood), and now im talkign online.. lol

im watching "The 101 Reasons the 90's Ruled".. its boring.. lol.. im like "yep yep, yep... ".. "yep yep yep.. *yawn*.. wow.. yep.." it wont end.. i want to see the #1 reason the 90's ruled.. but its been like 2 hours since it started and its only at like the 57th reason....

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:: 2004 17 March :: 7.18 pm

today was felt wicked short.. school should have a 2 hour delay everyday.. i felt soo much more awake.. lol.. i didnt sleep anymore then usual.. weird.. anyways.. my cold is almost better i think.. all i have now is my nose is alittle stuffy and alittle cough ever once in a while..

it was to cold to do anythign really today.. i hate playign guitar when my fingers are numb.. i brought my Line 6 back to jeremys and when i finally got there and got it all hooked up i realized i had forgotten its power chord. soo i was like "srew it.. im going home".. lol

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:: 2004 14 March :: 3.02 pm

Woohu is going to be going.. that sucks.. but ive started a xanga account.. soo.. yeah... lol.. its littleghost7... but im not goign to use it until woohu goes.. soo yeah

yesterday was pretty boring.. i had to drive to jeremy's to pick up the Line 6 to trade at daddys.. but i ended up not.. i had enough for the head in cash soo i jsut bought the head.. im goign to wait on the cab until i find a better deal.. or atleast a used one that isnt SOOOO beat up.. It was pretty cool though becuase the guy dropped the price for the head by $50 bucks becuase there was some little tape marks.. its new.. i think it might have been the floor model.. but anyways.. yeah.. i got the marks out with some all-purpose dashboard cleaner.. YAY..lol

not going to jeremys yesterday and today (for a long periods of time) gave me a chance to think up some guitar riffs... YAY.. lol.. thye just came out to.. i feel like ive grown soooo much from way back in theday.. like when i was in a band with levi and we sucked ass.. lol.. i remember that.. i couldnt think of ANYTHING at all..lol

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:: 2004 12 March :: 7.18 pm

i saw the new APC video today.. for The Insider.. wow.. it didnt seem liek APC at all.. i thought it was a joke.. who evers in charge of music videos must have been really horny or horny or something.. it starts of with some hot chick being escorted into jail.. she kisses the officer and pushes him and then runs off.. it seemed somewhat normal.. until she randomly decided to strip down into a bikini.. and escape with a bunch of other girls in bikinis escaping from jail.. they then go and destroyign this town with baseball bats.. lol.. its pretty funny

we got down some guitar tracks today.. i know joey and roy said "start with the drum tracks first".. but this makes more sence to me..

recording must make me tired or something.... becuase im really really tired..

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:: 2004 11 March :: 10.17 pm

i havent updated in a while... becuase i havent been online in a while.. lol.. schools been going ok.. im behin in Art 3 big time.. becuase i keep finding myself just socializing all class with alan and hannah.. lol..

it wicked sucked a couple of days ago.. I had jsut gottten done saying "yeah.. marissa is cool.. she keeps everything interesting.." to some people who were gossiping "shes a S.L.U.T... shes stupid"..when marissa decided to be crazy.. i was talkign about darhia the show Darhia and how on Beavis and ButtHead the call her " Diahrea".. so Marissa decided to yell wicked loud over and over "what what.. todd.. you have diahria.. TODD HAS DIAHRIA!!".. it wasnt very funny.. she was sorry after but that was jsut stupid...

me and jeremy finally set up everything.. Roy and Joey help out alot yesterday.. but to get a better drum sound we moved all of jeremys drums back in the small room the used to be.. and we had to make a make shift table for the laptop.. and well.. there is cords EVERYWHERE.. i meen.. its insane..lol..

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